Submissions by grungyzombie
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
SELF POEM
Published
10th Nov 2023 1:21am
10th Nov 2023 1:21am
Sometimes...
Sometimes my room doesn't feel real
sometimes my room feels foreign
Sometimes by shadow,
sometimes by light,
sometimes alone
sometimes just......
Sometimes im guided by my instinct,
Sometimes it is my greatest weapon,
against my own disgusting behaviors.
Sometimes..........
Sometimes it transform hatred into a terrible desire to become invisible,
Sometimes the anger grows,
Sometimes the resentment floods.
Sometimes Mirrors blurr and I become
something new
Sometimes......
Something old....
But...
sometimes my room feels foreign
Sometimes by shadow,
sometimes by light,
sometimes alone
sometimes just......
Sometimes im guided by my instinct,
Sometimes it is my greatest weapon,
against my own disgusting behaviors.
Sometimes..........
Sometimes it transform hatred into a terrible desire to become invisible,
Sometimes the anger grows,
Sometimes the resentment floods.
Sometimes Mirrors blurr and I become
something new
Sometimes......
Something old....
But...
#anxiety
#depression
#identity
#MentalHealth
#SelfReflection
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SELF POEM
Published
1st Aug 2023 3:30pm
1st Aug 2023 3:30pm
Apples n oranges
My collapsing insanity is a perpetual roller coaster that I do not enjoy...
My consciousness continuously questioning itself as a legitimate presence is all but awakening and acts more like a entity wanting to be destroyed
The depths to desires are slowly rotting into an abyss that can no longer be perceived...
Burbles of thoughts
that once were emanating emotions
Have become so brittle and lacks all devotion....
The joys of laughter and comfort that onces filled the air and welcomed the night
Are anything but inviting and bright
I fear I have...
My consciousness continuously questioning itself as a legitimate presence is all but awakening and acts more like a entity wanting to be destroyed
The depths to desires are slowly rotting into an abyss that can no longer be perceived...
Burbles of thoughts
that once were emanating emotions
Have become so brittle and lacks all devotion....
The joys of laughter and comfort that onces filled the air and welcomed the night
Are anything but inviting and bright
I fear I have...
#depression
#MentalHealth
#FeelingLost
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DARK POEM
Published
15th Jun 2023 8:37pm
15th Jun 2023 8:37pm
Sway in the wind
#anxiety
#depression
#death #suicide
#death #suicide
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DARK POEM
Published
6th Mar 2023 2:29am
6th Mar 2023 2:29am
The Carousel
#depression
#loneliness
#dark
#suicide
#FeelingLost
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DARK POEM
Published
23rd Sep 2022 5:00pm
23rd Sep 2022 5:00pm
Just sleep
#depression
#dark
#death #SelfReflection
#death #SelfReflection
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SELF POEM
Published
19th Sep 2022 9:13pm
19th Sep 2022 9:13pm
Where we sleep
Blood as dark as death
Lies crash....
lies crash on the shores of our will to live
our pain shines through
as bright as the fear where dead gods sleep.......
Where we sleep.....
I hold my hands so tight as my heart rips open
With the lies that I tell my self to survive the night
No light crashes down
there is no appetite for solence....
Leave it be
Leave me be
It is not worth the risk
Dark is were it stays
Where it sleep
Where we sleep....
Lies crash....
lies crash on the shores of our will to live
our pain shines through
as bright as the fear where dead gods sleep.......
Where we sleep.....
I hold my hands so tight as my heart rips open
With the lies that I tell my self to survive the night
No light crashes down
there is no appetite for solence....
Leave it be
Leave me be
It is not worth the risk
Dark is were it stays
Where it sleep
Where we sleep....
#anxiety
#depression
#identity #SelfReflection
#identity #SelfReflection
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SELF POEM
Published
26th Aug 2022 3:08pm
26th Aug 2022 3:08pm
?mirror's
The fear of abandonment
The fear of being alone.
The thought itself is horrific
For if we are abandoned,
we have nobody to ‘mirror’....
Its terrifying to be left alone
with only yourself to condone
when you don’t know who yourself is.
looking into a mirror,
seeing a total stranger.
Or worse....
seeing nobody at all.
There is no ‘you’,
Just a never ending fluctuating identity
Spiraling.....
Falling.....
Screaming.....
Into the void that's meant to be you....
The fear of being alone.
The thought itself is horrific
For if we are abandoned,
we have nobody to ‘mirror’....
Its terrifying to be left alone
with only yourself to condone
when you don’t know who yourself is.
looking into a mirror,
seeing a total stranger.
Or worse....
seeing nobody at all.
There is no ‘you’,
Just a never ending fluctuating identity
Spiraling.....
Falling.....
