Submissions by Utesch

In a psychological tailspin --  Came to me half opened yet half closed.
Needing to be loved,
                                       Yet wanting to be hated.
A sadist and a masochist depending on the flip of the coin.
You are very much insane but not without good reason,
A vicious cycle of self-criticism, self-consciousness, and panic.
    Why is it I am worried you will leave?
      Why is it I am always self aware?
        Why is it that I am so used to this dynamic
                                     and then the panic comes ..
I am...