Submissions by Paulajobi (Paula Jobi)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I started writing these type pieces around 2005. I was one of many writers on a porn site that closed in 2008. That left me no outlet for my frustrations. I just sank into life as it bit me in the ass repeatedly. Not good. I'm going to try again.
SELF POEM
Published
30th Dec 2024 7:44am
30th Dec 2024 7:44am
In foster care...
At thirteen, I was in foster care...
out in the country with a kind older couple
named Hank and Ellen who never abused me.
I was fed three times a day! I always finished my plate.
I had a room of my own...first time!
They bought me new clothes that fit me
and they were always clean and smelled outdoorsy.
Did I mention they never abused me?
I could run and play. Stare at clouds. I helped
collect eggs from the chicken coop. I had a kitten named Tiny and I even had a favorite tree!!! Nice!
NO ONE HIT ME OR TOUCHED ME THERE! Nicer! ...
out in the country with a kind older couple
named Hank and Ellen who never abused me.
I was fed three times a day! I always finished my plate.
I had a room of my own...first time!
They bought me new clothes that fit me
and they were always clean and smelled outdoorsy.
Did I mention they never abused me?
I could run and play. Stare at clouds. I helped
collect eggs from the chicken coop. I had a kitten named Tiny and I even had a favorite tree!!! Nice!
NO ONE HIT ME OR TOUCHED ME THERE! Nicer! ...
#happiness
#SelfReflection
#SelfWorth
72 reads
1 Comment
SONG LYRICS
Published
30th Dec 2024 7:33am
30th Dec 2024 7:33am
Returning on a jet plane...
(Paul Harvey used to give "...the rest of the story" on the radio. The same radio played songs that gave us a glimpse into song character's lives but are never revisited! Even worse when the singer dies! I hated that! One of the songs I always felt needed an ending was...John Denver's: "Leaving on a jet plane." So, I present...Returning on a jet plane. Dedicated to the late John Denver.
--‐------------------
Packed my bags again...
I'm finally coming home...
I sang the songs they wanted...
'til...I felt so all alone...
...
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Packed my bags again...
I'm finally coming home...
I sang the songs they wanted...
'til...I felt so all alone...
...
#emotions
#love
#TimeHeals
96 reads
6 Comments
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
29th Dec 2024 11:41pm
29th Dec 2024 11:41pm
Three wishes...
I want to take Ed Sheeran to the planet
Mars and raise little cuddly puppy dogs.
Elon Musk - make my wish come true!
I want to dumb down all the people to
a mental stage close to Down Syndrome -
To make the world more peaceful.
Scientists? Do this and I'll pay you with sex!
I want the DEATH PENALTY back in all 50 states
and all around the world! But I get to flick the switch and decide who dies!!! It would be so awesome!
God? Do I have your fucking blessing on this?
Mars and raise little cuddly puppy dogs.
Elon Musk - make my wish come true!
I want to dumb down all the people to
a mental stage close to Down Syndrome -
To make the world more peaceful.
Scientists? Do this and I'll pay you with sex!
I want the DEATH PENALTY back in all 50 states
and all around the world! But I get to flick the switch and decide who dies!!! It would be so awesome!
God? Do I have your fucking blessing on this?
#LifeGoals
#wisdom
67 reads
4 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
29th Dec 2024 11:27pm
29th Dec 2024 11:27pm
How have I aged? Let me count the ways...
17 - I escaped my abusive mother.
36 - Reunited with my 2 children.
5 - Flames everywhere!
50 - I haven't learned fucking thing!
4 - Pissed on and raped.
9 - Discovered a dead grandfather.
19 - The pain of childbirth.
50 - Heavily medicated.
13 - Short stay in foster care.
38 - Paid handjob queen.
20 - Watched my sister die.
50 - What will become of me?
11 - Broken ribs and deep inner scars.
37 - Momma's dead and never loved me.
34 - Stillborn! Forever cry!
50 - Occasional muffdiver.
40 -...
36 - Reunited with my 2 children.
5 - Flames everywhere!
