Submissions by Sweet-Dee

Walking down the street one day I realize i've left my wallet and keys back in my apartment,
I think so what it's just a small mistake,
I can just turn around quick and get them,
I'll try harder next time,

But then I remember all the conversations i've had,
And all the ones i've forgotten that were brought up again,
I swear I was listening it was just one small mistake,
I'll try harder next time,

And all the times i've slaved away at hours of homework,
Only to leave it sitting on my desk,
And my professors think I need to apply...

1 hour
60 minutes
3600 seconds and they give up,
They've done all they can do and all of the pain, love, sorrow, and joy you've ever experienced is gone,
It's irrelevant
You think about that ugly yellow sweater you cursed yourself for wearing when you were 5 and laugh about how fragile life is as you look down at yourself sprawled out naked and vulnerable on a table crowded by complete strangers,
Just one last contraction of a few muscle fibers and every tear you've ever cried, every laugh you've ever shared, and every time you've lied awake at night pondering...

I fall in love with strangers on buses and busy streets,
But those strangers all have evil and greedy eyes,
I think if I moan loud enough during sex somehow it will make them love me too,
But why would I want evil to love me when behind my eyes is only pain and loneliness

I’m a high-tide,
Crashing and flooding the lives of those around me with seaweed and empty bottles,
I crave love but also chase it away with every breath,
And those breaths sometimes feel like trying to push against a locked door,
It’s as if my body knows to what to do but my mind says stop and those waves don’t stop,

The current pulls me farther and farther back with every step I try to take,
I try to come up for air but am only met with criticism from the waves for not fucking trying hard enough,
I try, I try, I try but only when I die will I...