Submissions by favrooooo

Walls

Alone in this room again
With no real excuses.
I have lots of friends and people I’m losin’.
But It’s home behind walls,
I feel safe from within.
Free from the sorrows and the delusions.
I want to feel love again,
It’s a lost thing to me,
But I always put walls up so no one will see
Monsters I have caged
Behind this thick mortar
I was locking one up and that’s when I saw her.
Time either stood still
Or I was hallucinating.
But the feeling she gave me was strangely elating
She smiled at me,
I faked a smile too...

Can we meet up? I have something to say.
A voice on the end of the line, says okay.

"We can meet up but I will have no reply."
"I just want to wake certain things where they lie"

I meet up with him, but it’s been a while.
I look in his eyes and force awkward smiles.

He looks to the ground and we start walking.
Nothing is said yet, there’s no point in talking.

The silence is tense and I can feel his anger
His impulse to just reach over and strangle
my neck with his hands until I am lifeless
But walk on...