Submissions by Unredeemed (Vickie)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
12th Nov 2019 6:20am
12th Nov 2019 6:20am
What hurts more?
There is a song I listen to from time to time. Its hook line says "can you tell me what hurts more, is it remembering or forgetting?"
I've thought about that question a lot lately. I don't know who wrote the song, or what they were remembering and forgetting but I understand the complexity of the question.
The pain of remembering is sharp, deep, and sudden. Old wounds can fillet open with just one thought, and I am back in a battle that I'm not sure I'll survive. As one thought leads to another, the dam breaks, and I begin to drown in the blood of invisible injuries that...
I've thought about that question a lot lately. I don't know who wrote the song, or what they were remembering and forgetting but I understand the complexity of the question.
The pain of remembering is sharp, deep, and sudden. Old wounds can fillet open with just one thought, and I am back in a battle that I'm not sure I'll survive. As one thought leads to another, the dam breaks, and I begin to drown in the blood of invisible injuries that...
#TruthOfLife
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NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
11th Nov 2019 2:17pm
11th Nov 2019 2:17pm
Justin Dakota Wright
What this loss feels like:
A punch in the gut, the kind that takes the wind out of you. A sate of confusion and disbelief. Moments of panic, and then complete dread. A whole day of avoiding conversations, and eye contact for fear of breaking down. Two sleepless nights and counting. A broken heart and a new reality.
What I took for granted:
That this could ever happen. The life of someone I love. Keepsakes and memories, I could have cherished forever. The smile and charm of a young man who had more potential then he ever knew.
Things I now regret: ...
A punch in the gut, the kind that takes the wind out of you. A sate of confusion and disbelief. Moments of panic, and then complete dread. A whole day of avoiding conversations, and eye contact for fear of breaking down. Two sleepless nights and counting. A broken heart and a new reality.
What I took for granted:
That this could ever happen. The life of someone I love. Keepsakes and memories, I could have cherished forever. The smile and charm of a young man who had more potential then he ever knew.
Things I now regret: ...
#heartbroken
#death
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SELF POEM
Published
11th Nov 2019 2:06pm
11th Nov 2019 2:06pm
If I'm being honest...
The waves of your love are too unsteady.
I don't know how to take it.
Should we just go back to what it was?
No. But this isn't working either.
You can't just use me how you want.
And I thought when you knew how fragile I was, it would change.
People don't change, I haven't changed, and I cant expect you to...
But THIS has to change, cause I don't want to do THIS anymore.
So, you can be you, and I can be me and we can stop pretending.
I don't want a relationship on your terms.
It has...
I don't know how to take it.
Should we just go back to what it was?
No. But this isn't working either.
You can't just use me how you want.
And I thought when you knew how fragile I was, it would change.
People don't change, I haven't changed, and I cant expect you to...
But THIS has to change, cause I don't want to do THIS anymore.
So, you can be you, and I can be me and we can stop pretending.
I don't want a relationship on your terms.
It has...
#relationships
#honesty
446 reads
6 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
8th Nov 2019 1:08am
8th Nov 2019 1:08am
Pretence
Still waters,
only surface deep
waging wars,
beneath a placid sea
Rythmatic waves
pull you off your feet
the rip tides sway
in summer waters heat
only surface deep
waging wars,
beneath a placid sea
Rythmatic waves
pull you off your feet
the rip tides sway
in summer waters heat
#war
#myself
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DARK POEM
Published
5th Nov 2019 10:23pm
5th Nov 2019 10:23pm
Cycle; unravel
Hiding behind temporary satisfaction
I can forget
It feels better...
Ssh, I dont want to hear it
I dont want to think it...
There it is again
Pressing
Chasinging
Eating
I know, I can
Pull my eyes out from the sockets
Now I cant see it
Blind to it
Rip the tongue from my skull
Now I cant speak it
No bitter tastes
Blow my ear drums
Now I cant hear it...
Yes I can...
Reach into my chest and squeeze my heart
Feel it stop
Blood pouring down my...
I can forget
It feels better...
Ssh, I dont want to hear it
I dont want to think it...
There it is again
Pressing
Chasinging
Eating
I know, I can
Pull my eyes out from the sockets
Now I cant see it
Blind to it
Rip the tongue from my skull
Now I cant speak it
No bitter tastes
Blow my ear drums
Now I cant hear it...
Yes I can...
Reach into my chest and squeeze my heart
Feel it stop
Blood pouring down my...
#hate
#suicide
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SELF POEM
Published
4th Nov 2019 2:13pm
4th Nov 2019 2:13pm
Facts
1) My spirit is alive, but my soul needs reviving.
2)I'd wear my heart on my sleeve except I don't always have one.
3)You could cross me multiple times and if I liked you before I would probably still like you after.
4) I like to live in the moment, but I can never spare one.
5) When you let me know that it's over, I will always be done.
6) Sometimes I read between the lines and neglect what's actually spelled out.
7) I only tell my secrets to those that can't hurt me.
8) Some of the people I like the most, don't...
2)I'd wear my heart on my sleeve except I don't always have one.
3)You could cross me multiple times and if I liked you before I would probably still like you after.
