Submissions by cpizzi (Christian P)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
writing helps me materialize what’s inside my mind
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
4th Oct 2023 6:45pm
4th Oct 2023 6:45pm
death of a dad i never knew
mom called me to say
you overdosed today
in hopes you’d feel no pain
i’m trying just to cope
it is such a crying shame
if it’s real or she’s lying i contemplate
no longer dreams of what could’ve been
morgue contacting me my fathers next of kin
oh god why did the body have to be his
discovering every secret sin festering within
careening up from the dark deep below
with unknown meaning comes a fatal blow between the crossroads and the undertow
do i have the might to know which way i’m supposed to go
what...
you overdosed today
in hopes you’d feel no pain
i’m trying just to cope
it is such a crying shame
if it’s real or she’s lying i contemplate
no longer dreams of what could’ve been
morgue contacting me my fathers next of kin
oh god why did the body have to be his
discovering every secret sin festering within
careening up from the dark deep below
with unknown meaning comes a fatal blow between the crossroads and the undertow
do i have the might to know which way i’m supposed to go
what...
#grief
#father
#death
170 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
31st Jan 2023 4:02pm
31st Jan 2023 4:02pm
anxiety’s casualty
walking on eggshells and watching my tone
thoughts racing so fast but talking real slow
i love you so but i know you’re a troubled soul
your problems multiply from your own mind
into mine and they have grown out of control
consuming us both leaving me trapped with nowhere to go
carrying all these worries around is such a fatal
blow
now i know your problems are not mine they are your own
i have to but i don’t want to let you know now
that i have to let you go but i don’t know how
i hope...
thoughts racing so fast but talking real slow
i love you so but i know you’re a troubled soul
your problems multiply from your own mind
into mine and they have grown out of control
consuming us both leaving me trapped with nowhere to go
carrying all these worries around is such a fatal
blow
now i know your problems are not mine they are your own
i have to but i don’t want to let you know now
that i have to let you go but i don’t know how
i hope...
#anxiety
#love
#depression
#LifeStruggles
#MentalHealth
429 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
31st Aug 2021 6:02pm
31st Aug 2021 6:02pm
done
tied to a choice
that affected nearly everything
tethered neatly inside the void
discreetly deflecting benevolence
believing lies just to get by
claiming you’re heaven sent yet have no innocence
you have something to hide behind those eyes
suppression super storm begins to take form
for you i’d do anything & tonight it’s evident
tattered & torn
discovering comfort in feeling forlorn
you’re well informed to my uniform
worn as a charade to conform
pulling through a cascade of weathered film
masked...
that affected nearly everything
tethered neatly inside the void
discreetly deflecting benevolence
believing lies just to get by
claiming you’re heaven sent yet have no innocence
you have something to hide behind those eyes
suppression super storm begins to take form
for you i’d do anything & tonight it’s evident
tattered & torn
discovering comfort in feeling forlorn
you’re well informed to my uniform
worn as a charade to conform
pulling through a cascade of weathered film
masked...
#hurt
#manipulation
#emotions
696 reads
1 Comment
LOVE POEM
Published
31st Jul 2021 4:17pm
31st Jul 2021 4:17pm
where were you
in the corner
of this room
the silhouette
of regret it looms
feelings felt just
fade too soon
reaching for you
and i never knew
just how it felt
to hurt this bad
deep down i know
your glad & its so sad
this hollow heart
once a work of art
you can’t jumpstart
what is already falling apart
in front of me i couldn’t see
all of the deceit
the heart on my sleeve
blinded me so innocently
sword of deceit unsheathes
gently grazed upon my cheek ...
of this room
the silhouette
of regret it looms
feelings felt just
fade too soon
reaching for you
and i never knew
just how it felt
to hurt this bad
deep down i know
your glad & its so sad
this hollow heart
once a work of art
you can’t jumpstart
what is already falling apart
in front of me i couldn’t see
all of the deceit
the heart on my sleeve
blinded me so innocently
sword of deceit unsheathes
gently grazed upon my cheek ...
