Submissions by just_lonely (Megan. Just Megan)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
Does sucha thing as love exist. When i seek for it i find only pain and despair,im pathetic, i cant seem to understand love, i cant find it either..
LOVE POEM
Published
4th Dec 2013 6:51am
4th Dec 2013 6:51am
Everytime I think about you...
Everytime I think about you,
The blade inches closer,
the tears fall,
the pain never goes away.
Everytime we speak,
I pretend its all okay,
bu its just a facade.
That day you said,
you found someone who loves you,
The silly me thought you were talking about her,
And the painfull conversations we had,
you spened half of the time talking about her,
I just simply nodded,
fighting the tears back.
I bite my lip drawing blood,
as it trails down my chin,
the tears fall from my eyes,
no longer baring the pain in my...
The blade inches closer,
the tears fall,
the pain never goes away.
Everytime we speak,
I pretend its all okay,
bu its just a facade.
That day you said,
you found someone who loves you,
The silly me thought you were talking about her,
And the painfull conversations we had,
you spened half of the time talking about her,
I just simply nodded,
fighting the tears back.
I bite my lip drawing blood,
as it trails down my chin,
the tears fall from my eyes,
no longer baring the pain in my...
779 reads
3 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
8th Nov 2013 6:12am
8th Nov 2013 6:12am
Awaiting death
Why does it hurt?
Here in my chest,
When I see you it hurts,
I dont understand.
Why?
After all we've been through,
now you say it was just an adventure,
Okay, sure whatever,
play with my fucking feelings,
its not like i use them anyways.
My heart is now ripped to pieces,
by so many people that...
I lost track,
everytime they take a bite out of it
it feel none,
numb,
unexistent.
My legs used to shake when you smiled at me,
now you wont even look my way,
I dont care....Really,
Its just another stab...
Here in my chest,
When I see you it hurts,
I dont understand.
Why?
After all we've been through,
now you say it was just an adventure,
Okay, sure whatever,
play with my fucking feelings,
its not like i use them anyways.
My heart is now ripped to pieces,
by so many people that...
I lost track,
everytime they take a bite out of it
it feel none,
numb,
unexistent.
My legs used to shake when you smiled at me,
now you wont even look my way,
I dont care....Really,
Its just another stab...
732 reads
3 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
3rd Nov 2013 9:22pm
3rd Nov 2013 9:22pm
Words hurt like any other blade....
sweet dreams,
I dont really remember those,
I remember nightmares,
killing,
blood,
suicide.
My childhood was never pretty,
I wore a smiling mask,
so no one asked,
i pretended like I didnt care,
when anger flared inside me,
the stupid nicknames,
Emo bitch...
Oh, if they could see me now.
If they only knew the raw hatred i held in me,
the raw emotion i locked away,
if they only knew the real damage they did,
i would love to see their faces,
if one day i were to explode with anger.
Dont they know their...
I dont really remember those,
I remember nightmares,
killing,
blood,
suicide.
My childhood was never pretty,
I wore a smiling mask,
so no one asked,
i pretended like I didnt care,
when anger flared inside me,
the stupid nicknames,
Emo bitch...
Oh, if they could see me now.
If they only knew the raw hatred i held in me,
the raw emotion i locked away,
if they only knew the real damage they did,
i would love to see their faces,
if one day i were to explode with anger.
Dont they know their...
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DARK POEM
Published
30th Oct 2013 5:42am
30th Oct 2013 5:42am
She is gone now...
She is gone now,
her bubbly laugh echoing the halls,
her sparckling green eyes staring happily,
her bright smile across her face,
the rosyness from her cheeks in snowy days,
the cute pouts from silly fights.
Now all that's left is,
A simple straight line for a smile,
a pair of dull green eyes staring at the wall,
her small lips lossy with her lipstick,
her pale face like that of a broken doll,
her lifeless stare in her bedroom floor.
Her small body fragile like glass,
her small hands holding a bright red rose,
her green eyes...
her bubbly laugh echoing the halls,
her sparckling green eyes staring happily,
her bright smile across her face,
the rosyness from her cheeks in snowy days,
the cute pouts from silly fights.
Now all that's left is,
A simple straight line for a smile,
a pair of dull green eyes staring at the wall,
her small lips lossy with her lipstick,
her pale face like that of a broken doll,
her lifeless stare in her bedroom floor.
