Submissions by dntlokatmeimbroken (Dnt Look At Me Im Broken)

it’s an avalanche.
except, i wouldn’t be able to feel it.
hanging by a thread, as i watch you sharpen a knife.
feeling the ground beneath me sink, i reach for you…
my pride anguishes the sympathy you bestow.
kicking up dirt, afterwards apologetic.
save all the persuasions, i’ve got things to say.
if i cannot do anything about these
barriers, boulders, barricades, bridges
i may not be here to stay

i’ve been wandering through ruins all night searching for any evidence on if you still love me. the second time i got lost was the hardest, kept repeating to myself that this is what you wanted. i was left alone in the dark. i still hear your voice, except it’s more faint and my feet bleed when i follow the echoes it casts. we both promised that this would… last winter when you joked about driving us into the lake i laughed but i wish you did instead of hesitating nervously. yes, i would’ve been mad but only for a moment, see an unknown eternity is what we’re chasing. and with anyone else...

my body’s covered with marks: some blatant, some unclear, a few have depth and remind me of things i feared. most have stories of which i’m sure you may like to hear.
i remember i was walking down this long dark road, slitting my wrist wondering why i felt so alone. it was raining and i was late, to something i used to call home. looked passed the blood at my cracked iphone, it had hit midnight, arriving later is what my mother did not condone. at some point i realized she stopped caring, removed my headphones which were constantly blaring. prior to falling asleep i’d curl my legs to my...