Submissions by calamitygin (Jennifer Michael McCurry)

Comfort feels alien
Ian lost from that place
I hold my heart
But not in body
My thoughts spin out to space
I cry God
Sing him loud
And I find my breathe like a breeze
I surrender to God
Give him self will
And all fear
Soon I know I find peace

I felt his hardness in the very center of me
Was not allowed the luxury of sound
No moan, no shudder, no release from all the pressure rising
I felt like a balloon with too much air
And his hand, around my throat, like I was hanging from the gallows
My feet were curled and trying to climb the sheets
Eyes bulging and pleading
I would die or cum
One hard thrust and yes! He was filling me
I was pulsing around him
And finally he said speak
"thank you Sir, I love you.

He poured into me
With desperate rhythm of yearning and breath
Sweet pleasure then pain and back again
He commanded, and so I hung on like death
"Say my name little girl."
"and yes please must be your response"
He smelt of sin and sweat and terrified me
I hated him, then loved him at once