Submissions by ShaienneMachale (Ladazia Jackson)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
Dark poetry and Erotic Poetry is my forte. It's what I find comfort in. They seem to be my specialty.
SELF POEM
Published
4th May 2017 7:55pm
4th May 2017 7:55pm
#blessup
It's time for me to return home
The place they say we all came from
I wonder if it really exists
Or if it's just some magical myth
I wish I'd never opened up
Now it seems that life's too rough
I don't know who asked for me
But my life feels like a tragedy
God, can you grant me these few things
And I promise I'll go without much fuss
Shelter the world with only kindness
Shower the world with all my love
Give my mother the power to grow
I love her more than she'll ever know
I really tried, but I have to go
Soon my life...
The place they say we all came from
I wonder if it really exists
Or if it's just some magical myth
I wish I'd never opened up
Now it seems that life's too rough
I don't know who asked for me
But my life feels like a tragedy
God, can you grant me these few things
And I promise I'll go without much fuss
Shelter the world with only kindness
Shower the world with all my love
Give my mother the power to grow
I love her more than she'll ever know
I really tried, but I have to go
Soon my life...
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ANGER POEM
Published
27th Apr 2017 2:33pm
27th Apr 2017 2:33pm
Salutations
It's done
You've won
Her innocence is gone
You stripped her down to nothingness
I damn sure hope you're proud of it
Your lethal love struck her down hard
Reduce her down to near retard
With which I mean nary offense
Just that you diluted her common sense
...how could you?
How could you lie in place of love?
Disguised as a blessing sent from up above
And then to happily fuck her over
You're something like a murderer
But yet, you've got the nerve to cry
And everybody's wondering why
You tormented her heart while she...
You've won
Her innocence is gone
You stripped her down to nothingness
I damn sure hope you're proud of it
Your lethal love struck her down hard
Reduce her down to near retard
With which I mean nary offense
Just that you diluted her common sense
...how could you?
How could you lie in place of love?
Disguised as a blessing sent from up above
And then to happily fuck her over
You're something like a murderer
But yet, you've got the nerve to cry
And everybody's wondering why
You tormented her heart while she...
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SELF POEM
Published
17th Mar 2017 1:37am
17th Mar 2017 1:37am
Worthless Girl
She was a worthless girl
In a lonely world
With her head always hanging low
She was full of self doubt
Her face always held a frown
How long she would stay alive, she didn't know
Noone ever stared
Nobody ever cared
The world let her fade away
She blends back into the mob
Bites back painful sobs
Just until the end of the day
....then her tears, she lets them run astray
"Why do you cry?"
"Why even try?"
So back and forth in her own head
"This is no kind of life"
"Time to say goodbye"
But she can't seem to...
In a lonely world
With her head always hanging low
She was full of self doubt
Her face always held a frown
How long she would stay alive, she didn't know
Noone ever stared
Nobody ever cared
The world let her fade away
She blends back into the mob
Bites back painful sobs
Just until the end of the day
....then her tears, she lets them run astray
"Why do you cry?"
"Why even try?"
So back and forth in her own head
"This is no kind of life"
"Time to say goodbye"
But she can't seem to...
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ANGER POEM
Published
25th Feb 2017 4:17am
25th Feb 2017 4:17am
Hey... It's Been A While
Love? Respect?
I know not of these things
Because in my head that means
I demean and abuse my own heart
My own mind
Yet I fight for the right for all to choose
I still lose in the forsaken game of unintentional polygamy
It's killing me
I'm a shattered soul, my pain is untold
I want to be the woman you crave
The only one you come to love
I'm so far gone
So fucking done with sharing
Thought I could wait but the hurt is uncaring for time
I'm sure you've noticed I always force a rhyme
Its the way words flow...
I know not of these things
Because in my head that means
I demean and abuse my own heart
My own mind
Yet I fight for the right for all to choose
I still lose in the forsaken game of unintentional polygamy
It's killing me
I'm a shattered soul, my pain is untold
I want to be the woman you crave
The only one you come to love
I'm so far gone
So fucking done with sharing
Thought I could wait but the hurt is uncaring for time
I'm sure you've noticed I always force a rhyme
Its the way words flow...
