Hey... It's Been A While

Love? Respect?
I know not of these things
Because in my head that means
I demean and abuse my own heart
My own mind
Yet I fight for the right for all to choose
I still lose in the forsaken game of unintentional polygamy
It's killing me
I'm a shattered soul, my pain is untold
I want to be the woman you crave
The only one you come to love
I'm so far gone
So fucking done with sharing
Thought I could wait but the hurt is uncaring for time
I'm sure you've noticed I always force a rhyme
Its the way words flow from my brain
As I sit in my own sacred domain
The space I have saved, the one place I can hurt
Not be reminded that I lack worth in this world
That I'll never be anyone's dream girl
Pity party you say? Maybe so
But this is just a poem, so you'll never know