Her small body fragile like glass,
her small hands holding a bright red rose,
her green eyes...
735 reads
5 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
18th Oct 2013 10:09am
18th Oct 2013 10:09am
numb.....
Your insults hurt,
Yet i dont feel them anymore,
The glares shoot through me,
Yet i never notice.
What i wanna feel is pain,
No love,
Pain is my only friend.
I wear a souless mask,
Because im afraid someting ,
Something might make me happy,
I dont want that,
Because then,
Some stupid shit is gonna come,
And fuck my world up.
I come home sit and cry almost everyday,
Then i look under my pillow, my wallet and bag,
Blades everywere,
Because i want pain to acompany me,
Forever.
Ah.... the razor,...
Yet i dont feel them anymore,
The glares shoot through me,
Yet i never notice.
What i wanna feel is pain,
No love,
Pain is my only friend.
I wear a souless mask,
Because im afraid someting ,
Something might make me happy,
I dont want that,
Because then,
Some stupid shit is gonna come,
And fuck my world up.
I come home sit and cry almost everyday,
Then i look under my pillow, my wallet and bag,
Blades everywere,
Because i want pain to acompany me,
Forever.
Ah.... the razor,...
649 reads
1 Comment
LOVE POEM
Published
17th Oct 2013 8:34am
17th Oct 2013 8:34am
Why?
Why?
Do you make me love you,
You lift my hopes up,
I loved you,
You ignored me.
What is this feeling in my chest,
What? Emotions?
What is that?
Feelings,
Ha!
The only emotion i know is...
Hate.
I feel,
Anger,
Sadness,
Love,
Jelousy....
I hate this!
I dont think i can live like this anymore
I hate this.
Do you make me love you,
You lift my hopes up,
I loved you,
You ignored me.
What is this feeling in my chest,
What? Emotions?
What is that?
Feelings,
Ha!
The only emotion i know is...
Hate.
I feel,
Anger,
Sadness,
Love,
Jelousy....
I hate this!
I dont think i can live like this anymore
I hate this.
702 reads
3 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
16th Oct 2013 7:00am
16th Oct 2013 7:00am
Yes this is me....
I can't really tell you,
Why she felt that way,
Like she was alone all the time,
No company in her state of mind.
She was her own bestfriend,
Isnt that sad?,
Yes she is sad,
Everything about her is sad,
But she doesnt need your simpathy.
She knows she is all alone,
But she wants to think there is someone out there,
With the same problem,
Selfish i know.
Can you really blame her?
She is just looking for someone to relate,
Someone to talk to,
Not just herself.
She sounds crazy uh?,
Well let me tell you,...
Why she felt that way,
Like she was alone all the time,
No company in her state of mind.
She was her own bestfriend,
Isnt that sad?,
Yes she is sad,
Everything about her is sad,
But she doesnt need your simpathy.
She knows she is all alone,
But she wants to think there is someone out there,
With the same problem,
Selfish i know.
Can you really blame her?
She is just looking for someone to relate,
Someone to talk to,
Not just herself.
She sounds crazy uh?,
Well let me tell you,...
741 reads
2 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
15th Oct 2013 9:37am
15th Oct 2013 9:37am
Her death....
She just wanted to fit in,
But no one noticed her,
Hiding behind her brown hair,
Her shining eyes,
Now dull.
She looked at her reflexion,
'I want to fit in , but how?', she asked herself,
Everynight, full of pain and despair.
Dragging her blade down her arm she smiled,
Feeling the cool smooth blade around her pale wrist,
She placed it above the artery,
And pressed,
The warm blood tickled down her arm,
Her worries all gone.
With a flash everything went black.
The next day people stood in the graveyard,
Mouring...
But no one noticed her,
Hiding behind her brown hair,
Her shining eyes,
Now dull.
She looked at her reflexion,
'I want to fit in , but how?', she asked herself,
Everynight, full of pain and despair.
Dragging her blade down her arm she smiled,
Feeling the cool smooth blade around her pale wrist,
She placed it above the artery,
And pressed,
The warm blood tickled down her arm,
Her worries all gone.
With a flash everything went black.
The next day people stood in the graveyard,
Mouring...
625 reads
3 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
12th Oct 2013 8:51am
12th Oct 2013 8:51am
thank you....
