Submissions by dazmanta (Darren)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Never Meant To Be
Staring into the mirror, vision blurred, coming undone, faces staring back at me, screaming, always screaming,
Tears falling, shadows in front of me, totally insane, Bottle of pills, self medicating, face changing,
Feeling of solitude, becoming numb, Misusing, still abusing, pacing, thoughts racing,
Hearing voices in my head, telling me what to do, Feeling insane, can’t sleep,
I need help, mentally ill, sickened, empty inside, bleeding, my heads exploding,
Fucked up, looking through sad eyes, always hopeless, just wanting to belong,
Ebbing away, fear subsiding,...
Tears falling, shadows in front of me, totally insane, Bottle of pills, self medicating, face changing,
Feeling of solitude, becoming numb, Misusing, still abusing, pacing, thoughts racing,
Hearing voices in my head, telling me what to do, Feeling insane, can’t sleep,
I need help, mentally ill, sickened, empty inside, bleeding, my heads exploding,
Fucked up, looking through sad eyes, always hopeless, just wanting to belong,
Ebbing away, fear subsiding,...
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Happiness You're After
Love is love no matter what happens,
People should be there,
It's at times like this, the loneliness,
People should show that they really care,
I can't fall out of love in a second,
In a minute a month or a year,
my love for you is everlasting,
And losing you was my greatest fear,
You ripped out my heart and you danced on it,
To the beat of the heavy bass line,
Whilst the DJ got you into a frenzy,
And euphoria took over your mind,
Now I lay here with a body that's battered,
With love seeping from my open wounds,
Whilst tears that are...
People should be there,
It's at times like this, the loneliness,
People should show that they really care,
I can't fall out of love in a second,
In a minute a month or a year,
my love for you is everlasting,
And losing you was my greatest fear,
You ripped out my heart and you danced on it,
To the beat of the heavy bass line,
Whilst the DJ got you into a frenzy,
And euphoria took over your mind,
Now I lay here with a body that's battered,
With love seeping from my open wounds,
Whilst tears that are...
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Trying
I'm trying to understand what's going on in my life,
Whilst demons scream out their demands,
Fighting feelings of guilt and self-loathing,
Self destruction and harm are my only plans,
I hate the life that I was blessed with,
A constant fight between evil and good,
Evil demands that death is the out come,
Whilst good stood there and did all it could,
But now blood seeps from open wounds,
That the devil did with the razor blade,
Mind exploding in total confusion,
As the sunlight turns to a darkened haze,
Then I see my life ebbing...
Whilst demons scream out their demands,
Fighting feelings of guilt and self-loathing,
Self destruction and harm are my only plans,
I hate the life that I was blessed with,
A constant fight between evil and good,
Evil demands that death is the out come,
Whilst good stood there and did all it could,
But now blood seeps from open wounds,
That the devil did with the razor blade,
Mind exploding in total confusion,
As the sunlight turns to a darkened haze,
Then I see my life ebbing...
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Do I Die
All the writing is faded,
The name and the age,
All the flowers are dead,
It’s such an outrage,
The grass has grown longer,
The flowerpots cracked,
There are so many bodies,
The graveyard is packed,
I tidy the first,
And then the next one,
Mother and daughter,
And father and son,
Who were all these people?
Who I could not save?
Do I want to join them?
Do I want my own grave?
Do I,
Do I,
Do I,
Do I,
Do I,
Do I,
Do I die; do I die; do I?
The name and the age,
All the flowers are dead,
It’s such an outrage,
The grass has grown longer,
The flowerpots cracked,
There are so many bodies,
The graveyard is packed,
I tidy the first,
And then the next one,
Mother and daughter,
And father and son,
Who were all these people?
Who I could not save?
Do I want to join them?
Do I want my own grave?
Do I,
Do I,
Do I,
Do I,
Do I,
Do I,
Do I die; do I die; do I?