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ANGER POEM
Published
14th Nov 2016 6:34am
14th Nov 2016 6:34am
You Putrid Coward
Am I pissed?
You're goddamned right
The pain inside
Keeps me up each night
While I hold myself
Trying not to cut
You lay with him
All cuddled up
Call yourself my protector
Hilarious
Constantly you choose him
Over us
I lost your loyalty
Years ago
And you pretend
Not to let it show
Blame the liquor
Blame the drugs
I don't give a damn
What it was
You don't get another
Chance from me
You lost the opportunity
Don't be suprised the day I leave
To never again hear from me
No rebellion
No...
You're goddamned right
The pain inside
Keeps me up each night
While I hold myself
Trying not to cut
You lay with him
All cuddled up
Call yourself my protector
Hilarious
Constantly you choose him
Over us
I lost your loyalty
Years ago
And you pretend
Not to let it show
Blame the liquor
Blame the drugs
I don't give a damn
What it was
You don't get another
Chance from me
You lost the opportunity
Don't be suprised the day I leave
To never again hear from me
No rebellion
No...
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DARK POEM
Published
17th Aug 2016 1:49am
17th Aug 2016 1:49am
Her Insides Scream for Suicide
Breathe in. Breathe out.
Its almost over now
Promise not to scream or shout
Dont let this be a painful drown
Shut your eyes, feel the rain
Soon you'll be free of any pain
Applause thus far for staying sane
But here is where you won't remain
Shed your tears, its alright to feel fear
You're leaving behind those most dear
But one day they'll forget that you're not here
They'll go on with life, they won't even care
So baby girl, be brave, don't back out now
Tilt back your head, take those pills down
It's done my dear, look for the clouds ...
Its almost over now
Promise not to scream or shout
Dont let this be a painful drown
Shut your eyes, feel the rain
Soon you'll be free of any pain
Applause thus far for staying sane
But here is where you won't remain
Shed your tears, its alright to feel fear
You're leaving behind those most dear
But one day they'll forget that you're not here
They'll go on with life, they won't even care
So baby girl, be brave, don't back out now
Tilt back your head, take those pills down
It's done my dear, look for the clouds ...
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SELF POEM
Published
31st Jul 2016 7:09am
31st Jul 2016 7:09am
Hi.
Hi....
Remember me?
The girl that you made feel like your everything?
I've got alot of head problems, this may be a fact
But this was no surprise, darling you knew that
I'm a socially introverted nympho with BPD
With manic depression that some nights consume me
I've got multiple people screaming in my head
And not a day passes I dont wish I was dead
I scream for no reason, my anger unleashes
When I'm shown affection, I'm the equivalent to leeches
I can't differentiate between love and lust
And I'll spend my life accepting...
Remember me?
The girl that you made feel like your everything?
I've got alot of head problems, this may be a fact
But this was no surprise, darling you knew that
I'm a socially introverted nympho with BPD
With manic depression that some nights consume me
I've got multiple people screaming in my head
And not a day passes I dont wish I was dead
I scream for no reason, my anger unleashes
When I'm shown affection, I'm the equivalent to leeches
I can't differentiate between love and lust
And I'll spend my life accepting...
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
31st Jul 2016 6:57am
31st Jul 2016 6:57am
Sex is my Kryptonite
She's hurting
And she cant even explain why
The tears she cries after an intimate arrival
Are the reminder she'll never be loved
Not by the one she trusts
He compliments her body, her spirit, her mind
Everything but her beauty, something nobody can find
He cherishes her soul like the friend that he is
He'll never know the pain he's causing within
For when the time comes, and he can use the world
He'll forget all about this "special girl"
She'll be a thought forgotten, his mind only on sex
And who he can get into his bed next
And...
And she cant even explain why
The tears she cries after an intimate arrival
Are the reminder she'll never be loved
Not by the one she trusts
He compliments her body, her spirit, her mind
Everything but her beauty, something nobody can find
He cherishes her soul like the friend that he is
He'll never know the pain he's causing within
For when the time comes, and he can use the world
He'll forget all about this "special girl"
She'll be a thought forgotten, his mind only on sex
And who he can get into his bed next
And...
