Submissions by diablia363 (Alisha Ranstrom)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
diablia363 aka alisha I've been to nowhere and everywhere at same time ,I've felt so lost and silent. Until someone gave me deep underground on which to purge my thoughts spewing them from the depths of my mind..laying them out for others like me to find.
flatliners
if i told you the vile mentality
i truely have inside my mind
those few would surely lock me away
theyd give me sixteen differant pills a
day
id be a fuckin wide eyed zombie
a brilliant mind seamingly laid waste to
i try to hold my forehead so my head doesnt fall in mash potatoes
you stifle a laugh and i hazily
nod my permission
im still remembering that day so long ago
when the will of my youth still had me convinced
that i woul assuredly triumph
im much older now and see dillusions for what they are
they are the driveling musings of...
i truely have inside my mind
those few would surely lock me away
theyd give me sixteen differant pills a
day
id be a fuckin wide eyed zombie
a brilliant mind seamingly laid waste to
i try to hold my forehead so my head doesnt fall in mash potatoes
you stifle a laugh and i hazily
nod my permission
im still remembering that day so long ago
when the will of my youth still had me convinced
that i woul assuredly triumph
im much older now and see dillusions for what they are
they are the driveling musings of...
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atleast till morning
desires ever climbing
an outstretched hand beckoning
fear and shyness dieing
a kiss upon loves bliss
ive longed for you
inspired by your candor
given way to blinding understanding
weak with the need
you are my greatest reward
i seek in your caress
the muse ive lost
lose myself in you
falling through waters ebbing with uphoria
feels better than a drug
next to you on this rug
the fires light cast shadows
like spirits dancing in the myre
with one arm thrown over me
safety is mine totality
ours is a...
an outstretched hand beckoning
fear and shyness dieing
a kiss upon loves bliss
ive longed for you
inspired by your candor
given way to blinding understanding
weak with the need
you are my greatest reward
i seek in your caress
the muse ive lost
lose myself in you
falling through waters ebbing with uphoria
feels better than a drug
next to you on this rug
the fires light cast shadows
like spirits dancing in the myre
with one arm thrown over me
safety is mine totality
ours is a...
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2 Comments
what the f**k
im so in love with confusion dillusion and pain
i return eagerly each day
to deceive myself into thinking
the outcomes will be differant
but if at the end of the numbness
im shaken by truth
then i suppose the outcome is clear
i love it want it im used to it here
if the friends ive chosen ever shocked me
in the everlasting dalerium of spuns grip
then it might force me to admit
that my lifestyle is definately lacking
in realism all of us grown roaming like children
if nobody else knows it we are time wasters and wastes of time
the day is...
i return eagerly each day
to deceive myself into thinking
the outcomes will be differant
but if at the end of the numbness
im shaken by truth
then i suppose the outcome is clear
i love it want it im used to it here
if the friends ive chosen ever shocked me
in the everlasting dalerium of spuns grip
then it might force me to admit
that my lifestyle is definately lacking
in realism all of us grown roaming like children
if nobody else knows it we are time wasters and wastes of time
the day is...
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LOVEING
You deceived me into believing that you cared
In addiction we are paired
My heart is in total shambles
I tried to cry but
Alas my eyes are dry
I guess you never lied
I should have been aware
That only weaklings really can care
To be strong
I to be wrong
I'm angered and disgusted
Furious because im weakened by the mere sight of you
The minute you will give me
I take to heart and hold
You never lied i give you this control
Decidedly i give into to a stolen moment in your light
You leave me half deadened this dispair
That...
In addiction we are paired
My heart is in total shambles
I tried to cry but
Alas my eyes are dry
I guess you never lied
I should have been aware
That only weaklings really can care
To be strong
I to be wrong
I'm angered and disgusted
Furious because im weakened by the mere sight of you
The minute you will give me
I take to heart and hold
You never lied i give you this control
Decidedly i give into to a stolen moment in your light
You leave me half deadened this dispair
That...
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the covenant
welcome to my dungeon all tuned in wait for you
ill guide you until your true potential i have whipped you through
hearing not the pleas of newbies cries for i am not the this hand unties
ill chain you shackled and bare
against whatever i connect you to be it human or stone but alas my love they shall use you but without me you are alone
you feel not thier toungues which lick and mouths that bite
you will be known by just about all come each fall of night
you surrender to the advances for in the hands of many are but one set you feel that is mine
you will...
ill guide you until your true potential i have whipped you through
hearing not the pleas of newbies cries for i am not the this hand unties
ill chain you shackled and bare
against whatever i connect you to be it human or stone but alas my love they shall use you but without me you are alone
you feel not thier toungues which lick and mouths that bite
you will be known by just about all come each fall of night
you surrender to the advances for in the hands of many are but one set you feel that is mine
you will...
