Submissions by jmerrick73
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
Poetry is my outlet for expressing my depression, my anger, my love, my hate, my dark hellish life.
MY PUNISHMENT???????
#sadness
#sex
#erotic #nonfiction
#erotic #nonfiction
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Demented?
#illness
#nightmares
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DEAR DIARY
I fkd up.
I fell in love.
Then the bitch broke my heart.
Ghosted me.
Played me.
She said she loved me.
Bitch manipulated me.
Cunt decimated me.
Sliced & diced my heart completely
Oh how i loved her brown curly hair, loved her green eyes.
Her luscious tits & her thick theighs.
All those things burned into my mind from the first time I met her.
I knew it would be difficult to forget her.
Truth be known, i fell in love with her.
Now here i am with this fkn broken & shattered heart.
Finding...
I fell in love.
Then the bitch broke my heart.
Ghosted me.
Played me.
She said she loved me.
Bitch manipulated me.
Cunt decimated me.
Sliced & diced my heart completely
Oh how i loved her brown curly hair, loved her green eyes.
Her luscious tits & her thick theighs.
All those things burned into my mind from the first time I met her.
I knew it would be difficult to forget her.
Truth be known, i fell in love with her.
Now here i am with this fkn broken & shattered heart.
Finding...
#sadness
#anger
#rejection
#heartbroken
#confusion
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So goddamn f**king hurt
#anger
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Dismal???
I am so unloved.
So fkn unloved.
Tired of all the shit that's followed me all the days of my life.
49 yrs old and already had more than one wife.
Alone is what i deserved.
Alone is what i got.
Alone is what i am.
This is my destiny.
I've accepted this.
P.o.s that ain't worth piss.
May God in heaven forgive me for my wickedness.
I know in my heart i deserve nothing short of death in hell.
Help me god.
So tired i am.
Mentally fogged i have become.
Mentally numb.
Day in day out.
Sleep all fkn day even while...
So fkn unloved.
Tired of all the shit that's followed me all the days of my life.
49 yrs old and already had more than one wife.
Alone is what i deserved.
Alone is what i got.
Alone is what i am.
This is my destiny.
I've accepted this.
P.o.s that ain't worth piss.
May God in heaven forgive me for my wickedness.
I know in my heart i deserve nothing short of death in hell.
Help me god.
So tired i am.
Mentally fogged i have become.
Mentally numb.
Day in day out.
Sleep all fkn day even while...
#sadness
#loneliness
#rejection
#heartbroken
#emptiness
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MY CONFESSION TO GOD
Through all my hardships through all my hurt through all my pain.
God was always there,he saw every tear i dropped again & again.
Although i was ridin' with natas every year before 1996.
That was the year i got witnessed to, no longer praising the triple 6.
I believe in my lord,my savior even though at times i feel as though i have lost my way.
Day after day i would fall,forget to be holy and wise.
Day after day i continued to hang around those who were the devil in disguise.
The drinkin' the smokin' the lyin' the stealin' the fornicatin'
no sin is...
God was always there,he saw every tear i dropped again & again.
Although i was ridin' with natas every year before 1996.
That was the year i got witnessed to, no longer praising the triple 6.
I believe in my lord,my savior even though at times i feel as though i have lost my way.
Day after day i would fall,forget to be holy and wise.
Day after day i continued to hang around those who were the devil in disguise.
The drinkin' the smokin' the lyin' the stealin' the fornicatin'
no sin is...
#God
#Christian
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The Kiss 2
Yet here i sit again.
Dwelling on my sin.
The wanting and wishing.
Another woman has seized my heart by laying her lips upon mine.
I am mentally defunct.
All i can say is W.T.F?
I should fear all women for they have so much more power over man.
It doesn't have to be sex or even a kiss.
It can be by just a simple finger touching skin.
I just can't believe it.
I don't want to believe it.
Everything falling apart at the seams.
I just can't believe she's shattering my heart to pieces.
Is there one fucking woman on this earth that...
Dwelling on my sin.
The wanting and wishing.
Another woman has seized my heart by laying her lips upon mine.
I am mentally defunct.
All i can say is W.T.F?
I should fear all women for they have so much more power over man.
It doesn't have to be sex or even a kiss.
It can be by just a simple finger touching skin.
I just can't believe it.
I don't want to believe it.
Everything falling apart at the seams.
I just can't believe she's shattering my heart to pieces.
Is there one fucking woman on this earth that...
#anxiety
#grief
#rejection
#frustration
#disappointment
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Heartbreak Again
After 1 week i still feel the heartbreak.
I wish this pain would end soon.
My eating habits have changed drastically.
Not eating enough.
Sleeping too much.
Falling hard in love is the worst thing to ever happen to me.
If i ever get over this, I'll never want this again.
I wouldn't want you to go through this kinda pain.