4) I like to live in the moment, but I can never spare one.
5) When you let me know that it's over, I will always be done.
6) Sometimes I read between the lines and neglect what's actually spelled out.
7) I only tell my secrets to those that can't hurt me.
8) Some of the people I like the most, don't...
#honesty
350 reads
2 Comments
UPBEAT INSPIRATIONAL POEM
Published
3rd Nov 2019 1:15am
3rd Nov 2019 1:15am
Leafs
Faded vibrant life into deathly autumn hues
Fragile
Ridged
And richly unrefined
Clings desperate for life now over
Delicate
Brittle
And lost to endless time
Summers' secret whispered into winds
Euphonious
Crescendoed
And fleeting by design
Gravity tugs so gentle
Drifts
Cascades
And renews life undefined
Fragile
Ridged
And richly unrefined
Clings desperate for life now over
Delicate
Brittle
And lost to endless time
Summers' secret whispered into winds
Euphonious
Crescendoed
And fleeting by design
Gravity tugs so gentle
Drifts
Cascades
And renews life undefined
#nature
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SPIRITUAL POEM
Published
2nd Nov 2019 6:16pm
2nd Nov 2019 6:16pm
Resuscitation
I am dead inside.
Hold a mirror to my nose, and catch no breath. And I've felt the chest compressions of a hundred prayers, but I cant feel my own heart beating.
Hold my wrist and feel no pulse. And I can hear the whispers of my spirit pleading for me to move, but I cant budge a single tendon.
Put me on life support and hold on to the me you used to know. And I can read your thoughts like books of my old dreams, but I gave up those ashes like an offering. Promised beauty but molded into an urn.
I am dead inside.
Hold a mirror to my nose, and catch no breath. And I've felt the chest compressions of a hundred prayers, but I cant feel my own heart beating.
Hold my wrist and feel no pulse. And I can hear the whispers of my spirit pleading for me to move, but I cant budge a single tendon.
Put me on life support and hold on to the me you used to know. And I can read your thoughts like books of my old dreams, but I gave up those ashes like an offering. Promised beauty but molded into an urn.
I am dead inside.
#spiritual
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LOVE POEM
Published
2nd Nov 2019 4:15pm
2nd Nov 2019 4:15pm
Created pain
You are the wound I won't let heal and the ache I need to feel.
You’re like the bruise I alway press and the cut I will not dress.
You are everything that is wrong. I've had this feeling for so long.
You torture me and I don't want to be free...
You’re like the bruise I alway press and the cut I will not dress.
You are everything that is wrong. I've had this feeling for so long.
You torture me and I don't want to be free...
#crush
390 reads
6 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
2nd Nov 2019 1:51am
2nd Nov 2019 1:51am
Ventured but nothing gained
I waited too long to hear your response...
You never did answer me,
and in those moments your silence said more than your words ever did.
I get it now.
It was like the whole time that Ive known you I've been treding in the ocean of all the words you've never said.
I thought you were quiet, but you just had nothing to say.
You and me,
no we are not the same,
not even close.
You are an ivory tower I can never climb.
In all your beautiful exterior Ive never once made it past your gates.
I'm a commoner...
You never did answer me,
and in those moments your silence said more than your words ever did.
I get it now.
It was like the whole time that Ive known you I've been treding in the ocean of all the words you've never said.
I thought you were quiet, but you just had nothing to say.
You and me,
no we are not the same,
not even close.
You are an ivory tower I can never climb.
In all your beautiful exterior Ive never once made it past your gates.
I'm a commoner...
#regret
#confusion
#ignorance
#disappointment
#hurt
370 reads
3 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
2nd Nov 2019 1:01am
2nd Nov 2019 1:01am
The sway of being broken
Believe it or not I’ve got a lot,
A lot of guilt a lot of shame
A lot of time I’ve spent in vain
I’m terrified that I cant stop
Stop the aching or heart breaking
Stop the misery I’m making
And I’m tired of all the hiding
Hiding secrets, and my weakness
Hiding all the damning bleakness
Cause I know one day I’ll be caught
Caught feeling no atonement, myself my opponent
Caught stealing my last moment.
A lot of guilt a lot of shame
A lot of time I’ve spent in vain
I’m terrified that I cant stop
Stop the aching or heart breaking
Stop the misery I’m making
And I’m tired of all the hiding
Hiding secrets, and my weakness
Hiding all the damning bleakness
Cause I know one day I’ll be caught
Caught feeling no atonement, myself my opponent
Caught stealing my last moment.
#despair
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SELF POEM
Published
1st Nov 2019 3:05pm
1st Nov 2019 3:05pm
Not yet
If I dont think about it, then I won't have to deal.
If I can wait until tomorrow, then tonight I wouldn't feel.
And if I wanted to be numb I'd just take a fucking pill.
Cause if my heart cant touch the sorrow, then maybe it's not real.
If I can wait until tomorrow, then tonight I wouldn't feel.
And if I wanted to be numb I'd just take a fucking pill.
Cause if my heart cant touch the sorrow, then maybe it's not real.
#grief
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DU Poetry : Submissions by Unredeemed (Vickie)
