Submissions by jmerrick73
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
Poetry is my outlet for expressing my depression, my anger, my love, my hate, my dark hellish life.
SELF POEM
Published
11th Sep 2024 11:38am
11th Sep 2024 11:38am
I am Nothing while here
I am Nothing.
I am that little worm on a big fkn hook.
I am the one who continues to lose in life.
I am the man of little faith in friends.
I am the man who has been married and divorced twice.
I am the fat grotesque man that cannot have children.
How much time do i have left?
Only God knows the answer.
Since i am 50, not long i tell you. Men don't live long in life.
Then again this life is temporary. The next life is Eternal. I am so looking forward to the next life.
No more death.
No more pain.
No more crying.
No more...
I am that little worm on a big fkn hook.
I am the one who continues to lose in life.
I am the man of little faith in friends.
I am the man who has been married and divorced twice.
I am the fat grotesque man that cannot have children.
How much time do i have left?
Only God knows the answer.
Since i am 50, not long i tell you. Men don't live long in life.
Then again this life is temporary. The next life is Eternal. I am so looking forward to the next life.
No more death.
No more pain.
No more crying.
No more...
#emptiness
#frustration
#loneliness
#rejection
#sadness
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SELF POEM
Published
13th Jul 2024 8:35pm
13th Jul 2024 8:35pm
Depleted
There is no life without love.
There is no love without life.
I wish there was someone that could love me.
At 50 there's no one to love me.
So empty within.
Just waiting for my happy ending.
That's if there ever is such a thing for me.
FUCK.
I wish i hadn't done this to myself.
I deserve this, what I've done to myself.
This sickness in my mind i created.
Lord, forgive me.
I'm just too fucking nice.
Nice gets you nowhere in this fucking world.
I help buy this i help buy that.
All i get in return is mental fucking...
There is no love without life.
I wish there was someone that could love me.
At 50 there's no one to love me.
So empty within.
Just waiting for my happy ending.
That's if there ever is such a thing for me.
FUCK.
I wish i hadn't done this to myself.
I deserve this, what I've done to myself.
This sickness in my mind i created.
Lord, forgive me.
I'm just too fucking nice.
Nice gets you nowhere in this fucking world.
I help buy this i help buy that.
All i get in return is mental fucking...
#despair
#emptiness
#heartbroken
#loneliness
#love
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SELF POEM
Published
18th Apr 2024 7:18am
18th Apr 2024 7:18am
HATE
I know you HATE me.
I know they HATE me.
I know everybody HATES me.
That's the way it's always been
And that's the way it'll always be.
50 years old and don't have a mfkn thing to show for it.
I don't own my place.
I don't own my car.
All i have is my job,dick & nuts
No love to call my own.
No love to love.
No love to adore.
Everyone HATES me.
My looks are to blame.
Not a handsome man.
I have nothing to offer anyone.
I can only offer what's in my heart.
Obviously nobody wants that.
I have no...
I know they HATE me.
I know everybody HATES me.
That's the way it's always been
And that's the way it'll always be.
50 years old and don't have a mfkn thing to show for it.
I don't own my place.
I don't own my car.
All i have is my job,dick & nuts
No love to call my own.
No love to love.
No love to adore.
Everyone HATES me.
My looks are to blame.
Not a handsome man.
I have nothing to offer anyone.
I can only offer what's in my heart.
Obviously nobody wants that.
I have no...
#hate
#love
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SELF POEM
Published
10th Feb 2024 5:50am
10th Feb 2024 5:50am
Give up
I've decided to just give up on love.
After 2 yrs of being divorced.
No sign of any woman showing interest
Just a bunch of ghosters and money hungry sack chasers.
No more
No more, never again.
This is where it's the end.
Hearts been shattered so much.
My heart only responds to i don't give a fuck.
My friends i don't want to hear of how much you're in love and how wonderful it is.
On love i give it a squirt of hot steam piss.
You bring your tales of true love happiness.
My response is going to be pure negativity, so get on with...
After 2 yrs of being divorced.
No sign of any woman showing interest
Just a bunch of ghosters and money hungry sack chasers.