Tightness in my chest.
Heart attack?
Not so lucky.
Stomach pains.
Migraines.
Hard to swallow.
I would give everything to not feel this.
God help me.
How do i find a way out of this? ...
I wish this pain would end soon.
My eating habits have changed drastically.
Not eating enough.
Sleeping too much.
Falling hard in love is the worst thing to ever happen to me.
If i ever get over this, I'll never want this again.
I wouldn't want you to go through this kinda pain.
Tightness in my chest.
Heart attack?
Not so lucky.
Stomach pains.
Migraines.
Hard to swallow.
I would give everything to not feel this.
God help me.
How do i find a way out of this? ...
#sadness
#loneliness
#heartbroken
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F.M.L 2022
I've said it more than once in many different ways.
F.M.L is how it's always been and always will be.
I've come to accept the fact that another love in my life just isn't going to occur ever again.
I'm to live alone.
Just as I'm to die alone.
Shit happens.
Just it's been happening the past 48 yrs of my life.
So I'll continue to say FML until that fateful day of death occurs.
Nobody is ever gonna love me again.
I'm not an attractive man.
I don't make alot of money.
I'm just fucked.
Bring me peace.
Eternal peace. ...
F.M.L is how it's always been and always will be.
I've come to accept the fact that another love in my life just isn't going to occur ever again.
I'm to live alone.
Just as I'm to die alone.
Shit happens.
Just it's been happening the past 48 yrs of my life.
So I'll continue to say FML until that fateful day of death occurs.
Nobody is ever gonna love me again.
I'm not an attractive man.
I don't make alot of money.
I'm just fucked.
Bring me peace.
Eternal peace. ...
#sadness
#loneliness
#rejection
#heartbroken
#confusion
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What have i done?
What have i done to deserve this silent treatment?
Is it because of my sinful ways, lord?
Please my lord my god.
Why has thou forsaken me?
Everyone i know leaves me alone in this cold dark world.
I'm not mentally strong enough to deal with this.
I feel like crying.
I feel like sleeping.
I am feeling so weak now.
I am feeling so sad and depressed.
They say I LUV U.
Then they ghost you.
I don't deserve this misery.
Death is far better than the feeling of heartbreak.
...
Is it because of my sinful ways, lord?
Please my lord my god.
Why has thou forsaken me?
Everyone i know leaves me alone in this cold dark world.
I'm not mentally strong enough to deal with this.
I feel like crying.
I feel like sleeping.
I am feeling so weak now.
I am feeling so sad and depressed.
They say I LUV U.
Then they ghost you.
I don't deserve this misery.
Death is far better than the feeling of heartbreak.
...
#sadness
#loneliness
#rejection
#heartbroken
#confusion
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My other personality
Please Don't let whatever this feeling is turn to another heartbreak.
Please Don't for the sake of my mental state.
Please Don't.
Please let me just feel the 24/7 euphoria of a possible new future love in my life.
I think of you constantly.
(My other personality jmerrick)
Fuck this nonsense.
You know fucking better than that.
Loves not in the fucking cards for you in this lifetime.
Love doesn't exist for you.
Love is a fucking illusion.
Love shouldn't even be in your fucking vocabulary.
Your a dumb fat p.o.s that...
Please Don't for the sake of my mental state.
Please Don't.
Please let me just feel the 24/7 euphoria of a possible new future love in my life.
I think of you constantly.
(My other personality jmerrick)
Fuck this nonsense.
You know fucking better than that.
Loves not in the fucking cards for you in this lifetime.
Love doesn't exist for you.
Love is a fucking illusion.
Love shouldn't even be in your fucking vocabulary.
Your a dumb fat p.o.s that...
#love
#depression
#dark
#MentalHealth
#emptiness
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THE DEVILS PLAYGROUND
My life is a carousel of nightmares.
This world is the devil's playground.
And he is the God of this world.
He sometimes has control over my thoughts
Bringing in depression and thoughts of suicide.
Ready to take my final ride to the afterlife.
Not serving much of an earthly purpose.
I've always had a self destructive attitude in life.
For years everything seems to be going as foreseen.
Then, Bamm.
In an instant It's turned into shit.
Yes, i have fucked up.
Possibly lost 2 jobs within minutes of each other.
I fucked up...
This world is the devil's playground.
And he is the God of this world.
He sometimes has control over my thoughts
Bringing in depression and thoughts of suicide.
Ready to take my final ride to the afterlife.
Not serving much of an earthly purpose.
I've always had a self destructive attitude in life.
For years everything seems to be going as foreseen.
Then, Bamm.
In an instant It's turned into shit.
Yes, i have fucked up.
Possibly lost 2 jobs within minutes of each other.
I fucked up...
#love
#dark
#tragedy
#suffering
#hurt
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