Submissions by brokentitanium (k.)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I'm just a human living my life, and this is where I spill the stuff I can't say out loud. Sometimes the words arrange themselves nicely, and that's pretty cool.
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
7th Jan 2025 8:41pm
7th Jan 2025 8:41pm
On Courage
It has little to do with bravery
or fear
or rugged badassery
It’s the letting go
laying down
that fuckit moment
in a set jaw
when inaction feels more dangerous
than meeting a tiger of terror
***
Faced with the option of
being torn to obstinate shreds
left for dead
or
languishing in the rot of regret
agonizing endlessly over what ifs
I’ll take the tiger
.
or fear
or rugged badassery
It’s the letting go
laying down
that fuckit moment
in a set jaw
when inaction feels more dangerous
than meeting a tiger of terror
***
Faced with the option of
being torn to obstinate shreds
left for dead
or
languishing in the rot of regret
agonizing endlessly over what ifs
I’ll take the tiger
.
#courage
108 reads
16 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
3rd Jan 2025 2:06am
3rd Jan 2025 2:06am
On Authenticity
There’s a mistake I never even knew I made --
abandoned myself
years ago, afraid.
Believed I could submit, commit
to never showing
never growing
beyond that snug hole I dug.
Thought I was safe
in this satin-lined chest
six feet below my self I would rest
I even dared to call it
blessed
But the air is stale
I can’t inhale
the kool-aid went sour
and I feel my power punching
and clawing my own damn way out
ready to shout ...
abandoned myself
years ago, afraid.
Believed I could submit, commit
to never showing
never growing
beyond that snug hole I dug.
Thought I was safe
in this satin-lined chest
six feet below my self I would rest
I even dared to call it
blessed
But the air is stale
I can’t inhale
the kool-aid went sour
and I feel my power punching
and clawing my own damn way out
ready to shout ...
#courage
#MovingOn
#PersonalGrowth #SelfDiscovery
#PersonalGrowth #SelfDiscovery
110 reads
11 Comments
ANGER POEM
Published
15th Dec 2024 1:15am
15th Dec 2024 1:15am
Child
I was a child
the brunt of jokes
too young to understand the laughter
torn between humiliation and need for attention
I was a child
defenseless, confused
too young to understand my body’s reactions
torn between shame and need for affection
I was a child
hiding, unprotected
too young to understand the rage was not my fault
torn between fear and need for acceptance
I was a child
hurt, neglected
too young
torn
I was a child.
.
the brunt of jokes
too young to understand the laughter
torn between humiliation and need for attention
I was a child
defenseless, confused
too young to understand my body’s reactions
torn between shame and need for affection
I was a child
hiding, unprotected
too young to understand the rage was not my fault
torn between fear and need for acceptance
I was a child
hurt, neglected
too young
torn
I was a child.
.
#abuse
#anger
#healing
167 reads
21 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
3rd Dec 2024 00:23am
3rd Dec 2024 00:23am
I can feel it
I can feel it...
the sun on my face
the breeze in my hair
the joy in my gut
the spring in my strut
I can feel it...
the dark in my veins
the shame in my soul
the wrong in my right
the cry in the night
I don't know how to stop
I don't know how to feel it all
I want to shut my eyes
Let the cloak of numbness fall
To feel the love
is to know the hurt
.
the sun on my face
the breeze in my hair
the joy in my gut
the spring in my strut
I can feel it...
the dark in my veins
the shame in my soul
the wrong in my right
the cry in the night
I don't know how to stop
I don't know how to feel it all
I want to shut my eyes
Let the cloak of numbness fall
To feel the love
is to know the hurt
.
#anxiety
#emotions
#hurt #love
#hurt #love
143 reads
19 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
3rd Dec 2024 00:04am
3rd Dec 2024 00:04am
My only wish
..
And if my life should end tomorrow
and I sink into dust and dirt,
My only wish is that you'd know
I never meant to make you hurt.
If I could make the time go backwards
If granting wishes was my skill,
I'd put together what has fractured
and we'd laugh together still.
.
And if my life should end tomorrow
and I sink into dust and dirt,
My only wish is that you'd know
I never meant to make you hurt.
If I could make the time go backwards
If granting wishes was my skill,
I'd put together what has fractured
and we'd laugh together still.
.