#depression
#regret
#hurt
441 reads
1 Comment
SELF POEM
Published
9th Jun 2021 5:43am
9th Jun 2021 5:43am
wet cement
worn down, shattered and torn
this fragile mind is clouded
suppression is stirring up a heavy storm
deep inside of every emotion disregarded
traverse the way throughout the shade
this heavy rain that was caused by pain
benevolent soul consumed with pestilence
it’s evident i’ve completely lost all control
desolate
so desolate
i don’t know who i am
or which way to go
endless
exodus
i don’t have the strength to stand
exposed with nothing left to show
...
this fragile mind is clouded
suppression is stirring up a heavy storm
deep inside of every emotion disregarded
traverse the way throughout the shade
this heavy rain that was caused by pain
benevolent soul consumed with pestilence
it’s evident i’ve completely lost all control
desolate
so desolate
i don’t know who i am
or which way to go
endless
exodus
i don’t have the strength to stand
exposed with nothing left to show
...
#anxiety
#depression
#loneliness
#SelfReflection
#emptiness
374 reads
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LOVE POEM
Published
5th Jun 2021 5:05am
5th Jun 2021 5:05am
between the stars & moon
here lies my demise
soul is stained black from white
today goes by
even further from our forever
alone at night
the color leaves my eyes
with every tear i cry
lost thoughts find their way to the paper
look in the mirror & i see right through
seconds arrive but are gone too soon
moments of silence become years of solitude
i lost too many yesterday’s with you
so i’m searching for you
between the stars and moon
i see light bleeding through the lonely night
makes my chest...
soul is stained black from white
today goes by
even further from our forever
alone at night
the color leaves my eyes
with every tear i cry
lost thoughts find their way to the paper
look in the mirror & i see right through
seconds arrive but are gone too soon
moments of silence become years of solitude
i lost too many yesterday’s with you
so i’m searching for you
between the stars and moon
i see light bleeding through the lonely night
makes my chest...
#sadness
#love
#regret #forgiveness
#regret #forgiveness
461 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
10th Feb 2021 7:04am
10th Feb 2021 7:04am
commonwealth avenue
i fell in love with you on commonwealth avenue
the sky has never been quite so blue
stars will never shine as bright as you
all those long nights filled with elation
getting completely lost in conversation
memories i’ve frozen in time
because i know i couldn’t press rewind
baking cake in your apartment
spilling coke zero on your carpet
spontaneous adventures throughout the city
simultaneous smiles walking for miles went by so quickly
how fast we inhaled those tasty...
the sky has never been quite so blue
stars will never shine as bright as you
all those long nights filled with elation
getting completely lost in conversation
memories i’ve frozen in time
because i know i couldn’t press rewind
baking cake in your apartment
spilling coke zero on your carpet
spontaneous adventures throughout the city
simultaneous smiles walking for miles went by so quickly
how fast we inhaled those tasty...
#love
#regret
#FallingInLove
#LongDistanceRelationship
#FirstLove
557 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
8th Feb 2021 9:27am
8th Feb 2021 9:27am
afterthought
i feel you slipping away from me
tell me does it still hurt today
i’m the reason everything’s this way
it’s not the same when there’s no flame
all i knew was that pain was persistent
but you showed me something different
i could see our forever in the distance
i’ll admit that i’m the one who killed it
even though it’s too late to say i wish i didn’t
you shine so bright
i’m lost in the dark
too far from your light
why do i feel friction from our spark
every single night tearing...
tell me does it still hurt today
i’m the reason everything’s this way
it’s not the same when there’s no flame
all i knew was that pain was persistent
but you showed me something different
i could see our forever in the distance
i’ll admit that i’m the one who killed it
even though it’s too late to say i wish i didn’t
you shine so bright
i’m lost in the dark
too far from your light
why do i feel friction from our spark
every single night tearing...
