Submissions by bleedin-heart-gurl
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
SELF POEM
Published
25th Dec 2020 5:29pm
25th Dec 2020 5:29pm
Restless
It's 2:16 am and I can't sleep
Saturday, August 3rd, 2019
The dawn of a new month
My brain is working in overdrive
As I think about a lot of things
Fucked up things
I'm miserable and I hardly feel alive
I have all these twisted emotions and thoughts boiling inside
It's a wonder why I haven't died
It's 2:24 am and I question why am I still here
Roaming this fucked up dark earth like a zombie
Some would call me a hot mess
Trying to keep it together for those who could care less
Coming apart at the seams
Slowly but...
Saturday, August 3rd, 2019
The dawn of a new month
My brain is working in overdrive
As I think about a lot of things
Fucked up things
I'm miserable and I hardly feel alive
I have all these twisted emotions and thoughts boiling inside
It's a wonder why I haven't died
It's 2:24 am and I question why am I still here
Roaming this fucked up dark earth like a zombie
Some would call me a hot mess
Trying to keep it together for those who could care less
Coming apart at the seams
Slowly but...
#anxiety
#loneliness
#despair
363 reads
4 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
30th Apr 2019 2:45pm
30th Apr 2019 2:45pm
The Socially Inept
Here we are again.... S.A.D
An uninvited visit from thee
All my comfort out the door
My trembling lips sealed
I'm render a fidgeting mess
My heart racing, my knees shaking
Just dying for this interaction to end
But here we are.... Once again...
I don't like this feel
I loathe this pain
That you cruelly bestowed upon me
My mind goes blank
For they call upon me to speak
But not a word I can
Is it simply because I'm weak?
I fear I'll say something stupid
I fear I'll be humiliated
I fear they'll...
An uninvited visit from thee
All my comfort out the door
My trembling lips sealed
I'm render a fidgeting mess
My heart racing, my knees shaking
Just dying for this interaction to end
But here we are.... Once again...
I don't like this feel
I loathe this pain
That you cruelly bestowed upon me
My mind goes blank
For they call upon me to speak
But not a word I can
Is it simply because I'm weak?
I fear I'll say something stupid
I fear I'll be humiliated
I fear they'll...
#sadness
#anxiety
#loneliness
#LifeStruggles
#MentalHealth
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4 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
24th Jan 2019 3:37pm
24th Jan 2019 3:37pm
December 26, 2018
More than a hundred reasons why
I choose to die tonight
I know you'll never understand
I know it doesn't make sense
But this is my life
I choose what I do with it
Call me crazy and say I'm insane
But you don't know the depth of the darkness I live in day by day
You do not know what it's like
We can spend wasted hours going over it
Again and again
But you will never comprehend
You can pretend and tell me it will be alright
But the fact is it won't
Not today not tomorrow not ever
Well maybe just for a little while ...
I choose to die tonight
I know you'll never understand
I know it doesn't make sense
But this is my life
I choose what I do with it
Call me crazy and say I'm insane
But you don't know the depth of the darkness I live in day by day
You do not know what it's like
We can spend wasted hours going over it
Again and again
But you will never comprehend
You can pretend and tell me it will be alright
But the fact is it won't
Not today not tomorrow not ever
Well maybe just for a little while ...
#depression
#dark
#despair
#suffering
#emptiness
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1 Comment
DARK POEM
Published
10th Nov 2018 2:50pm
10th Nov 2018 2:50pm
Hello Depression
Hello depression my old friend
I see you've come to visit me again
Just when I thought we've become enemies
Now it only seem we've reconcile
For here you are right back in my life
Taking the little happiness I had found
Turning into darkness
Scaring my hands with blood
Watching me tremble as I sulk
Hello depression my old friend
In a sick way I missed your presence
You never left me like they did
You are always there
So standstill
When you leave its only to reappear
So Depression what shall I feel today ...
I see you've come to visit me again
Just when I thought we've become enemies
Now it only seem we've reconcile
For here you are right back in my life
Taking the little happiness I had found
Turning into darkness
Scaring my hands with blood
Watching me tremble as I sulk
Hello depression my old friend
In a sick way I missed your presence
You never left me like they did
You are always there
So standstill
When you leave its only to reappear
So Depression what shall I feel today ...
