Submissions by VicBathurst (VictoriaAlice)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
DRUGS POEM
Published
30th Apr 2014 1:17am
30th Apr 2014 1:17am
Alcoholism
I grew up in awe of alcohol
I saw bottles touch the lips of my father more times than my lips had touched his
Confusion grew to be me;
I was never sure if the alcohol would make him joyful or livid
Because I saw him drink at funerals and at weddings
When I was 11 I came to the conclusion that he drank to feel
My big brother began drinking secretly
He lived in fear that my father might notice a missing bottle
When he began openly drinking
My family saw him as grown up
And somehow older
He drank for confidence
But I have seen him stumble...
I saw bottles touch the lips of my father more times than my lips had touched his
Confusion grew to be me;
I was never sure if the alcohol would make him joyful or livid
Because I saw him drink at funerals and at weddings
When I was 11 I came to the conclusion that he drank to feel
My big brother began drinking secretly
He lived in fear that my father might notice a missing bottle
When he began openly drinking
My family saw him as grown up
And somehow older
He drank for confidence
But I have seen him stumble...
804 reads
2 Comments
DRUGS POEM
Published
21st Apr 2014 2:09am
21st Apr 2014 2:09am
Death Is On My Mind
Death is a frequent thought that passes through my mind
Like wind shaking a tree, it rattles through my being
When I do think of it,
It's not always the dark moments when the world is coated in black
And my mind is too fragile to do anything but sleep,
no
It's not only in those moment
Sometimes when I'm in a car
Looking out the window watching the world pass by
Or late at night
When I'm trying to convince my brain to go to sleep
As I wrap myself tightly in the covers
There's only one moment
That I remember clearly
That I did...
Like wind shaking a tree, it rattles through my being
When I do think of it,
It's not always the dark moments when the world is coated in black
And my mind is too fragile to do anything but sleep,
no
It's not only in those moment
Sometimes when I'm in a car
Looking out the window watching the world pass by
Or late at night
When I'm trying to convince my brain to go to sleep
As I wrap myself tightly in the covers
There's only one moment
That I remember clearly
That I did...
908 reads
2 Comments
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
21st Apr 2014 1:38am
21st Apr 2014 1:38am
You're A Flower
A flower spends a lot of time in the dirt
Waiting to peek from the soil to see the sunlight
Once it does
Everyone can enjoy their colour
It adds some life to the most abandoned houses
I often think of you as a flower
You spent so much time shying away from everyone
You don't realize how much of you there is to enjoy
You deprive everyone of your beautiful soul
You need to remember
That flowers are never judged on their colour
Or size
You need to allow yourself to break free from the soil
And breathe the fresh air
And feel...
Waiting to peek from the soil to see the sunlight
Once it does
Everyone can enjoy their colour
It adds some life to the most abandoned houses
I often think of you as a flower
You spent so much time shying away from everyone
You don't realize how much of you there is to enjoy
You deprive everyone of your beautiful soul
You need to remember
That flowers are never judged on their colour
Or size
You need to allow yourself to break free from the soil
And breathe the fresh air
And feel...
883 reads
3 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
9th Apr 2014 1:18am
9th Apr 2014 1:18am
No Dancing Soul
Your voice
Echoes through my skull
As you enter the dark cave of my mind
You passed the caution tape and warning signs
While you searched for light within me
Your hands
Once spent countless nights exploring my body
Like a traveller and a map
Never quite satisfied with the treasure
Always wondering if there was more
You were always searching
For a girl with a soul that danced through life
You wanted her tip toeing through puddles
And flying over mountains
You won't find her here
You can't mend together my sanity...
Echoes through my skull
As you enter the dark cave of my mind
You passed the caution tape and warning signs
While you searched for light within me
Your hands
Once spent countless nights exploring my body
Like a traveller and a map
Never quite satisfied with the treasure
Always wondering if there was more
You were always searching
For a girl with a soul that danced through life
You wanted her tip toeing through puddles
And flying over mountains
You won't find her here
You can't mend together my sanity...
675 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
6th Mar 2014 2:03am
6th Mar 2014 2:03am
The Damage You've Left Me With
Your words are loaded
With promises and kind words
Then when something goes wrong
The gun goes off
With no trace of you to be found
Im tired of picking the bullets from my chest
Im done listening to the door creak open and close
From each time you choose to come back in my life
You told me you'd catch me when I fell
Well I fell 20 stories high
And hit the ground
While you stared with amused eyes
You've left me abandoned
Ears filled with lies
A heart crowded with bullets
And a damaged soul
I didn't know it...
With promises and kind words
Then when something goes wrong
The gun goes off
With no trace of you to be found
Im tired of picking the bullets from my chest
Im done listening to the door creak open and close
From each time you choose to come back in my life
You told me you'd catch me when I fell
Well I fell 20 stories high
And hit the ground
While you stared with amused eyes
You've left me abandoned
Ears filled with lies
A heart crowded with bullets
And a damaged soul
I didn't know it...
713 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
5th Mar 2014 1:12am
5th Mar 2014 1:12am
My Crooked Smile
You foolish boy
With a kind smile
And a rhythm to your walk
You with the caring eyes
That look through damaged souls
And try to understand them
You couldn't possibly fall for me
That light you thought you saw
Glimmering from from my eyes
Is actually a warning call
You see my soul is aged and worn down
From nights spent in a bottle
And days spent hiding from the sun
My heart is an abandoned highway
Worn down from people neglecting it
No cars dare to come near
Silly boy
You think you can pry the...