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DARK POEM
Published
12th Jul 2016 4:39pm
12th Jul 2016 4:39pm
She Longed for the Heaven Above
She was trapped in a forest of doubt
With a blind eye to her worth
She may as well have been without
She cried tears of hate as her wrist cries of crimson
The world destroyed a beautiful soul
Disrupted her child-like innocence
She crawled over to her bed, but lie still upon the floor
She didn't notice the weariness
It's never been there before
By now, her breathing has started to slow
But she feels sort of calm
Her inner demons have mellowed
As her eyes sort of sink, she glances at her ceiling
She finally knows whats happened
And she...
With a blind eye to her worth
She may as well have been without
She cried tears of hate as her wrist cries of crimson
The world destroyed a beautiful soul
Disrupted her child-like innocence
She crawled over to her bed, but lie still upon the floor
She didn't notice the weariness
It's never been there before
By now, her breathing has started to slow
But she feels sort of calm
Her inner demons have mellowed
As her eyes sort of sink, she glances at her ceiling
She finally knows whats happened
And she...
557 reads
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ANGER POEM
Published
23rd Jun 2016 5:36am
23rd Jun 2016 5:36am
Masochistic Masculinity
Im stricken with sickness when I hear your name
The picture of a monster enters my mental frame
The thought of your presence damn near drives me insane
My stomach is so full of knots
The bitter acid settles upon my tongue
I feel like my karma had finally begun
In the beginning you were my most beloved one
But somewhere thru the years, I forgot
Stay true to myself, I hate that I let you in
For you corrupted my mind, you stole my innocence
You played your mind games, I almost let you win
But now I have to dig deeper than deep
You broke down my...
The picture of a monster enters my mental frame
The thought of your presence damn near drives me insane
My stomach is so full of knots
The bitter acid settles upon my tongue
I feel like my karma had finally begun
In the beginning you were my most beloved one
But somewhere thru the years, I forgot
Stay true to myself, I hate that I let you in
For you corrupted my mind, you stole my innocence
You played your mind games, I almost let you win
But now I have to dig deeper than deep
You broke down my...
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OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
5th Jun 2016 7:12pm
5th Jun 2016 7:12pm
Before The Rainbow
The tender expression of depression lifting itself
Being caressed by the purity of the sky
It envelopes the body in an erotic manner
Bringing such comfort, one should never to ponder why
As the Earth sheds itself in the form of forceful droplets
Cleansing the streets of putrid disdain
You wonder how anyone would dare want to stop this
The thought seems damn near inhumane
The breaking and shaking of the world beneath us
Has you trembling in pleasure and fear
Makes you clench onto your bedspread
With every "CRACK" and "CRASH" you...
Being caressed by the purity of the sky
It envelopes the body in an erotic manner
Bringing such comfort, one should never to ponder why
As the Earth sheds itself in the form of forceful droplets
Cleansing the streets of putrid disdain
You wonder how anyone would dare want to stop this
The thought seems damn near inhumane
The breaking and shaking of the world beneath us
Has you trembling in pleasure and fear
Makes you clench onto your bedspread
With every "CRACK" and "CRASH" you...
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SELF POEM
Published
1st May 2016 3:12am
1st May 2016 3:12am
Eternal Eviction
I figured I could sit and talk to you both
Without any restraint or fears
No belittling stares or judgmental words
Just kind and consoling ears
So, hey pretty ladies
How's life up there?
Is paradise like they say it is?
Probably much better than down here
You know, I really need you both
I need you both right now
I feel the pain of your absence with every breath
And as every tear hits the ground
The 2 worst months of my existence
September and October are hell
But even as hard as it is down here
I really hope for you its been well...
Without any restraint or fears
No belittling stares or judgmental words
Just kind and consoling ears
So, hey pretty ladies
How's life up there?
Is paradise like they say it is?
Probably much better than down here
You know, I really need you both
I need you both right now
I feel the pain of your absence with every breath
And as every tear hits the ground
The 2 worst months of my existence
September and October are hell
But even as hard as it is down here
I really hope for you its been well...
487 reads
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