Submissions by forever-for_real (Tess Stoops)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I write. Always.
I Want You
I want you
to want me
so bad it hurts.
I want you to lust for me
until you can't stand it
and you can't stop yourself
and you lose control.
I want you to love me
with more than just emotion
with passion
for pleasure.
I want to make you
crazy with desire
crazy with lust
crazy in love.
I want you to want me
like I want you.
to want me
so bad it hurts.
I want you to lust for me
until you can't stand it
and you can't stop yourself
and you lose control.
I want you to love me
with more than just emotion
with passion
for pleasure.
I want to make you
crazy with desire
crazy with lust
crazy in love.
I want you to want me
like I want you.
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My World
I dream of a world
where you do not exist
And the cuts on my arm
don't spell out your name
And my tears don't spill
on the letters you wrote.
I dream of a place
you have never been.
Where I can be
without your ghost
without your following flame.
I wish I never met you.
Wish I'd never called your name.
Wish I never trusted you.
I dream of a world in which
I never loved you.
And it is so much better.
where you do not exist
And the cuts on my arm
don't spell out your name
And my tears don't spill
on the letters you wrote.
I dream of a place
you have never been.
Where I can be
without your ghost
without your following flame.
I wish I never met you.
Wish I'd never called your name.
Wish I never trusted you.
I dream of a world in which
I never loved you.
And it is so much better.
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I remember you.
Memoirs of my sexualdeviance.....
I remember the first time
you took me to your room,
when we made the bed ours.
I remember wondering slightly
why your parents never seemed
to be aware of the going-ons.
I remember the deserted barn.
The quiet floorboards echoing
the music of summer love.
I remember the first time you touched me.
The feel of your hands as they slid smoothly between my legs.
And the fear it instilled when i realized
what you'd done.
I remember the first time you really kissed me.
Hiding from the kids in
the...
I remember the first time
you took me to your room,
when we made the bed ours.
I remember wondering slightly
why your parents never seemed
to be aware of the going-ons.
I remember the deserted barn.
The quiet floorboards echoing
the music of summer love.
I remember the first time you touched me.
The feel of your hands as they slid smoothly between my legs.
And the fear it instilled when i realized
what you'd done.
I remember the first time you really kissed me.
Hiding from the kids in
the...
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The One
You're the one
who told me to pray.
The one who watched my heart break
day after day.
You're the one
who watched me
cry my painful tears
as he told me I was
unwantable.
The one who
eased my fears
and told me it was nothing but trouble.
You're the one I told
when i didn't know what to do.
The one i trusted with everything,
how could this be you?
Who have you become?
How can you think this is ok?
The fact that you are killing me
doesn't even get in your way.
All you can see is what you want....
who told me to pray.
The one who watched my heart break
day after day.
You're the one
who watched me
cry my painful tears
as he told me I was
unwantable.
The one who
eased my fears
and told me it was nothing but trouble.
You're the one I told
when i didn't know what to do.
The one i trusted with everything,
how could this be you?
Who have you become?
How can you think this is ok?
The fact that you are killing me
doesn't even get in your way.
All you can see is what you want....
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To S.
I've done the impossible.
I've survuved.
Even though
I'm dead inside.
Tell me I'm wrong.
I won't deny.
I refuse to hide
the tears I cry.
Tell me, right now,
what did I do,
to make you hate me,
when I love you?
I've survuved.
Even though
I'm dead inside.
Tell me I'm wrong.
I won't deny.
I refuse to hide
the tears I cry.
Tell me, right now,
what did I do,
to make you hate me,
when I love you?
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Heartache
I woke up
with a heartache this morning
after dreaming about him
all night.
His face, his family
but she always lurked at
the edges of my illusions.
his granpa talked to me,
his brother hugged me goodbye,
even Emily called after me.
His eyes met mine
I knew
in a loving farewell.
Because that's when she
filled in my shadow
and took my place next to him.
That's when i woke up.
with a heartache this morning
after dreaming about him
all night.
His face, his family
but she always lurked at
the edges of my illusions.
his granpa talked to me,
his brother hugged me goodbye,
even Emily called after me.
His eyes met mine
I knew
in a loving farewell.
Because that's when she
filled in my shadow
and took my place next to him.
That's when i woke up.
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Halfway Gone
Wind echos through me
almost hollow
chills me from the inside.