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I’m Not a Retard
Fuck you,
Fuck all of you,
Take these pills,
That’s what you’ll do,
That’s all they say,
That’s it,
Take these pills,
Their full of shit,
It’s in my head,
In my mind,
In my fucking head,
Are they fucking blind?
Don’t they believe?
Can’t they see what I see?
It’s there, it’s fucking there,
Can’t they see the willow tree?
Why can’t they see it?
Don’t they care?
It’s in the fucking graveyard,
That’s where,
I’m not a fucking retard,
But that’s what they think,
They think I’m mad,
But it’s them that needs...
Fuck all of you,
Take these pills,
That’s what you’ll do,
That’s all they say,
That’s it,
Take these pills,
Their full of shit,
It’s in my head,
In my mind,
In my fucking head,
Are they fucking blind?
Don’t they believe?
Can’t they see what I see?
It’s there, it’s fucking there,
Can’t they see the willow tree?
Why can’t they see it?
Don’t they care?
It’s in the fucking graveyard,
That’s where,
I’m not a fucking retard,
But that’s what they think,
They think I’m mad,
But it’s them that needs...
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f**king Die
Life, what the fuck is life?
Love, what the fuck is love?
Happiness, what the fuck is happiness?
I don’t know, do you?
No, because you know fuck all,
Your heads all fucked up,
Your mind has been twisted,
Your head filled with shit,
It’s not your life your living,
Wake up you thick bastards,
Open your fucking eyes,
Listen to me,
Because their full of shit,
Full of their love and happiness,
Full of their fucking god,
What a load of bollocks,
Their full of guilt,
Full of sadness,
Full of pain,
Their fucking insane,...
Love, what the fuck is love?
Happiness, what the fuck is happiness?
I don’t know, do you?
No, because you know fuck all,
Your heads all fucked up,
Your mind has been twisted,
Your head filled with shit,
It’s not your life your living,
Wake up you thick bastards,
Open your fucking eyes,
Listen to me,
Because their full of shit,
Full of their love and happiness,
Full of their fucking god,
What a load of bollocks,
Their full of guilt,
Full of sadness,
Full of pain,
Their fucking insane,...
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Tell Me
Why do you look at me like you do?
Why when I look do I see right through you?
Your eyes have no pupil, there white like pearl,
Just a small black figure, are you a boy or a girl?
Your lips never move, but I can hear what you say,
You talk to me, you whisper to me night and day,
I’m never afraid when I reach out to touch you,
Eve though my hands go right through you,
Do you know me? Do you love me?
You follow me into the willow tree,
You sit with me, you talk to me,
You walk with me into the willow tree,
I don’t know what you want, you...
Why when I look do I see right through you?
Your eyes have no pupil, there white like pearl,
Just a small black figure, are you a boy or a girl?
Your lips never move, but I can hear what you say,
You talk to me, you whisper to me night and day,
I’m never afraid when I reach out to touch you,
Eve though my hands go right through you,
Do you know me? Do you love me?
You follow me into the willow tree,
You sit with me, you talk to me,
You walk with me into the willow tree,
I don’t know what you want, you...
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Alone
Sat alone,
Sat alone thinking,
Thinking of days gone by,
And how I’d try,
Try to win your love,
Sat alone,
Sat alone drinking,
Drinking cans of beer,
Wishing you were here,
So I could show my love,
Sat alone,
Sat alone taking...
Taking tablets so I may die,
I love you babe, please don’t cry,
This is to prove my love,
Sat alone,
Sat alone crying,
Laid alone,
Laid alone dying,
Thinking, drinking, taking, crying, dying,
DEAD
Sat alone thinking,
Thinking of days gone by,
And how I’d try,
Try to win your love,
Sat alone,
Sat alone drinking,
Drinking cans of beer,
Wishing you were here,
So I could show my love,
Sat alone,
Sat alone taking...