#confessional
#forgiveness
#love #regret
#love #regret
176 reads
14 Comments
SONG LYRICS
Published
2nd Dec 2024 1:35am
2nd Dec 2024 1:35am
This Song (It's for You)
#friendship
#music
#relationships
#respect
#support
168 reads
17 Comments
UPBEAT INSPIRATIONAL POEM
Published
21st Nov 2024 3:10am
21st Nov 2024 3:10am
I'm happy just to know you're there
On occasion, our paths cross:
fragments of interaction
encouragement
kindness
laughter
Even more infrequently, a conversation:
immediately comfortable
close and vulnerable
deep support
understanding
more laughter
I won't tell you
how these connections light up my heart
To say it aloud
would bring a weight of expectation
I don't care
if it's mutual or not
I'm happy just to know you're there
When we are nothing but starlight
I'm...
fragments of interaction
encouragement
kindness
laughter
Even more infrequently, a conversation:
immediately comfortable
close and vulnerable
deep support
understanding
more laughter
I won't tell you
how these connections light up my heart
To say it aloud
would bring a weight of expectation
I don't care
if it's mutual or not
I'm happy just to know you're there
When we are nothing but starlight
I'm...
#crush
#friendship
#respect #support
#respect #support
214 reads
20 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
3rd Nov 2024 11:21am
3rd Nov 2024 11:21am
Limerence
here I go again
fingers brushing candle flame
beauty - danger - dance
.
fingers brushing candle flame
beauty - danger - dance
.
#love
#senryu
#ThrillSeeking
108 reads
10 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
16th Oct 2024 1:18am
16th Oct 2024 1:18am
Sick
head heavy like stone
sandpaper lining my throat
can't keep my eyes o....
.
sandpaper lining my throat
can't keep my eyes o....
.
#illness
#senryu
#sleep #suffering
#sleep #suffering
141 reads
4 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
2nd Oct 2024 00:51am
2nd Oct 2024 00:51am
The dog ate my therapy homework
The dog ate my therapy homework
He chewed it up into bits.
It was spiced with tears and bitter regret
and held all the secrets I’m scared I’ll forget
Now I’m doomed – and my dog has the shits.
The cat ate my therapy homework
She shredded the evidence.
The lessons it taught me were so hard-earned
I’ll mess up again if it isn’t returned
and no one will heed my defense.
My kids burned my therapy homework
They tore it up for kindling.
The progress I’ve made has gone up in smoke
One step up, three steps back, it’s really...
He chewed it up into bits.
It was spiced with tears and bitter regret
and held all the secrets I’m scared I’ll forget
Now I’m doomed – and my dog has the shits.
The cat ate my therapy homework
She shredded the evidence.
The lessons it taught me were so hard-earned
I’ll mess up again if it isn’t returned
and no one will heed my defense.
My kids burned my therapy homework
They tore it up for kindling.
The progress I’ve made has gone up in smoke
One step up, three steps back, it’s really...
#funny
#MentalHealth
#PersonalGrowth
257 reads
17 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
4th Sep 2024 6:20pm
4th Sep 2024 6:20pm
Existing
What’s it like to just relax and BE?
To not always worry what ‘they’ want to see?
I’ve shape-shifted so much, I don’t recognize me.
Do I even exist?
Connection only comes through terms and conditions.
Don’t upset, don’t anger, don’t raise 'their' suspicions.
Dismissal will follow if you voice your ambitions,
so pretend they don’t exist.
I’ve spent all my energy just being acceptable.
To ‘their’ disapproval I’m over-susceptible.
My own wants and needs are imperceptible.
Do they even...
To not always worry what ‘they’ want to see?
I’ve shape-shifted so much, I don’t recognize me.
Do I even exist?
Connection only comes through terms and conditions.
Don’t upset, don’t anger, don’t raise 'their' suspicions.
Dismissal will follow if you voice your ambitions,
so pretend they don’t exist.
I’ve spent all my energy just being acceptable.
To ‘their’ disapproval I’m over-susceptible.
My own wants and needs are imperceptible.
Do they even...
#SelfReflection
199 reads
16 Comments
SONG LYRICS
Published
15th Aug 2024 4:22pm
15th Aug 2024 4:22pm
Last to Leave the Party
You’re the last to leave the party
The last one to catch on
They’re way too kind to kick you out
But they’ve already gone
They’re setting good times on the shelf
They’re turning off their phones
When you’re last to leave the party
You get used to drinking alone
Should’ve known the time would come when you’d get left behind
But you were having so much fun you couldn’t see the signs
They’re looking at their watches saying sorry, gotta run
But it’s not late, and you thought things had only just begun
Time only flies for the person...
The last one to catch on
They’re way too kind to kick you out
But they’ve already gone
They’re setting good times on the shelf
They’re turning off their phones
When you’re last to leave the party
You get used to drinking alone
Should’ve known the time would come when you’d get left behind
But you were having so much fun you couldn’t see the signs
They’re looking at their watches saying sorry, gotta run
But it’s not late, and you thought things had only just begun
Time only flies for the person...
#choices
#disappointment
#friendship #MovingOn
#friendship #MovingOn
220 reads
12 Comments
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