50 - I haven't learned fucking thing!
4 - Pissed on and raped.
9 - Discovered a dead grandfather.
19 - The pain of childbirth.
50 - Heavily medicated.
13 - Short stay in foster care.
38 - Paid handjob queen.
20 - Watched my sister die.
50 - What will become of me?
11 - Broken ribs and deep inner scars.
37 - Momma's dead and never loved me.
34 - Stillborn! Forever cry!
50 - Occasional muffdiver.
40 -...
#LifeCycle
58 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
29th Dec 2024 5:50am
29th Dec 2024 5:50am
The walk home...
There's a cool breeze...
chilling me to the bone...
it's gonna rain tonight...
I'm walking home cause -
I've only pennies in my pocket.
I just want my lumpy bed.
Severe weather just ahead.
I know the way all too well.
I've walked these streets...
...for a long long time...
to just the edge of the ghetto -
at the start of rampant crime!
I'll sleep good tonight...
If I make it home.
I've got a pack of ramen...
and some cheese crackers...
waiting home patiently...for me.
...where i wanna be... ...
chilling me to the bone...
it's gonna rain tonight...
I'm walking home cause -
I've only pennies in my pocket.
I just want my lumpy bed.
Severe weather just ahead.
I know the way all too well.
I've walked these streets...
...for a long long time...
to just the edge of the ghetto -
at the start of rampant crime!
I'll sleep good tonight...
If I make it home.
I've got a pack of ramen...
and some cheese crackers...
waiting home patiently...for me.
...where i wanna be... ...
#anxiety
#LifeStruggles
56 reads
5 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
28th Dec 2024 11:07am
28th Dec 2024 11:07am
Multiples
If I were a mirror...
the repeated abuse shattered me
into five known fragments -
all created to serve and protect!
Paula was born to an evil bitch
named Margaret after the actress
who played the wicked witch
of the west in the Wizard of Oz.
By age four, her mother was with
an evil counterpart who raped and
beat Paula who could do no right.
Unknowingly Paula created Angel.
Angel tried to be perfect and always
anticipated the needs, wants and
digusting desires of the adults around her -
to minimize...
the repeated abuse shattered me
into five known fragments -
all created to serve and protect!
Paula was born to an evil bitch
named Margaret after the actress
who played the wicked witch
of the west in the Wizard of Oz.
By age four, her mother was with
an evil counterpart who raped and
beat Paula who could do no right.
Unknowingly Paula created Angel.
Angel tried to be perfect and always
anticipated the needs, wants and
digusting desires of the adults around her -
to minimize...
#SelfReflection
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EROTIC POEM
Published
28th Dec 2024 3:01am
28th Dec 2024 3:01am
Try and impress me, Shania!
(Response song)!
Response to the song "That Don't Impress Me Much" by Shania Twain
THAT WON'T EVER STOP PLAYING!!!
------------
BACK AT YA BITCH...
Ow...
Uh-huh, yeah, yeah...
anal rape's not pleasant!
You don't impress me much!
I've known plenty of ugly chicks...
who thought they were something...
you think you're special?
I'd rather eat out Lizzo...
Fuck you Shania Twit...Twain...
You hope for Brad Pitt...
You couldn't get Sheldon Cooper...
...even if you gave him a train!...
Response to the song "That Don't Impress Me Much" by Shania Twain
THAT WON'T EVER STOP PLAYING!!!
------------
BACK AT YA BITCH...
Ow...
Uh-huh, yeah, yeah...
anal rape's not pleasant!
You don't impress me much!
I've known plenty of ugly chicks...
who thought they were something...
you think you're special?
I'd rather eat out Lizzo...
Fuck you Shania Twit...Twain...
You hope for Brad Pitt...
You couldn't get Sheldon Cooper...
...even if you gave him a train!...
#crush
#dirty
#lyrics #sexy
#lyrics #sexy
204 reads
2 Comments
EROTIC POEM
Published
28th Dec 2024 2:54am
28th Dec 2024 2:54am
Not on Christmas Eve...
Not gonna shave my head...
