Submissions by XxmagickgirlxX
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
SELF POEM
Published
13th Mar 2021 4:15am
13th Mar 2021 4:15am
Fixing Me
I am self destructive, an attention whore, a terrible person all around, and I feel more guilty than ever. I have gone and ruined the most important person I put into my life. I ruined my marriage, and my father would be more than disappointed in me. I only wish it wouldn't have taken this long for me to truely comprehend that. I deserve every terrible thing that is to come my way from all the self destruction. I, like many people, wait until things are finally exactly how I wanted then and then subconscious I think it's too good. Then I manage to find whatever temptation will ruin everything...
#regret
#hate
#grief
#ImSorry
#SelfReflection
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LOVE POEM
Published
25th Aug 2020 10:58pm
25th Aug 2020 10:58pm
Dear D five
I drempt of you. You begged me to come home to you, to forget about him, to go back to how things used to be. You kissed me with such passion. I awake to an empty bed. I can still feel you head in my hands, the way your hair feels running through my fingers, the way my body molds perfectly to you. I can still feel the pain of the heart break. The tears rumble through me like a small tropical storm. My bones feel heavy like I just swam across an ocean to get here, and maybe I did. Maybe my ocrean is this seemingly never ending sea of sadness, who's depths are still unknown along with what...
#sadness
#loneliness
#heartbroken
#despair
#emptiness
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LOVE POEM
Published
11th Jun 2020 5:00am
11th Jun 2020 5:00am
Dear D four
I'm thinking of you tonight... I wonder if you can feel it. I don't make a habit of this, thinking of you. I am a married woman now after all, but for some reason those piercing ice blue eyes fill my thoughts and you begin to haunt me once more. I miss you. It's not even so much the sexual portion of things but the relationship that we had with each other. We had something I have no comparison to. I loved you... I still do in some way I think. I loved you on a level I never would have thought possible without you. I need to let you go and here I am crying over you once more, feeling the true...
#sadness
#love
#regret #grief
#regret #grief
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LOVE POEM
Published
16th Sep 2019 6:25am
16th Sep 2019 6:25am
See you again
I saw you...and them. My heart beat out of my chest when I realized. But it couldn't be....could it? Why were you there? Your not supposed to be anywhere near there. I hid from you... Did you even notice it was me? Or am I too different now? I know they didn't see me...they would have said something. It only would have made it worse. I miss them...for a long while they were my only reason to continue on, I loved them so much. They got so big I can't believe it. The last time I saw you you were laughing in my face. You undeniably broke me, I absolutely lost myself in you. I wanted so badly for...
#heartbroken
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NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
23rd Aug 2019 12:51pm
23rd Aug 2019 12:51pm
Dear D Three
We tried. i think i fell out of love with you sometime in the last year we spent apart. I know i promised i wouldent leave you for him and im sorry i broke my promise. i left everyone behind for this. my mother disowned me, my dads dead, and all my friends loved you but hate him. i even gave up my best friend because of this. i hope this is it, i dont want to start over again.
#heartbroken
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SELF POEM
Published
23rd Aug 2019 12:21pm
23rd Aug 2019 12:21pm
Forevermore
I have done very bad things to you. I hurt you. I wish I hadn't. I want to take these things back, but no matter how hard I wish, it can't be done. I ruined everything I had been working to get back. I know now more than ever, that I am the only true cause for everything that has happened to me in my life. I have made it so much harder than the way it was supposed to be. And now...now that I know this I should be able to stop...but I can't. I have known for much longer than I want to admit that I ruin everything good in my life. I know that it is only because I crave the attention. I can't...
#emptiness
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DARK POEM
Published
27th Dec 2017 6:54pm
27th Dec 2017 6:54pm
Hard
My troubles boil over as they spill across this page.
My darkness fills the room, and I try to run away.
It consumes and steals my soul into this unforgiving place,
Where demons play and angels hide, my soul just seems to stay.
I loved myself at one point, but it seems that is no more.
This place, it holds a shadow that draws you in for sure.
light is nowhere here, for none will ever be found
your breathe begins to quicken as you writhe upon the ground.
But do not fear here child, this pain could never last
And if you find an exit, you better make...
My darkness fills the room, and I try to run away.
It consumes and steals my soul into this unforgiving place,
Where demons play and angels hide, my soul just seems to stay.
