Submissions by Sexyseaschelle (Seaschelle_Fairy)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
Most of my stuff was written years ago altho i have gone back and re written many pieces i felt weren't that good and I've edited some but i have some recent ones also so i hope someone finds some enjoyment from some of my stuff. Happy everything
LOVE POEM
Published
5th Nov 2021 8:42am
5th Nov 2021 8:42am
All of Me..
Contemplating, so Frustrating.....
So much on my mind!
The battles fought, The love i've sought...
The Peace ive yet to find.
At any cost, i've loved and lost,
and it cuts me to the bone.
I miss my son, and when the day is done,
I feel so all alone.
I analyze, and compromise...
til i've often played the fool.
I take the blame, i hate this game.
I think life's much to cruel.
I try so hard to stay on guard..
time and time again.
I stand my ground, and i get knocked down,
and thats the way its always...
So much on my mind!
The battles fought, The love i've sought...
The Peace ive yet to find.
At any cost, i've loved and lost,
and it cuts me to the bone.
I miss my son, and when the day is done,
I feel so all alone.
I analyze, and compromise...
til i've often played the fool.
I take the blame, i hate this game.
I think life's much to cruel.
I try so hard to stay on guard..
time and time again.
I stand my ground, and i get knocked down,
and thats the way its always...
#anxiety
#hate
#loneliness #despair
#loneliness #despair
454 reads
3 Comments
DRUGS POEM
Published
5th Nov 2021 6:09am
5th Nov 2021 6:09am
Life in the fast lane
Life in the fast lane, with your foot on the gas.
No time to acknowledge, all the cars that you pass.
As you race toward the future, you break a few rules...
you learn LIFE IS A BITCH and that LOVE IS FOR FOOLS!
As your flying down highways til deep in the night,
or cruising the backroads where the traffic is light.
Sometimes someone's with you and sometimes your alone.
No time for distractions when your stuck in "the zone."
You seldom slow down to take in the scenes...
"gotta go," "in a hurry," you know what i mean?
Mother Natures a lover,...
No time to acknowledge, all the cars that you pass.
As you race toward the future, you break a few rules...
you learn LIFE IS A BITCH and that LOVE IS FOR FOOLS!
As your flying down highways til deep in the night,
or cruising the backroads where the traffic is light.
Sometimes someone's with you and sometimes your alone.
No time for distractions when your stuck in "the zone."
You seldom slow down to take in the scenes...
"gotta go," "in a hurry," you know what i mean?
Mother Natures a lover,...
#drugs
#addiction
686 reads
3 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
23rd Oct 2021 9:43am
23rd Oct 2021 9:43am
The Race !
Falling behind as I race to keep up,
Hoping and praying for just a little good luck.
In need of a shove just to get myself started ..
I lack motivation and im so broken hearted.
In confusion w shame ..I've no desire left to win . Left behind in the darkness. Not one single friend.
Started out fast, now its all in slow motion...
Trying so hard to stay focused amid all the commotion.
Forced to sit back and watch the world go around....
I choose to let go and I fall to the ground.
Knowing the source and the whole reason why...
I...
Hoping and praying for just a little good luck.
In need of a shove just to get myself started ..
I lack motivation and im so broken hearted.
In confusion w shame ..I've no desire left to win . Left behind in the darkness. Not one single friend.
Started out fast, now its all in slow motion...
Trying so hard to stay focused amid all the commotion.
Forced to sit back and watch the world go around....
I choose to let go and I fall to the ground.
Knowing the source and the whole reason why...
I...
#anxiety
#loneliness
#shame #despair
#shame #despair
383 reads
9 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
19th Oct 2021 9:40am
19th Oct 2021 9:40am
Rest in peace /chaos
Life goes on as time goes by ...
My heart is so broken, I just lay here and cry.
My mind is so mixed up and im going insane...
my hearts long been broken, im no stranger to pain.
Torn up on the inside, I miss you my friend. I go thru the motions but I mostly pretend.
I just don't understand it and it's not really fair. I reach out in the darkness but there's no body there.
Just blackness all around me and an emptiness so deep.
I toss and turn here in this bed but I can't go to sleep.
Nights are long and lonely and the days just fly...
My heart is so broken, I just lay here and cry.
My mind is so mixed up and im going insane...
my hearts long been broken, im no stranger to pain.
Torn up on the inside, I miss you my friend. I go thru the motions but I mostly pretend.
