Submissions by fightorflight (Disa)

It's odd how you're past those thoughts but they're never done with you.
You always see it as an option, most propable too.
You wanna live and see and feel but you ending it soon is even more real.
I got everything I want, I'm the happiest I've ever been. So why does my brain keep reminding me
of how I used to feel?
I'm terrified of my own mind, am I ever safe? What if I'm laughing now and the next second a criminal case? Do I ever win this only-one-player race?
I try to breathe, I try to count, I try to keep my feet touching the ground. But all that can work if...

I've found my reason to live and even bigger reason to die
This world is a lost cause, humanity has had many fucking tries
Don't look what we've become, look what we've always been
Humans are at the top because of a lunatic gene, we love to be mean

How good could ever win when bad guys get second chances
When bad guys hate kindness, they kill all the dancers
I think the real heaven is to get this shitty life done
I look at all the people and believe in none
You think you're winning, good luck for you fools
Congrats if you get to go...