Thank you!
For kicking me down when i was on the floor,
For picking on me by the school doors,
For talking behind my back,
Like im some kind of psichopath.
Thank you,
For staring at me when i made it through something,
For whispering in halls,
And pushing me into the stalls.
Thank you,
For not letting me be myself,
But....
I dont care how many times you,
Kick me down,
I will get up,
I dont care about your picking,
Because one day i'll snap,
And all of you will regret it.
For kicking me down when i was on the floor,
For picking on me by the school doors,
For talking behind my back,
Like im some kind of psichopath.
Thank you,
For staring at me when i made it through something,
For whispering in halls,
And pushing me into the stalls.
Thank you,
For not letting me be myself,
But....
I dont care how many times you,
Kick me down,
I will get up,
I dont care about your picking,
Because one day i'll snap,
And all of you will regret it.
624 reads
1 Comment
SELF POEM
Published
11th Oct 2013 10:09am
11th Oct 2013 10:09am
Nobody noticed...
Nobody noticed,
The girl in the corner,
The girl hiding behind a mask,
Her pale face looking ordenary to the naked eye,
But if you look closely,
You'll see scars from her past.
Her dull green eyes normal to the naked eye,
But if you look closely,
You will see no soul in them.
She may say shes okay,
She wants to be alone,
But what she really wants,
Is a hug.
When teased,
She stays quiet,
Burning her anger,
On her wrists,
Telling herself that what they say is true,
When it really isnt.
Nobody noticed...
The girl in the corner,
The girl hiding behind a mask,
Her pale face looking ordenary to the naked eye,
But if you look closely,
You'll see scars from her past.
Her dull green eyes normal to the naked eye,
But if you look closely,
You will see no soul in them.
She may say shes okay,
She wants to be alone,
But what she really wants,
Is a hug.
When teased,
She stays quiet,
Burning her anger,
On her wrists,
Telling herself that what they say is true,
When it really isnt.
Nobody noticed...
722 reads
2 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
7th Oct 2013 9:05am
7th Oct 2013 9:05am
drip, the drop of blood goes...
Drip,
Another drop of blood falls from the blade,
Drip,
A little girl who fades away,
Drip,
She was looking for love,
But instead,
She found blood.
Her brigt and cheery smile,
Never returing,
Her glowing eyes,
Left in the darkness,
Of lonelyness,
And despair.
Her good old friend,
The blade.
Drip,drip.
Her wrists always covered,
Afraid to look like a freak,
Her light brown hair ,
Covered in a beanie,
Afraid to look diferent.
Yet no one noticed,
Her charming fake smile,...
Another drop of blood falls from the blade,
Drip,
A little girl who fades away,
Drip,
She was looking for love,
But instead,
She found blood.
Her brigt and cheery smile,
Never returing,
Her glowing eyes,
Left in the darkness,
Of lonelyness,
And despair.
Her good old friend,
The blade.
Drip,drip.
Her wrists always covered,
Afraid to look like a freak,
Her light brown hair ,
Covered in a beanie,
Afraid to look diferent.
Yet no one noticed,
Her charming fake smile,...
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0 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
6th Oct 2013 10:36am
6th Oct 2013 10:36am
suicide note
Mom, Dad,
Im sorry i wasnt the perfect daughter you wished for
Im sorry im not daddys little princess,
Im sorry for being who i am,
Right now im writing this letter to let you know.
My smiles were fake,
That glow in my eyes,
Just an trick,
Because i dont want anyone to ask,
Why?
Why you ask,
Because im tired of living a lie,
Im tired of acting like a perfect little girl,
Im tired of hiding who i am.
Dont stand there and weep,
It wasn your fault,
It was mine,
Like always.
Dont wory i have a sister,
You...
Im sorry i wasnt the perfect daughter you wished for
Im sorry im not daddys little princess,
Im sorry for being who i am,
Right now im writing this letter to let you know.
My smiles were fake,
That glow in my eyes,
Just an trick,
Because i dont want anyone to ask,
Why?
Why you ask,
Because im tired of living a lie,
Im tired of acting like a perfect little girl,
Im tired of hiding who i am.
Dont stand there and weep,
It wasn your fault,
It was mine,
Like always.
Dont wory i have a sister,
You...
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