I just don't understand it and it's not really fair. I reach out in the darkness but there's no body there.
Just blackness all around me and an emptiness so deep.
I toss and turn here in this bed but I can't go to sleep.
Nights are long and lonely and the days just fly...
#sadness
#confusion
#despair
#emptiness
#bittersweet
432 reads
4 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
5th Oct 2021 11:56pm
5th Oct 2021 11:56pm
If id only known then ....
On bended knee, Dear God I pray ...
What happened to my yesterday ?
What was once the future is now long in the past.
Father time sneaks up on you and races by fast.
And day after day as the time passes by ,
Sometimes with no laughter or a moment to cry.
As tbe sun goes down, then here comes the dawn.
Days become years and to soon its all gone.
And we often don't see it until its too late.
All the moments we wasted so clueless to fate.
How blindly we wandered and to soon we lost track..
All the time that we lost and can never...
What happened to my yesterday ?
What was once the future is now long in the past.
Father time sneaks up on you and races by fast.
And day after day as the time passes by ,
Sometimes with no laughter or a moment to cry.
As tbe sun goes down, then here comes the dawn.
Days become years and to soon its all gone.
And we often don't see it until its too late.
All the moments we wasted so clueless to fate.
How blindly we wandered and to soon we lost track..
All the time that we lost and can never...
#regret
#frustration
#disappointment
299 reads
4 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
4th Oct 2021 12:21pm
4th Oct 2021 12:21pm
Inner anxiety
So mixed up, so messed up ,
So broken inside.
Existing , not living...
Like a part of me died.
Not sure where im going...
I don't like where I've been.
I can't chance it , too risky.
I can't do this again.
So shattered, so mangled..
So torn apart.
Yet still so full of love ..
Inside this broken heart.
Daydreams and memories,
Of a life full of hope .
Yet running on empty,
From a lifetime on dope.
Nights are so lonely,
And the days are so long.
Time isn't healing because
The pain...
So broken inside.
Existing , not living...
Like a part of me died.
Not sure where im going...
I don't like where I've been.
I can't chance it , too risky.
I can't do this again.
So shattered, so mangled..
So torn apart.
Yet still so full of love ..
Inside this broken heart.
Daydreams and memories,
Of a life full of hope .
Yet running on empty,
From a lifetime on dope.
Nights are so lonely,
And the days are so long.
Time isn't healing because
The pain...
#anxiety
#loneliness
#heartbroken #confusion
#heartbroken #confusion
332 reads
2 Comments
NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
27th Sep 2021 3:44pm
27th Sep 2021 3:44pm
To you... love me.
Im just sitting here alone with my thoughts. . And im thinking of you!
Remembering the sound of your voice.. your laugh. .
Wondering what your doing now.
The small place where you first touched my heart is no longer small.
I long so badly for you to touch me there. ... to feel my heart beat against yours.
The last time you touched me still lingers there .
I never knew it would be like this.
And lately I spend all my time just waiting....
My sin is I wonder if it was real or not .
Wondering did you even care?
Could my...
Remembering the sound of your voice.. your laugh. .
Wondering what your doing now.
The small place where you first touched my heart is no longer small.
I long so badly for you to touch me there. ... to feel my heart beat against yours.
The last time you touched me still lingers there .
I never knew it would be like this.
And lately I spend all my time just waiting....
My sin is I wonder if it was real or not .
Wondering did you even care?
Could my...
#love
#strength
#hope #emotions
#hope #emotions
354 reads
1 Comment
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
7th Sep 2021 10:25am
7th Sep 2021 10:25am
At war
Its a battle within me ...
Voices screaming out loud....
Surrounded by people
but all alone in a crowd.
Its a big tug of war
between my head and my heart ...
Can't get it together
without falling apart. .
The hearts the true champion
for so very long...
Love is a weakness...
love makes you strong.
Its a battle inside..
of the heart and the head..
Dreams that are withered..
Ambition that's dead.
Hope fills the shadows..
All dusty with doubt.
So much love on the inside..
Just dying...
Voices screaming out loud....
Surrounded by people
but all alone in a crowd.
Its a big tug of war
between my head and my heart ...
Can't get it together
without falling apart. .
The hearts the true champion
for so very long...
Love is a weakness...
love makes you strong.
Its a battle inside..
of the heart and the head..
Dreams that are withered..
Ambition that's dead.