#anxiety
#depression
#dark #MentalHealth
#dark #MentalHealth
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2 Comments
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
30th Dec 2017 7:49pm
30th Dec 2017 7:49pm
No More
We can take so much and no more
No more is what we scream endlessly
What we crave deeply
No more equals freedom
And freedom means new breath
New life, nothing like the one before
We scream no more though we know it’s not over by a long shot
We beg for the end of what’s oppressing, overwhelming us
What binds us in an endlessly captive?
Like we’re falling in an endlessly abyss
How long must one struggle to learn the lesson at hand?
Is the length of our pain that necessary and if so who deems it to be?
Yes we become smarter and wiser...
No more is what we scream endlessly
What we crave deeply
No more equals freedom
And freedom means new breath
New life, nothing like the one before
We scream no more though we know it’s not over by a long shot
We beg for the end of what’s oppressing, overwhelming us
What binds us in an endlessly captive?
Like we’re falling in an endlessly abyss
How long must one struggle to learn the lesson at hand?
Is the length of our pain that necessary and if so who deems it to be?
Yes we become smarter and wiser...
#freedom
613 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
11th Apr 2017 6:01pm
11th Apr 2017 6:01pm
Is There A Place
Is there a place where uncertainty is sure?
Where the loveless can be loved
Where the sorrowful can be happy
Is there a place where the lost is found
Where the broken is mended
Where the caged is free
Is there a place where you finally accept me?
Where I’m deemed worthy
Where both our souls become one
And you say you love me……..….
If there's a place can you show me?
Where the loveless can be loved
Where the sorrowful can be happy
Is there a place where the lost is found
Where the broken is mended
Where the caged is free
Is there a place where you finally accept me?
Where I’m deemed worthy
Where both our souls become one
And you say you love me……..….
If there's a place can you show me?
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DARK POEM
Published
27th Sep 2016 6:52pm
27th Sep 2016 6:52pm
Who We Are
The voices in our head
The thoughts that never dies
To others we seem normal
But only we know what we feel inside
A lost soul trying to find a home
A shattered glass trying to be piece back together
We walk a path no one can understand
And we live a life were death seems more alluring than life
We know not who we really are
We try so desperately to find our way
We crave that need to belong
And we hate the painful feeling when we are alone
We compromise our self’s just to fit in
Even if it’s for a little while
Just to feel a little...
The thoughts that never dies
To others we seem normal
But only we know what we feel inside
A lost soul trying to find a home
A shattered glass trying to be piece back together
We walk a path no one can understand
And we live a life were death seems more alluring than life
We know not who we really are
We try so desperately to find our way
We crave that need to belong
And we hate the painful feeling when we are alone
We compromise our self’s just to fit in
Even if it’s for a little while
Just to feel a little...
573 reads
2 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
20th Nov 2015 4:05pm
20th Nov 2015 4:05pm
Silence
The deafening silence that pierce my ears
Constantly reminds me there’s no one there
I seem to have forgotten again, I always do
That the silence is the reality
This silence is true
It’s the one thing that’s remains
When all else is gone
Basking in its essence
And feeling safe
Where I can’t get hurt
The silence never betrays
A shoulder to cry on
A music piece without sound
Lyrics that depicts what loneliness really is
This silence so constant
That never ends
This silences I can rely on when everyone is gone
Liars and...
Constantly reminds me there’s no one there
I seem to have forgotten again, I always do
That the silence is the reality
This silence is true
It’s the one thing that’s remains
When all else is gone
Basking in its essence
And feeling safe
Where I can’t get hurt
The silence never betrays
A shoulder to cry on
A music piece without sound
Lyrics that depicts what loneliness really is
This silence so constant
That never ends
This silences I can rely on when everyone is gone
Liars and...
