dug my grave

all aboard my train of pain  
where all chords are played out of tune  
all is lost never to gain  
and there’s nothing you can do  
drained of everything that made you sane  
chained to disdain then i abandon you  
 
i was careless  
with your pure fragile heart  
how can i bare this  
you endure everything
that is tearing you apart  
 
i blame myself  
i’m so pathetic  
you’ve moved along  
i hope you won’t forget me  
 
i ignite my queen  
in kerosine  
and fled the scene  
regretting everything  
 
you ignore my words  
they have no worth  
i longer mean anything  
to anyone on this earth  
i’m filth i’m dirt  
the reason for your hurt  
 
nobody can save me from myself  
i let you down don’t put me  
back up on your shelf  
all i’ll ever be is a letdown
save yourself i’m going down  
down down down  
 
deeper than i ever was before  
i cannot bare this despair  
i’m a corpse beyond repair  
i don’t even deserve your prayers
 
i’m sick i’m shit  
a broken heart  
that nobody could fix  
don’t feel sorry for me i caused all this  
 
i shut you out and threw you away  
why the fuck did i expect you to stay  
i dug my own grave i fall deeper everyday