Submissions by Zombie_Twinkie
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I'm just me o.o so give a read.
NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
4th Oct 2019 5:55am
4th Oct 2019 5:55am
Letter to my love pt 4
You, my love, feel like home. Your embrace fills my heart with warmth, love and safety. Your smile brings me such joy, it's like you can light up the room, no matter how dark. The feeling of you beside me at night always let's me I'm not alone. The way you look at me first thing in the morning, no matter how sleepy you are, makes me feel like the luckiest girl in the world. I love you more than anything in this world my love, you are my home. It's been far too long since I've felt your touch, smelled your lotion on you after your shower, been able to just be with you. Exist in the moment...
#sadness
#love
#LongDistanceRelationship
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Published
15th Sep 2019 7:51am
15th Sep 2019 7:51am
Letter to my love pt3
Oh my sweet girl, how I love you. The last few days have been rough. I have missed your face, your voice, your smile, your laugh. I wish you would let me be there for you more. It kills me not being able to be with you in person and it feels like I'm being punished right now. Our daily video chats made it so much more bearable for me. I know sometimes you want space, and I am doing my very best here. But my god it hurts. I miss you waking me up as soon as you can. I miss hanging out watching YouTube and playing WoW. I miss you leaving the camera on while you nap so I can watch over you. I...
#sadness
#anxiety
#love #LongDistanceRelationship
#love #LongDistanceRelationship
444 reads
1 Comment
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Published
9th Aug 2019 1:06am
9th Aug 2019 1:06am
Letter to my love pt2
Oh my dear sweet girl how I love you. I love so many things about you. Even when you are a total brat to me. Even when I get frustrated or upset with you. I never stop loving you. I long to hold you again. It's always on my mind. Holding you, hugging you, snuggling with you. I miss that so much. I miss all the little things we did together through the day. Even if we didnt do much. It was always so much better because you were there. I miss everything, even when we got into stupid arguments. I also miss when cuddling became more. I miss the feel of your body on mine. The way you looked when I...
#sadness
#love
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Published
4th Aug 2019 8:44am
4th Aug 2019 8:44am
Open letter to my love
I can't tell you everything I want to say right now. Things are so complicated between us and with both of our lives. But I just wish I could tell you how much I love you. We both made bad choices in this relationship and did things to hurt each other. But even with all that, I can't help but to love you. I know both of our mental illnesses are the cause for these problems. But it doesnt change how much I miss you. How much I long to hold you as we drift off to sleep again. To watch our favorite shows together in bed and eat junk food. How much I miss you driving me crazy by eating the raw...
#sadness
#love
#hope #frustration
#hope #frustration
497 reads
1 Comment
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Published
21st May 2016 5:08am
21st May 2016 5:08am
Going.. Going... Gone
I can't take this anymore. I want all this to end. So I'm doing it. I took all the pills I could and am just waiting for death. Goodbye.
817 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
15th May 2016 1:56am
15th May 2016 1:56am
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I dared to dream, to hope. I gained faith and confidence in something. Someone. But things took unexpected turn. Now lost in confusion and delusion. The only escape I can see will be the end of me.
742 reads
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NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
14th May 2016 8:02am
14th May 2016 8:02am
Slipping
I feel my mind slipping. The bad thoughts aren't just peeking back in, they are roaring. I've already planned how I want to go. What I want with me when I die. The last thing I will say to her. Everything down to what I'll wear. Just waiting for the right day. The perfect day.
633 reads
1 Comment
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Published
12th May 2016 9:40pm
12th May 2016 9:40pm
Letters I'll never send day three
Wednesday, may 11 2:10 am
Work was horrible. All those bad thoughts kept coming up. So the things I could do to hurt myself and you. I don't want to be like that. I don't want to make you cry. I don't want to hurt you no matter how much your leaving hurts. I live you far too much. I can't even bring myself to actually tell you how I'm feeling because I know that would hurt you...
11:30 am
My phone woke me up and I thought "it's her. " and jumped to answer. It wasn't. The disappointment hurt. Especially after dreaming you called me and told me you missed...
Work was horrible. All those bad thoughts kept coming up. So the things I could do to hurt myself and you. I don't want to be like that. I don't want to make you cry. I don't want to hurt you no matter how much your leaving hurts. I live you far too much. I can't even bring myself to actually tell you how I'm feeling because I know that would hurt you...
11:30 am
My phone woke me up and I thought "it's her. " and jumped to answer. It wasn't. The disappointment hurt. Especially after dreaming you called me and told me you missed...
697 reads
2 Comments
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Published
12th May 2016 3:06am
12th May 2016 3:06am
Letters I'll never send day 2
Tuesday May 10th 1:20 am
I know you were never physically with me, but i miss you so much and everything feels so empty and lonely. I miss falling asleep with you and hearing Olive snore. I miss you so fucking much it hurts. I can't take this. I need you so fucking much. Only you can make things better. But will you? And how long will it take if you do?
1:45am
I keep expecting you to wake up and call me anytime. I miss you and need you so fucking much. I love you MaryAnn Lane. Work made me miss you so much. All i wanted was to talk to you about it. I managed...
I know you were never physically with me, but i miss you so much and everything feels so empty and lonely. I miss falling asleep with you and hearing Olive snore. I miss you so fucking much it hurts. I can't take this. I need you so fucking much. Only you can make things better. But will you? And how long will it take if you do?
1:45am
I keep expecting you to wake up and call me anytime. I miss you and need you so fucking much. I love you MaryAnn Lane. Work made me miss you so much. All i wanted was to talk to you about it. I managed...
678 reads
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Published
12th May 2016 1:35am
12th May 2016 1:35am
Letters I'll never send day 1
Monday, May 9th 2016 12:25 am. Dear MaryAnn, I still can't believe you told me you don't want me anymore. After you hung up yesterday morning, I kept crying for hours. I finally fell to sleep but I kept waking up. I dreamed about you. You told me you left because I was too negative and I begged you to give me another chance. You said you had a boyfriend now. But when I said you didn't date boys, you told me you didn't mean it. I really want you to tell me you didn't mean it. I miss you so much already. I'm so confused. I really don't understand. I love you so much. I...
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SELF POEM
Published
22nd Apr 2015 11:43am
22nd Apr 2015 11:43am
the moment
Laying in bed trying to sleep, I notice my eyes begin to leak. Joy of joys I'm crying again. I try to fight back the tears but they come anyway. . .then the urge hits me like a ton of bricks. It's time for a pain fix. As if on auto pilot I reach for my blade and quickly write the first thing in my mind, "I am nothing" bold as can be. Suddenly the tears stop and inside I feel calm as I watch the blood rising up from each cut, the crimson slowly rolling down my leg. Moments later I wipe it away, and slowly sink back into bed. The house as quiet as my head....
788 reads
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Published
31st Jan 2015 6:25am
31st Jan 2015 6:25am
almost goodbye
The day will come when I finally say I've had enough. That day draws closer all the time. I already have myself a plan, it's just a matter of when. When I finally say I can't do this anymore, when I finally grab those pills. I long for that day when I finally throw all this crap away and end it all. I've come so close so many times but I'm not quite ready yet. But soon, so soon I will be.
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