751 reads
1 Comment
DARK POEM
Published
30th Oct 2015 9:56pm
30th Oct 2015 9:56pm
Dear Depression
What will you have me do today
Will I be crying my eyes out as I lay in my bed
Will my scars be bleeding as I recall every pain in my head
Will the dark clouds be raining and soaking me till I’m wet
Will my emotions be spiraling and making me fret
Will I isolate myself and think about death
Will I refuse to eat and degrade my own health
Oh dear depression what will it be?
How will you surprise me today, how will you make me feel.
Will I feel pathetic and regret all my failures
Will I feel ugly and hide form every mirrors
Will the loneliness...
Will I be crying my eyes out as I lay in my bed
Will my scars be bleeding as I recall every pain in my head
Will the dark clouds be raining and soaking me till I’m wet
Will my emotions be spiraling and making me fret
Will I isolate myself and think about death
Will I refuse to eat and degrade my own health
Oh dear depression what will it be?
How will you surprise me today, how will you make me feel.
Will I feel pathetic and regret all my failures
Will I feel ugly and hide form every mirrors
Will the loneliness...
775 reads
2 Comments
ANGER POEM
Published
19th Aug 2015 1:28am
19th Aug 2015 1:28am
I'll Never Forget
I'll never forget the words they preach
Their blunt cruelty and condescending speech
I was at my lowest, the weakest of the fleet
They showed no pity instead they aim their anger at me..
I was lost and afraid back then
Had given up on everything and had rather been dead
Pathetic they had call me,
How their words were so loud
Not caring if I heard them
As if they couldn't control what was coming out of their damn mouth
I was shunned mostly, they hated when I was around
Yet they sometimes pretended as if among us love was found
A smile...
Their blunt cruelty and condescending speech
I was at my lowest, the weakest of the fleet
They showed no pity instead they aim their anger at me..
I was lost and afraid back then
Had given up on everything and had rather been dead
Pathetic they had call me,
How their words were so loud
Not caring if I heard them
As if they couldn't control what was coming out of their damn mouth
I was shunned mostly, they hated when I was around
Yet they sometimes pretended as if among us love was found
A smile...
677 reads
1 Comment
SELF POEM
Published
15th Aug 2015 5:49pm
15th Aug 2015 5:49pm
Nothing
l feel nothing and it's okay,
I feel nothing and it's better off this way..
No feelings no emotions
So there's no sadness or pain..
Just going on with the motions each passing day
I feel nothing yet I feel more than I ever did
I feel nothing yet I feel relief growing within..
A peace I never thought I'll find
When I cut off all emotional tides...
I feel nothing and it's not so hard to smile
I feel nothing and I can pretend and lie
No one needs to know what's being suppress inside
I will blend like everyone else
I've been craving...
I feel nothing and it's better off this way..
No feelings no emotions
So there's no sadness or pain..
Just going on with the motions each passing day
I feel nothing yet I feel more than I ever did
I feel nothing yet I feel relief growing within..
A peace I never thought I'll find
When I cut off all emotional tides...
I feel nothing and it's not so hard to smile
I feel nothing and I can pretend and lie
No one needs to know what's being suppress inside
I will blend like everyone else
I've been craving...
680 reads
4 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
17th Jun 2015 6:42pm
17th Jun 2015 6:42pm
Deep Within
Days changes and time passes by,
But one thing that remains
Is our thoughts that stays in place.
We might seem normal to others that walks by
But we keep the truth about ourselves
Hidden behind our lies
Our lips curve as we smile
Happy faces and bright eyes
But no one will ever notice
The true sorrow behind our eyes
It eats at us within like a parasite feeding on its kin.
A disease never to leave but rather to remind us of the pain conceived.
An escape we'll seek to ease what we feel
Either love or a friend just anything to make it...
But one thing that remains
Is our thoughts that stays in place.
We might seem normal to others that walks by
But we keep the truth about ourselves
Hidden behind our lies
Our lips curve as we smile
Happy faces and bright eyes
But no one will ever notice
The true sorrow behind our eyes
It eats at us within like a parasite feeding on its kin.
A disease never to leave but rather to remind us of the pain conceived.
An escape we'll seek to ease what we feel
Either love or a friend just anything to make it...
698 reads
2 Comments
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