No more
No more, never again.
This is where it's the end.
Hearts been shattered so much.
My heart only responds to i don't give a fuck.
My friends i don't want to hear of how much you're in love and how wonderful it is.
On love i give it a squirt of hot steam piss.
You bring your tales of true love happiness.
My response is going to be pure negativity, so get on with...
#sadness
#anger
#rejection
#heartbroken
#emptiness
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LOVE POEM
Published
20th Nov 2023 10:42am
20th Nov 2023 10:42am
Will there ever be another Love for me?
A True Love for thee?
A light of my life?
A True Love that brings Empathy to me?
To truly care for me?
To bring everything Loving into life?
To also bring a fire within my loins?
Or is this all there is for me?
I reminisce on past loves.
To when i was much younger and care free in life.
Now that life is very close to it's end, I think a Love for me is non existing.
Time has gone by taking everything dear to my heart.
Family, Friends, True Loves.
There won't be a new chapter in my life.
The only chapter i forsee is the last...
A light of my life?
A True Love that brings Empathy to me?
To truly care for me?
To bring everything Loving into life?
To also bring a fire within my loins?
Or is this all there is for me?
I reminisce on past loves.
To when i was much younger and care free in life.
Now that life is very close to it's end, I think a Love for me is non existing.
Time has gone by taking everything dear to my heart.
Family, Friends, True Loves.
There won't be a new chapter in my life.
The only chapter i forsee is the last...
#happiness
#love
#relationships
#romantic
#FallingInLove
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OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
18th Oct 2023 6:54am
18th Oct 2023 6:54am
The Game
It's been a torture a total mind fuck.
They come into my life then exit my life.
Who the fuck do these things think they are?
At one time 16 years ago they really showed their emotional side to me.
Now they ignore me and do only for their needs.
Fuck me right? Fuck Larry, he means nothing to no one.
That's what i get for falling for them. I don't want to even be seen with them if all they're gonna do is leave me lonely.
It could be family or friends that cause mental devastation.
This time around it's a friend that once showed me physical &...
They come into my life then exit my life.
Who the fuck do these things think they are?
At one time 16 years ago they really showed their emotional side to me.
Now they ignore me and do only for their needs.
Fuck me right? Fuck Larry, he means nothing to no one.
That's what i get for falling for them. I don't want to even be seen with them if all they're gonna do is leave me lonely.
It could be family or friends that cause mental devastation.
This time around it's a friend that once showed me physical &...
#sadness
#loneliness
#rejection
#heartbroken
#disappointment
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NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
8th Oct 2023 3:41pm
8th Oct 2023 3:41pm
My So called Sex life ?
Have i or haven't i slept with many women throughout my life?
Let us take a look and you can be the judge of this.
1991 (Loss of my virginity at age 17)
Char 1994
Crystal 1995
Deb 1996 - 2006
Heather L. 2004-2006
Che 2006 - 2007
Tracy 2007 - 2008
Ann 2008
Jen 2008 - 2021
Ashley 2022 - 2023
Michelle 2022 - 2023
My so called Sex life!!!
Let us take a look and you can be the judge of this.
1991 (Loss of my virginity at age 17)
Char 1994
Crystal 1995
Deb 1996 - 2006
Heather L. 2004-2006
Che 2006 - 2007
Tracy 2007 - 2008
Ann 2008
Jen 2008 - 2021
Ashley 2022 - 2023
Michelle 2022 - 2023
My so called Sex life!!!
#lust
#sex
#lover
#sensual
#passion
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OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
30th Sep 2023 7:26am
30th Sep 2023 7:26am
Out of sight, Out of mind
You think people forget about you now.
Just wait till after you're dead.
OUT OF SIGHT, OUT OF MIND.
That's the way it's always been.
Family and friends will forget all about your ass as well.
You think "Oh not my family and friends."
Yes. Your family and friends.
It's inevitable.
OUT OF SIGHT, OUT OF MIND.
From the time the funerals over and grave is covered with dirt.
The headstone is placed, the flowers are placed.
Briefly there is a time of pain and hurt.