Screaming.....
Into the void that's meant to be you....
#depression
#dark
#confusion #SelfDiscovery
#confusion #SelfDiscovery
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DARK POEM
Published
26th Aug 2022 4:30am
26th Aug 2022 4:30am
?u
Swimming through
the dark murky depths
Frantically reaching to find any piece of what's left
Of the person you thought you were
Only to be swallowed by the stench
Of your rotting corpse through the darkness
Of the mind that's been set to self destruct
And finally realizing I'm fucked.
the dark murky depths
Frantically reaching to find any piece of what's left
Of the person you thought you were
Only to be swallowed by the stench
Of your rotting corpse through the darkness
Of the mind that's been set to self destruct
And finally realizing I'm fucked.
#depression
#SelfReflection
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DARK POEM
Published
1st Jun 2016 7:24pm
1st Jun 2016 7:24pm
thoughts of the insane??
Standing on the edge staring blankly into the abyss, without a clear thought in sight I'm left wondering what if...
What if I jump...leap and fall into the deep shadowy existence of nothing at all....
Would I just wander aimlessly dragging this rotting corpse along for the ride...
Staring at these ink blotted marks in which I use to reside, but no longer hold their meaning..
only the memory of emotions who's sole purpose is to just Leave me wishing for a place too hide...
But how do you hide in darkness??
How do you hide from nothing except the thoughts that...
What if I jump...leap and fall into the deep shadowy existence of nothing at all....
Would I just wander aimlessly dragging this rotting corpse along for the ride...
Staring at these ink blotted marks in which I use to reside, but no longer hold their meaning..
only the memory of emotions who's sole purpose is to just Leave me wishing for a place too hide...
But how do you hide in darkness??
How do you hide from nothing except the thoughts that...
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DARK POEM
Published
18th Feb 2016 6:33am
18th Feb 2016 6:33am
?L.
Sometimes when I'm alone, I wonder if I'm alive...
I slit my rest to find nothing inside, but a mere shadow, restrained
within a time lapsed corpse,
turning pages,
smiling back at blank faces and patiently waiting for its clock to die..
Soundlessly whistling into the passbyers, sad songs of death,
that slowly drives them insane....
As the darkness falls and magic stirs
we become the creators of the endless night..
Like these flowers we all fall
From once a man to nothing at all ....
I slit my rest to find nothing inside, but a mere shadow, restrained
within a time lapsed corpse,
turning pages,
smiling back at blank faces and patiently waiting for its clock to die..
Soundlessly whistling into the passbyers, sad songs of death,
that slowly drives them insane....
As the darkness falls and magic stirs
we become the creators of the endless night..
Like these flowers we all fall
From once a man to nothing at all ....
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DARK POEM
Published
19th Nov 2015 8:35pm
19th Nov 2015 8:35pm
"untitled"
There's no where to run, no place to Fucking hide
slow my breath
To reconnect with the eye inside,
{ it's the only way out..}
As I fight to stand in this arid sea
frozen waves crash through my veins
Wake me up from this dream
demon apparitions are calling back to me ....
Silhouettes climb a circle ladder,
while their Blood spills in an ocean of
Thoughts
provoked by despair ,
whirlpooled by emotionless chatter ...
I feel my life slowly consuming me
slow my breath
To reconnect with the eye inside,
{ it's the only way out..}
As I fight to stand in this arid sea
frozen waves crash through my veins
Wake me up from this dream
demon apparitions are calling back to me ....
Silhouettes climb a circle ladder,
while their Blood spills in an ocean of
Thoughts
provoked by despair ,
whirlpooled by emotionless chatter ...
I feel my life slowly consuming me
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DARK POEM
Published
22nd Oct 2015 9:49pm
22nd Oct 2015 9:49pm
Dead eyes hypnotize!!
Now the sky's have turned black
Cuz of the lies
that scream behind these patronizing eyes..
I can no longer save you
So I fall to both knees
Similar to you..
But I'll be
Crashing in the pool of blood
That I will cause to flood
From the eyes of the fallen..
Battered and bruised..
Instead of the tears
That you caused to flood
From the souls of the haunted..
So Seriously tho..
Why do you think everyone has turned back.....?
I'll pick up the pieces of this shattered soul
And prepare to dig the hole..
That...
Cuz of the lies
that scream behind these patronizing eyes..
I can no longer save you
So I fall to both knees
Similar to you..
But I'll be
Crashing in the pool of blood
That I will cause to flood
From the eyes of the fallen..
Battered and bruised..
Instead of the tears
That you caused to flood
From the souls of the haunted..
So Seriously tho..
Why do you think everyone has turned back.....?
I'll pick up the pieces of this shattered soul
And prepare to dig the hole..
That...
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