Sleepless night

Surrounded here by darkness
As time passes deeper in the night.
Wide awake im tossing ...
Turning over left and right.
I knew that this would happen
As the night was closing in.
I climbed in bed at sunset..
Thinking " here i go again. "
And now I lay here in this bed
And all I feel is pain....
So many thought run thru my head
And it's driving me insane.
My battered heart so broken..
Weighs so heavy is my chest.  
Each beat takes so much effort
That my spirit just won't rest.  
Alas my life feels empty and
It cuts me to the bone.  
I lie here weak and weary and I feel so all alone.  
I've heard " don't sweat the small stuff "
But for me that can't be right.  
I only sweat the small stuff and
It keeps me up at night.
And as I stare into the darkness
I know ill never be the same ...
If our life is what we make it then we have just ourselves to blame.
I've said so many prayers and
I've counted lots of sheep..
And still all alone here in this darkness
I just cannot fall asleep .