With a kind smile
And a rhythm to your walk
You with the caring eyes
That look through damaged souls
And try to understand them
You couldn't possibly fall for me
That light you thought you saw
Glimmering from from my eyes
Is actually a warning call
You see my soul is aged and worn down
From nights spent in a bottle
And days spent hiding from the sun
My heart is an abandoned highway
Worn down from people neglecting it
No cars dare to come near
Silly boy
You think you can pry the...
755 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
4th Mar 2014 1:53am
4th Mar 2014 1:53am
Tears Lost, Tears Gained
Tears flow from my eyes
Like a river overrun after a rainfall
My mind floating away
With no end in sight
A river never really ends
It flourishes with each drip released into it
And narrows with each ray of sunshine absorbing it
Even when the last drip is absorbed
There is still a path left in the earth
Reminding the sun that there is nothing left to take
And leaving the rain with no where to thrive
Like a river overrun after a rainfall
My mind floating away
With no end in sight
A river never really ends
It flourishes with each drip released into it
And narrows with each ray of sunshine absorbing it
Even when the last drip is absorbed
There is still a path left in the earth
Reminding the sun that there is nothing left to take
And leaving the rain with no where to thrive
595 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
13th Feb 2014 00:54am
13th Feb 2014 00:54am
Sing To Me
Sing me your lullaby
Soft and slow
Let your words be the window
Inside of your mind
Where your fantasies and dreams float freely
Sing me your pain
Sing to me the days it rains
Inside of you
Sing to me the hopelessness and the dread
Sing me the melody
Of your childhood
Where wide eyes stared too long
And hearts swallowed people whole
Sing me your lullaby
Soft and slow
Let your words be the window
Inside of your mind
Where your fantasies and dreams float freely
Sing me your pain
Sing to me the days it rains
Inside of you
Sing to me the hopelessness and the dread
Sing me the melody
Of your childhood
Where wide eyes stared too long
And hearts swallowed people whole
Sing me your lullaby
672 reads
4 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
10th Feb 2014 5:34pm
10th Feb 2014 5:34pm
Freedom Of Insanity
Such hasty words
That you spit like vile
From your painted lips
Using them as a shield
In this war you've created
Back and fourth in your own mind
The white flag is carried
In desperate hopes of ending this life long battle
But it is not until you cave in
And accept your insanity
That you will be set free
That you spit like vile
From your painted lips
Using them as a shield
In this war you've created
Back and fourth in your own mind
The white flag is carried
In desperate hopes of ending this life long battle
But it is not until you cave in
And accept your insanity
That you will be set free
547 reads
0 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
27th Jan 2014 1:03am
27th Jan 2014 1:03am
Eternal Sadness
Sometimes,
I feel a depression so deep
It feels as if these clouds will not fade
The energy I once possessed
Along with everything else
Drains
Like a river gone dry
Only to reveal the bottom
That's a solid blanket of mud and rocks
There's no simple fix
No sudden relief
There's no clear way to fixate happiness back into my veins
Whist extracting the sadness
I cannot rewire my brain to feel again
I walk through life like a blind man
Unable to feel anything
I could describe to you
The way my heart feels numb
and...
I feel a depression so deep
It feels as if these clouds will not fade
The energy I once possessed
Along with everything else
Drains
Like a river gone dry
Only to reveal the bottom
That's a solid blanket of mud and rocks
There's no simple fix
No sudden relief
There's no clear way to fixate happiness back into my veins
Whist extracting the sadness
I cannot rewire my brain to feel again
I walk through life like a blind man
Unable to feel anything
I could describe to you
The way my heart feels numb
and...
822 reads
4 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
16th Jan 2014 11:53pm
16th Jan 2014 11:53pm
In search of light
I remember the days
It felt as if a cloud was hovering over my head
Just to cast a shadow on my day
My days were predictable
They were all painted grey
Any source of light was soon dimmed
To an even shade of grey
The first time I met you
I realized
Your shade of grey was only slightly darker than mine
Soon enough
Our shadows combined
The clouds mended
And the devil in our mind united
Looking back
I realize
That the hovering cloud stayed with you
Along with everything else
While I left in search...
It felt as if a cloud was hovering over my head
Just to cast a shadow on my day
My days were predictable
They were all painted grey
Any source of light was soon dimmed
To an even shade of grey
The first time I met you
I realized
Your shade of grey was only slightly darker than mine
Soon enough
Our shadows combined
The clouds mended
And the devil in our mind united
Looking back
I realize
That the hovering cloud stayed with you
Along with everything else
While I left in search...
564 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
16th Jan 2014 3:59am
16th Jan 2014 3:59am
An Addiction Of a Strange Sort
I have an addiction of a strange sort
It pulls me in by the waist
Leaving handprints on my hips
It leaves it's sweet hot breath on my throat
And shivers beginning from my collar bone
Down to my toes
I have an addiction of a strange sort
And I can't seem to shake it free
It pulls me in by the waist
Leaving handprints on my hips
It leaves it's sweet hot breath on my throat
And shivers beginning from my collar bone
Down to my toes
I have an addiction of a strange sort
And I can't seem to shake it free
635 reads
3 Comments
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