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the dreams you wish you had
devious in your plucking
at impish strings
all together tolerant of such trivial things
these freinds of mine danced
around their little firey pit
a light from within calling to my dancing soul
the gypsy fieary i answer to thine call
as the banshees howl and shreek
within the fiery ring of fires of loves yet born
in the valley undergrowth way down through the vines torn
entangled in twilights kiss
enraptured by songs of goblins leprechauns
and even little impish elves
the magic of fiery dust and pixies kisses
violets and orchids in...
at impish strings
all together tolerant of such trivial things
these freinds of mine danced
around their little firey pit
a light from within calling to my dancing soul
the gypsy fieary i answer to thine call
as the banshees howl and shreek
within the fiery ring of fires of loves yet born
in the valley undergrowth way down through the vines torn
entangled in twilights kiss
enraptured by songs of goblins leprechauns
and even little impish elves
the magic of fiery dust and pixies kisses
violets and orchids in...
630 reads
2 Comments
finding whats lost
iseek but cannot find ,
what each day takes away.
feels like its been left behind
i am not talking of trivial belongings
i am talking of the self
theres secrets ill never remember to tell
theres the trappings of my physical
why wasnt our skins made with zippers so we could truly ecscape
ourselves
stuck in a mind tortured by only illusions
remembrances of a suppressed youth
never taking anything too serious
striving the entire time to become who someone else expected
me to become
now im selfish for wanting to know me
when i look in...
what each day takes away.
feels like its been left behind
i am not talking of trivial belongings
i am talking of the self
theres secrets ill never remember to tell
theres the trappings of my physical
why wasnt our skins made with zippers so we could truly ecscape
ourselves
stuck in a mind tortured by only illusions
remembrances of a suppressed youth
never taking anything too serious
striving the entire time to become who someone else expected
me to become
now im selfish for wanting to know me
when i look in...
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UNTITLED
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2 Comments
MICKEY AND MALLORY A REUNION
IF I AM NUMB
BUT SEEK PAIN OF PHYSICAL
JUST SO I FEEL
IM LOST IN A DYSMAL VIEW
CANT STOP THINKING OF YOU
THE ANONYMITY THAT WE ENJOY
THE DILLUSIONAL THINKING
THAT ANYONE CARES
THE BINDS RELEASE ME
THE LASHES BABTIZE ME
I FIND SOLACE IN THE FACE OF VIOLANCE
I WILL SMILE WHILE DESTROYING A MUTHERFUCKER
TO BELIEVE MY TRUSTFUL EYES
TO LET MY MINDS GIFT OF TALE SPINNING
WILL LULL YOU IN THIS BEGINNING
I AM NOTHING AND EVERYTHING
IF YOU SLAP ME IT WILLL STING
IT SOOTHES ME MAKES MY HEART SING
IF IN THE END WE FIND ONE ANOTHER...
BUT SEEK PAIN OF PHYSICAL
JUST SO I FEEL
IM LOST IN A DYSMAL VIEW
CANT STOP THINKING OF YOU
THE ANONYMITY THAT WE ENJOY
THE DILLUSIONAL THINKING
THAT ANYONE CARES
THE BINDS RELEASE ME
THE LASHES BABTIZE ME
I FIND SOLACE IN THE FACE OF VIOLANCE
I WILL SMILE WHILE DESTROYING A MUTHERFUCKER
TO BELIEVE MY TRUSTFUL EYES
TO LET MY MINDS GIFT OF TALE SPINNING
WILL LULL YOU IN THIS BEGINNING
I AM NOTHING AND EVERYTHING
IF YOU SLAP ME IT WILLL STING
IT SOOTHES ME MAKES MY HEART SING
IF IN THE END WE FIND ONE ANOTHER...
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3 Comments
ARE YOU STILL READY A SEQUEL
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are you ready
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walking
walking its what i do
when i need to cry
when i want to get high
when i look around theres nobody
living life like i do
theres never anyone real around you
and so i walk i walk so i
dont break the lieing face of some bitch
i leave and walk cause i start to
feel the twitch
sometimes my path leads to meditation
clarity and prayer
but times like now it leads to a fight
a fight with myself not to walk right
off this overpass
just to step out and lean foward
but i cant i save myself at the last second grabbing the railing
cause...
when i need to cry
when i want to get high
when i look around theres nobody
living life like i do
theres never anyone real around you
and so i walk i walk so i
dont break the lieing face of some bitch
i leave and walk cause i start to
feel the twitch
sometimes my path leads to meditation
clarity and prayer
but times like now it leads to a fight
a fight with myself not to walk right
off this overpass
just to step out and lean foward
but i cant i save myself at the last second grabbing the railing
cause...
780 reads
6 Comments
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