I loved myself at one point, but it seems that is no more.
This place, it holds a shadow that draws you in for sure.
light is nowhere here, for none will ever be found
your breathe begins to quicken as you writhe upon the ground.
But do not fear here child, this pain could never last
And if you find an exit, you better make...
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NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
29th Apr 2017 2:15am
29th Apr 2017 2:15am
Always
So much to say not enough space to write it. So lost in myself its unreal.
Always wishing for more.
Sometimes I dream far away from my own life. I am much happier there, in my dreams.
Always hoping there's more.
He loves me, he loves me not. Do I even care anymore? Do I really want this for myself?
Always wanting the best
Sometimes nothing seems worth it. Sometimes I wish I could take back alot of the things I have said and done.
Always having less
This one then the next, will I ever be happy with the same person?
Always needing change
Always...
Always wishing for more.
Sometimes I dream far away from my own life. I am much happier there, in my dreams.
Always hoping there's more.
He loves me, he loves me not. Do I even care anymore? Do I really want this for myself?
Always wanting the best
Sometimes nothing seems worth it. Sometimes I wish I could take back alot of the things I have said and done.
Always having less
This one then the next, will I ever be happy with the same person?
Always needing change
Always...
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LOVE POEM
Published
12th Sep 2016 9:02pm
12th Sep 2016 9:02pm
Dear D two
Dear D
we connected again, much shorter this time, maybe that's a good thing. it hurts less, i would say its because I'm so far away this time but i was far away last time too. I have finally started to love you less, or maybe i never did and I'm just forgetting you exist just like you did me. She means more to you and that's fine, i said my goodbyes to you both. you hurt but she was much much worse. she has been around much longer and i know that her behavior has nothing to do with what you have done, she was always like that, it just took her messing with you to finally have enough of...
we connected again, much shorter this time, maybe that's a good thing. it hurts less, i would say its because I'm so far away this time but i was far away last time too. I have finally started to love you less, or maybe i never did and I'm just forgetting you exist just like you did me. She means more to you and that's fine, i said my goodbyes to you both. you hurt but she was much much worse. she has been around much longer and i know that her behavior has nothing to do with what you have done, she was always like that, it just took her messing with you to finally have enough of...
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DARK POEM
Published
31st Aug 2016 6:51pm
31st Aug 2016 6:51pm
Playing Games
I'm stuck again. Why should it even suprise anymore. I'm always falling behind. I'm not sure if i can do all of this. Its so much harder than it looks, In the end I will still have him and I know that but still. I can never seem to pick just one. Why do I always crave attention like I do? It hurts the one I think I love. Do I relly love them if I seek attention like I do? Will I ever break the habit if I do love him? I don't want to break his heart, I fear more than anything that I will. Why do i always do things like this? Maybe I'm better off on my own, alone like i should be. I hate the...
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LOVE POEM
Published
18th Feb 2016 10:29am
18th Feb 2016 10:29am
Dear D
Dear D,
T has finally left...but so did you.
There is so much I should have said while I had the chance. I fell in love with you....I know I wasn't supposed to do that. You fell too, I saw it, I knew. But with that being said neither party's would have admitted it. I never expected you to mean this much to me, or that it would hurt this bad when you left. 6 months.....6 months with you and I almost felt human again. I havent seen you in almost two months now.... I miss you, i wish my best friend would come back, i dont care if you love me or not anymore.
T was too much, he...
T has finally left...but so did you.
There is so much I should have said while I had the chance. I fell in love with you....I know I wasn't supposed to do that. You fell too, I saw it, I knew. But with that being said neither party's would have admitted it. I never expected you to mean this much to me, or that it would hurt this bad when you left. 6 months.....6 months with you and I almost felt human again. I havent seen you in almost two months now.... I miss you, i wish my best friend would come back, i dont care if you love me or not anymore.
T was too much, he...
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DARK POEM
Published
19th Feb 2015 6:55pm
19th Feb 2015 6:55pm
Psych Ward
You did this to yourself you know. It rely is your own fault. But don't worry now child your only crazy i promise, don't let it go to your head now. Let yourself break, let them break you down to rock bottom, your not there yet hun. you will be soon. They are there to "help" you darling. Not so strong now are you? remember your sanity little one cuz there is nothing of it left. nobody cares anymore just like you never did.
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