...but not gonna lie in bed...
going to church instead...
of doing you!!!
Praying to God so loud!
My head is saintly bowed!
Shouting it oh so loud...
I'm not sucking it!
Christmas is almost...here!
My morals you can't steer!
Have yourself another beer!
That's all your gonna get!
Tomorrow's another day!
Then maybe you'll get your way!
If I come back to stay...
...with your sorry ass!
Merry Christmas Eve...
...go masturbate loser!
...but not gonna lie in bed...
going to church instead...
of doing you!!!
Praying to God so loud!
My head is saintly bowed!
Shouting it oh so loud...
I'm not sucking it!
Christmas is almost...here!
My morals you can't steer!
Have yourself another beer!
That's all your gonna get!
Tomorrow's another day!
Then maybe you'll get your way!
If I come back to stay...
...with your sorry ass!
Merry Christmas Eve...
...go masturbate loser!
#relationships
#religion
#sex
98 reads
5 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
27th Dec 2024 6:48pm
27th Dec 2024 6:48pm
All I Wanted For Christmas
Not a single present in the
cold shabby apartment
in the nasty fucking world -
full of horrid evil people!
No Christmas tree or fruitcake.
No fancy fucking food at all...
for the molested one (me).
No cookies or pie!
Dump the spoiled milk down the drain...
and drink the coffee black. FUCK FUCK FUCK!
Smell my own stink as you must
have nakedness to wash. NOT TODAY!
Nightmares bundle me...
paralyze me! RAPE ME!
Holidays were always always always the worst!
Menstruation week. Just bloody figures! ...
cold shabby apartment
in the nasty fucking world -
full of horrid evil people!
No Christmas tree or fruitcake.
No fancy fucking food at all...
for the molested one (me).
No cookies or pie!
Dump the spoiled milk down the drain...
and drink the coffee black. FUCK FUCK FUCK!
Smell my own stink as you must
have nakedness to wash. NOT TODAY!
Nightmares bundle me...
paralyze me! RAPE ME!
Holidays were always always always the worst!
Menstruation week. Just bloody figures! ...
#SelfReflection
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1 Comment
SELF POEM
Published
27th Dec 2024 6:15pm
27th Dec 2024 6:15pm
A (to f**king) Z
Agoraphobic
BITCH!
CUNT!
Dicksucker
Edgy
Fucked
Gloomy
Hateful
in need of love
Jaded
Knockers
Lame
Morbid
Nasty
Obscene
Pissed on
Quicktempered
Repugnant
Sad
Tragic
Ugly
Volatile
Weary
X-rated
Yearning
Zero
BITCH!
CUNT!
Dicksucker
Edgy
Fucked
Gloomy
Hateful
in need of love
Jaded
Knockers
Lame
Morbid
Nasty
Obscene
Pissed on
Quicktempered
Repugnant
Sad
Tragic
Ugly
Volatile
Weary
X-rated
Yearning
Zero
#SelfReflection
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DARK POEM
Published
24th Dec 2024 7:24am
24th Dec 2024 7:24am
Cereal Rapist
#abuse
#childhood
#hate
50 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
23rd Dec 2024 1:02am
23rd Dec 2024 1:02am
Loving You.
You were so supposed to love me...
so many times you tried to kill me.
And you passed my sex around.
Momma - I will never understand.
All I ever wanted was to be loved!
You passed away. Your whole family...
thought you were faking even as you took
your final breath - I wish I could have...
...kept you safe from death!!!
I never stopped loving you!
So many unanswered questions...
keep me awake at night.
You'd been through it first -
how could you do that all to me?
All I ever...
so many times you tried to kill me.
And you passed my sex around.
Momma - I will never understand.
All I ever wanted was to be loved!
You passed away. Your whole family...
thought you were faking even as you took
your final breath - I wish I could have...
...kept you safe from death!!!
I never stopped loving you!
So many unanswered questions...
keep me awake at night.
You'd been through it first -
how could you do that all to me?
All I ever...
#abuse
#death
#love
#memories
#mother
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7 Comments
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