Emptied of life
I wander
losing myself
with every tear
and every drop of blood.
All that's left of me
sloshes around
nauseatingly reminescent
the essence of who i was.
I can't even be considered 'real' anymore.
I'm a watered down piece of trash.
There's nothing left to be defined.
I'm a doll
Someones discarded play toy.
With no remorse they tear me apart.
Inaminate objects aren't supposed to bleed.
A placeholder, I'm not even halfway human anymore. ...
almost hollow
chills me from the inside.
Emptied of life
I wander
losing myself
with every tear
and every drop of blood.
All that's left of me
sloshes around
nauseatingly reminescent
the essence of who i was.
I can't even be considered 'real' anymore.
I'm a watered down piece of trash.
There's nothing left to be defined.
I'm a doll
Someones discarded play toy.
With no remorse they tear me apart.
Inaminate objects aren't supposed to bleed.
A placeholder, I'm not even halfway human anymore. ...
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You Said, I Said
It's easier to sleep
when life's worth living
thinking of you makes me...
stupid in love
I just wanted
to make you happy,
I'm not ready.
Will you still be there?
Writing left with you
wish it was still mine.
I'm not sorry I met you, but yeah
things change.
I was thinking.
It's not gonna work.
*alone is better*
How much did I hurt you?
I'm not lying this time.
She says I'm
*just a jerk*
I'm sorry for accusing you,
people pissed me off.
So....It's over?
when life's worth living
thinking of you makes me...
stupid in love
I just wanted
to make you happy,
I'm not ready.
Will you still be there?
Writing left with you
wish it was still mine.
I'm not sorry I met you, but yeah
things change.
I was thinking.
It's not gonna work.
*alone is better*
How much did I hurt you?
I'm not lying this time.
She says I'm
*just a jerk*
I'm sorry for accusing you,
people pissed me off.
So....It's over?
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The Quiet One
For shame,
for shame, I sigh
for the pages never listen
nor comprehend.
The ink of my pen
is of my blood
yet the pages see no injury
and though my tears fall
they recognize no pain.
I attempt to articulate
my unseen ailment
my invisible wound
but the language it forms
is not my own
nor of this world
too complex to decipher
I go unheard
and my screams
are so loud
they wash themselves out
and I remain silent
No one shall ever know
as I swallow my pain
cut it out
and use it for ink
the...
for shame, I sigh
for the pages never listen
nor comprehend.
The ink of my pen
is of my blood
yet the pages see no injury
and though my tears fall
they recognize no pain.
I attempt to articulate
my unseen ailment
my invisible wound
but the language it forms
is not my own
nor of this world
too complex to decipher
I go unheard
and my screams
are so loud
they wash themselves out
and I remain silent
No one shall ever know
as I swallow my pain
cut it out
and use it for ink
the...
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Tie
I am expected
to let you win
and I will.
By my choice...not yours
I remain silent.
I will never let you see my pain
my inward battle
you're attacking me
and you don't even care
your dagger rests in my heart
your knife in my back
as I sew my mouth shut
to silence my screams
close my eyes
drown internal in tears.
I am expected
to let you win.
And I'm sure
you think you have.
to let you win
and I will.
By my choice...not yours
I remain silent.
I will never let you see my pain
my inward battle
you're attacking me
and you don't even care
your dagger rests in my heart
your knife in my back
as I sew my mouth shut
to silence my screams
close my eyes
drown internal in tears.
I am expected
to let you win.
And I'm sure
you think you have.
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I Guess I'm A Giver
She's terrible,
almost as bad as
you'
Take my game.
'You failed'
Take my brain.
'I don't need you'
Take my knife.
'I don't want you'
Take my life.
almost as bad as
you'
Take my game.
'You failed'
Take my brain.
'I don't need you'
Take my knife.
'I don't want you'
Take my life.
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Cage
Hate is building
a wall between you and I
laced with barbed- wire deception.
When I get close
I'm cut
caught
and captured
Just let me out of here.
Why is it
the wall circles me?
If you are the criminal,
why am I jailed?
Why do you taunt me with your freedom
while I remain
trapped and alone?
a wall between you and I
laced with barbed- wire deception.
When I get close
I'm cut
caught
and captured
Just let me out of here.
Why is it
the wall circles me?
If you are the criminal,
why am I jailed?
Why do you taunt me with your freedom
while I remain
trapped and alone?
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