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It's great to be alive
It's odd how you're past those thoughts but they're never done with you.
You always see it as an option, most propable too.
You wanna live and see and feel but you ending it soon is even more real.
I got everything I want, I'm the happiest I've ever been. So why does my brain keep reminding me
of how I used to feel?
I'm terrified of my own mind, am I ever safe? What if I'm laughing now and the next second a criminal case? Do I ever win this only-one-player race?
I try to breathe, I try to count, I try to keep my feet touching the ground. But all that can work if my mind isn't around.
I'm scared to tell anyone. How could they take it? How could they believe I wouldn't take my promise and just break it.
Will I love life but hating breathing for the rest of my life? Can I ever be 100% confident in saying ''it's great to be alive''?
You always see it as an option, most propable too.
You wanna live and see and feel but you ending it soon is even more real.
I got everything I want, I'm the happiest I've ever been. So why does my brain keep reminding me
of how I used to feel?
I'm terrified of my own mind, am I ever safe? What if I'm laughing now and the next second a criminal case? Do I ever win this only-one-player race?
I try to breathe, I try to count, I try to keep my feet touching the ground. But all that can work if my mind isn't around.
I'm scared to tell anyone. How could they take it? How could they believe I wouldn't take my promise and just break it.
Will I love life but hating breathing for the rest of my life? Can I ever be 100% confident in saying ''it's great to be alive''?
Published 27th Feb 2021
Author's Note
Small piece I wrote a little while back to let out my steam
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28th Feb 2021 11:20pm
those of us who are afflicted in the way You've spilled, here
KNOW precisely what You express
though i am not certain i've attained the 1st part You pen in Your 4th line here,
everything else is a constant for me.
thank You for sharing
as sharing is therapy
for us all
KNOW precisely what You express
though i am not certain i've attained the 1st part You pen in Your 4th line here,
everything else is a constant for me.
thank You for sharing
as sharing is therapy
for us all
1st Mar 2021 10:12am
Thank you for reading and taking time to appreciate my piece, it means a lot to me. It's a neverending battle isn't it, but at least we can write about it.
Anonymous
31st Aug 2021 4:00pm
I call the venting 'purging'... A written purge piece is as cathartic as a therapist visit, in my opinion. I felt deeply, your emanations here.
Potent, raw honesty.... I appreciate the strength it takes to pen, that poignant topic in particular... please know you're not alone....
I hear you.
Much thanks for the brave share.
🌹 - 💙
B
Potent, raw honesty.... I appreciate the strength it takes to pen, that poignant topic in particular... please know you're not alone....
I hear you.
Much thanks for the brave share.
🌹 - 💙
B
31st Aug 2021 6:07pm