Hope fills the shadows..
All dusty with doubt.
So much love on the inside..
Just dying...
#sadness
#loneliness
434 reads
3 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
7th Sep 2021 10:24am
7th Sep 2021 10:24am
Sleepless night
Surrounded here by darkness
As time passes deeper in the night.
Wide awake im tossing ...
Turning over left and right.
I knew that this would happen
As the night was closing in.
I climbed in bed at sunset..
Thinking " here i go again. "
And now I lay here in this bed
And all I feel is pain....
So many thought run thru my head
And it's driving me insane.
My battered heart so broken..
Weighs so heavy is my chest.
Each beat takes so much effort
That my spirit just won't rest.
Alas my life feels empty...
As time passes deeper in the night.
Wide awake im tossing ...
Turning over left and right.
I knew that this would happen
As the night was closing in.
I climbed in bed at sunset..
Thinking " here i go again. "
And now I lay here in this bed
And all I feel is pain....
So many thought run thru my head
And it's driving me insane.
My battered heart so broken..
Weighs so heavy is my chest.
Each beat takes so much effort
That my spirit just won't rest.
Alas my life feels empty...
#sadness
#anxiety
#insomnia
#frustration
#emptiness
351 reads
2 Comments
STORY POEM
Published
21st Apr 2021 9:32am
21st Apr 2021 9:32am
Unspoken emotions
If I could just find the words...
But im not very smart.
If I could get it together...
Before it all falls apart.
If you could just comprehend ...
But you just don't understand.
The depth of the love...
That I have here in demand.
If li could only believe....
That you mean what you say..
Then I could lose every doubt that i have here in play...
If. You could only just whisper what I need to hear ....or shout out that you love me without panic or fear !
If only youd hold me and take away all this pain. .
We...
But im not very smart.
If I could get it together...
Before it all falls apart.
If you could just comprehend ...
But you just don't understand.
The depth of the love...
That I have here in demand.
If li could only believe....
That you mean what you say..
Then I could lose every doubt that i have here in play...
If. You could only just whisper what I need to hear ....or shout out that you love me without panic or fear !
If only youd hold me and take away all this pain. .
We...
#emotions
315 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
25th Jan 2021 8:29am
25th Jan 2021 8:29am
Feelings
Tho left feeling messed up and misunderstood,..
Each effort, a failure, tho my intentions were good.
Torn up on the inside , where I'm riddled with pain ...
Such emotional baggage, slowly going insane.
I try to fight back the tears but they come flooding thru.
God what am I doing ?
I don't know what to do. .
All I know is I'm failing , and I can't do this no more.
I can't fight this battle , tho no stranger to war.
I gather my strength , tho I'm really so weak.
Alone in the solitude, tho its comfort I seek.
Forgive me Dear...
Each effort, a failure, tho my intentions were good.
Torn up on the inside , where I'm riddled with pain ...
Such emotional baggage, slowly going insane.
I try to fight back the tears but they come flooding thru.
God what am I doing ?
I don't know what to do. .
All I know is I'm failing , and I can't do this no more.
I can't fight this battle , tho no stranger to war.
I gather my strength , tho I'm really so weak.
Alone in the solitude, tho its comfort I seek.
Forgive me Dear...
#anxiety
#loneliness
#emptiness
354 reads
5 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
24th Jan 2021 11:43am
24th Jan 2021 11:43am
Why ?
Why on earth is this happening? Please God not again. ..
I keep playing this same game, and I know I can't win.
I'm so sad and so broken and so empty inside.
I dont know how to fix this,
Not with my wounded pride.
See I talk a good game , and i pretend I'm so tough .
But on the inside I'm fragile and man enough is enough.
Its past time to say fuck it ...
To get up and move on.
To let go of the dumb shit .
So this pain will be gone.
This isnt my first time.
It's for sure not my last.
I'm remembering the memories, ...
I keep playing this same game, and I know I can't win.
I'm so sad and so broken and so empty inside.
I dont know how to fix this,
Not with my wounded pride.
See I talk a good game , and i pretend I'm so tough .
But on the inside I'm fragile and man enough is enough.
Its past time to say fuck it ...
To get up and move on.
To let go of the dumb shit .
So this pain will be gone.
This isnt my first time.
It's for sure not my last.
I'm remembering the memories, ...
#rejection
#heartbroken
#despair #disappointment
#despair #disappointment
365 reads
8 Comments
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