Then the process of starting your job...
Just wait till after you're dead.
OUT OF SIGHT, OUT OF MIND.
That's the way it's always been.
Family and friends will forget all about your ass as well.
You think "Oh not my family and friends."
Yes. Your family and friends.
It's inevitable.
OUT OF SIGHT, OUT OF MIND.
From the time the funerals over and grave is covered with dirt.
The headstone is placed, the flowers are placed.
Briefly there is a time of pain and hurt.
Then the process of starting your job...
#dark
#lies
#shadows
#silence
#TruthOfLife
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NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
15th Jul 2023 5:01pm
15th Jul 2023 5:01pm
Sinful addiction
#lust
#sex
#porn
#dirty
#orgasm
402 reads
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SELF POEM
Published
14th May 2023 11:05am
14th May 2023 11:05am
NO MORE
Fucking off my hard earned money.
either on lottery or some sack chasin' groupie.
I admit it's my sin i get caught up in.
Lovin'money and pussy,that's what i'm dreamin.
Allowing myself to end up sad & depressed.
When my money is low, i get to feeling stressed
I've come to realize i'll never have a true.
All that hurt & pain just isn't worth it,what i'm speaking on ain't nothing new.
Heartbreak and madness.
Fuck the bullshit fuck the fucking stress.
Got to get my mind straight before it's too late
And on that note i'm working on a...
either on lottery or some sack chasin' groupie.
I admit it's my sin i get caught up in.
Lovin'money and pussy,that's what i'm dreamin.
Allowing myself to end up sad & depressed.
When my money is low, i get to feeling stressed
I've come to realize i'll never have a true.
All that hurt & pain just isn't worth it,what i'm speaking on ain't nothing new.
Heartbreak and madness.
Fuck the bullshit fuck the fucking stress.
Got to get my mind straight before it's too late
And on that note i'm working on a...
#porn
#fate
#money
#passion
#ThrillSeeking
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NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
1st Apr 2023 12:50pm
1st Apr 2023 12:50pm
Asmodeus
Never shall i defeat this demon.
This demon that has me 24/7 fiendin.
The demon Asmodeus.
Has become much more aggressive towards my physical body.
Skin tearing.
Flesh burning.
Like I've said before, the sin won't end until life ends.
Straight up facts i speak about
As difficult as it may be to comprehend.
As soon as you are born into this damned hellish world, sin is running through your veins.
Asmodeus aka demon of lust.
Asmodeus isn't of love, he only seeks to make you bust nuts.
Either on the ground, down the drain, in a...
This demon that has me 24/7 fiendin.
The demon Asmodeus.
Has become much more aggressive towards my physical body.
Skin tearing.
Flesh burning.
Like I've said before, the sin won't end until life ends.
Straight up facts i speak about
As difficult as it may be to comprehend.
As soon as you are born into this damned hellish world, sin is running through your veins.
Asmodeus aka demon of lust.
Asmodeus isn't of love, he only seeks to make you bust nuts.
Either on the ground, down the drain, in a...
#abuse
#LifeStruggles
#suffering
#temptation
#hurt
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OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
10th Mar 2023 6:20am
10th Mar 2023 6:20am
The Seen destroying forces
There are not just unseen forces set out to destroy your life.
The seen forces are more damaging to your life and everything in it.
I usually deal with the unseen forces.
Yesterday was my first conflict with the seen, in a very long time.
It made itself known months before the initial attack.
The attack came within a few minutes.
It took place at my place of employment.
It wasn't just one force.
It was two.
At the time it began, it was like a hornets nest was floating around the room.
Only this hornets nest was moving towards me and to...
The seen forces are more damaging to your life and everything in it.
I usually deal with the unseen forces.
Yesterday was my first conflict with the seen, in a very long time.
It made itself known months before the initial attack.
The attack came within a few minutes.
It took place at my place of employment.
It wasn't just one force.
It was two.
At the time it began, it was like a hornets nest was floating around the room.
Only this hornets nest was moving towards me and to...
#hate
#dark
#evil
#TruthOfLife
#suffering
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