#love
#regret
#breakup #hurt
#breakup #hurt
540 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
3rd Dec 2020 10:08pm
3rd Dec 2020 10:08pm
until it broke
we would of probably
made it out alive
if i actually tried
to say goodbye
i’ll never know why
or what you’re thinking
i’ll put my pride aside
and save the alibis
from all the lies
so i’ll bide my time
until i have to go
i’ll abide by all your wishes
you have my complete permission
on one condition just let me know
before you go and rip out my heart
help sew up the stitches
nobody else can fix this
who knew love could be so viscous
there’s nothing left ...
made it out alive
if i actually tried
to say goodbye
i’ll never know why
or what you’re thinking
i’ll put my pride aside
and save the alibis
from all the lies
so i’ll bide my time
until i have to go
i’ll abide by all your wishes
you have my complete permission
on one condition just let me know
before you go and rip out my heart
help sew up the stitches
nobody else can fix this
who knew love could be so viscous
there’s nothing left ...
#grief
#suffering
#hurt
382 reads
1 Comment
LOVE POEM
Published
12th Nov 2020 4:29am
12th Nov 2020 4:29am
unforgiven
lost in
desperation
seeking
salvation
unforgiven
never to
forget your
sadness and
frustration
unforgiven
do i let go
and ride the
current to the
undertow
unforgiven
you give
me hope
but failures
all i know
unforgiven
now two
true lovers
plight
unforgiven
i need
you to
shine your
light
unforgiven
blinding every
single damned
demon inside
...
desperation
seeking
salvation
unforgiven
never to
forget your
sadness and
frustration
unforgiven
do i let go
and ride the
current to the
undertow
unforgiven
you give
me hope
but failures
all i know
unforgiven
now two
true lovers
plight
unforgiven
i need
you to
shine your
light
unforgiven
blinding every
single damned
demon inside
...
#regret
#despair
#FeelingLost
#disappointment
#hurt
899 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
11th Nov 2020 1:16am
11th Nov 2020 1:16am
my world/my head
i cannot believe i’ve lost all my senses
darkness covers me i fall underneath
countless broken promises
i tremble i shake i crumble to the floor
from the weight of my mistakes
i hesitate to say i’ve been there before
our future always seemed so bright
living in the dark i feared the light
yet i tried so hard to do her right
the hardest part is not being by her side
she fights the reasons why
she might believe the lies
i always hide and...
darkness covers me i fall underneath
countless broken promises
i tremble i shake i crumble to the floor
from the weight of my mistakes
i hesitate to say i’ve been there before
our future always seemed so bright
living in the dark i feared the light
yet i tried so hard to do her right
the hardest part is not being by her side
she fights the reasons why
she might believe the lies
i always hide and...
#love
#regret
#ImSorry
#forgiveness
#MentalHealth
724 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
7th Nov 2020 6:34am
7th Nov 2020 6:34am
dug my grave
all aboard my train of pain
where all chords are played out of tune
all is lost never to gain
and there’s nothing you can do
drained of everything that made you sane
chained to disdain then i abandon you
i was careless
with your pure fragile heart
how can i bare this
you endure everything
that is tearing you apart
i blame myself
i’m so pathetic
you’ve moved along
i hope you won’t forget me
i ignite my queen
in kerosine
and fled the scene
regretting everything
...
where all chords are played out of tune
all is lost never to gain
and there’s nothing you can do
drained of everything that made you sane
chained to disdain then i abandon you
i was careless
with your pure fragile heart
how can i bare this
you endure everything
that is tearing you apart
i blame myself
i’m so pathetic
you’ve moved along
i hope you won’t forget me
i ignite my queen
in kerosine
and fled the scene
regretting everything
...
#love
#regret
#despair
#FeelingLost
#hurt
584 reads
1 Comment
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