Taking tablets so I may die,
I love you babe, please don’t cry,
This is to prove my love,
Sat alone,
Sat alone crying,
Laid alone,
Laid alone dying,
Thinking, drinking, taking, crying, dying,
DEAD
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When you die
My minds being used,
Used and abused,
Toyed and played with,
Filled with love,
Filled with hate,
Left in a state,
My life’s been shit,
So fuck it,
I’ve been fucked about,
Need to free my mind,
Need to free my soul,
So fuck man kind,
They tell me to pray,
Fuck them I say,
I don’t need their god,
I want to run,
I want to shout,
So fuck every one,
Fuck you, fuck you all,
You all will die,
So don’t cry,
Your tears will run red,
Till your tears run dry,
Then you'll fucking die.
Used and abused,
Toyed and played with,
Filled with love,
Filled with hate,
Left in a state,
My life’s been shit,
So fuck it,
I’ve been fucked about,
Need to free my mind,
Need to free my soul,
So fuck man kind,
They tell me to pray,
Fuck them I say,
I don’t need their god,
I want to run,
I want to shout,
So fuck every one,
Fuck you, fuck you all,
You all will die,
So don’t cry,
Your tears will run red,
Till your tears run dry,
Then you'll fucking die.
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f**king dead
Love,
Hate,
Love,
Hate,
Love, hate, death,
You’re dying,
So take your last breath,
But there’s nothing there,
Not on the other side,
If that’s what they told you,
Well they fucking lied,
You were conceived,
Then deceived,
But now relived,
You’re fucking dead,
You’re all alone,
No mummy or daddy,
No fucking home,
But now there’s no pain,
You’re not insane,
Death’s not a game,
You’re fucking dead,
Fucking dead,
Dead, dead, dead, fucking dead.
Hate,
Love,
Hate,
Love, hate, death,
You’re dying,
So take your last breath,
But there’s nothing there,
Not on the other side,
If that’s what they told you,
Well they fucking lied,
You were conceived,
Then deceived,
But now relived,
You’re fucking dead,
You’re all alone,
No mummy or daddy,
No fucking home,
But now there’s no pain,
You’re not insane,
Death’s not a game,
You’re fucking dead,
Fucking dead,
Dead, dead, dead, fucking dead.
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Sunrise
I know your hiding there in the shadows,
I can’t see you,
But I can sense your there,
Who are you?
Why do you torture my mind?
Was it for pleasure or pain?
That you fucked up my brain,
Are you manipulating?
Or just fucking contemplating?
Are you deliberating?
Hiding there in the shadows,
Tell me,
Are you afraid?
Because I am, I’m afraid,
And I think you’re afraid too,
Because you know that soon I won’t be afraid of you anymore,
You don’t want me to talk,
Because you know the more I talk,
The more the sun rises on me,...
I can’t see you,
But I can sense your there,
Who are you?
Why do you torture my mind?
Was it for pleasure or pain?
That you fucked up my brain,
Are you manipulating?
Or just fucking contemplating?
Are you deliberating?
Hiding there in the shadows,
Tell me,
Are you afraid?
Because I am, I’m afraid,
And I think you’re afraid too,
Because you know that soon I won’t be afraid of you anymore,
You don’t want me to talk,
Because you know the more I talk,
The more the sun rises on me,...
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The Willow Tree
In the graveyard stands a willow tree,
You can hide within its branches,
And it will keep you safe,
It will keep you warm,
And it will keep all your demons at bay,
I like the willow tree,
It sets me free,
And safe within its branches it cradles me,
As I look out through its branches,
I see people crying for their loved ones,
Tears rolling down their faces,
I want to shout to them,
And let them in here with me,
I like the willow tree,
It sets me free,
And safe within its branches it cradles me,
But I can’t, I...
You can hide within its branches,
And it will keep you safe,
It will keep you warm,
And it will keep all your demons at bay,
I like the willow tree,
It sets me free,
And safe within its branches it cradles me,
As I look out through its branches,
I see people crying for their loved ones,
Tears rolling down their faces,
I want to shout to them,
And let them in here with me,
I like the willow tree,
It sets me free,
And safe within its branches it cradles me,
But I can’t, I...
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