Submissions by Liziantus-Marantus (Ivelina Boneva)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
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SELF POEM
Published
29th Jan 2022 3:27pm
29th Jan 2022 3:27pm
Taped
My mouth is taped against my will. The clock is ticking fast.
Fizzy cola in my hand. I'm trying to be clean inside.
I threw away the ring. What an illusion you are.
All hail the pumpkin song. Bravery is missing.
I try and reset my soul. Trying to look acceptable outside.
I'm lying,don't you see?! My mouth is taped shut.
A limp in my neck keeps me in silence.
Oh,funny but painful games.
The wheel decides my future. Such skillful culture,
hiding their pain. Protest of the brain.
It blew up my future. Such a painful past on my back.
Fizzy cola in my hand. I'm trying to be clean inside.
I threw away the ring. What an illusion you are.
All hail the pumpkin song. Bravery is missing.
I try and reset my soul. Trying to look acceptable outside.
I'm lying,don't you see?! My mouth is taped shut.
A limp in my neck keeps me in silence.
Oh,funny but painful games.
The wheel decides my future. Such skillful culture,
hiding their pain. Protest of the brain.
It blew up my future. Such a painful past on my back.
#sadness
#anxiety
#depression #dark
#depression #dark
213 reads
1 Comment
SELF POEM
Published
21st Jan 2022 3:42pm
21st Jan 2022 3:42pm
Wind
The wind of insanity blows in my face.
I screwed up again. Stop pushing me into the flames.
i am not a vegetable for you to eat.
I am singing to the beat of defeat. Oh, violent lies.
A brainstorm coming through my eyes.
i am choking on your lies. You crashed my sense of demise.
I swallowed these flies. You wore a devilish smile.
I saw it in your heart. your contents are bad.
Oh,certified death. I drowned in this lake.
I hope I go to Heaven. Please,set me free.
A devil I might be. Please ,let me flee
I screwed up again. Stop pushing me into the flames.
i am not a vegetable for you to eat.
I am singing to the beat of defeat. Oh, violent lies.
A brainstorm coming through my eyes.
i am choking on your lies. You crashed my sense of demise.
I swallowed these flies. You wore a devilish smile.
I saw it in your heart. your contents are bad.
Oh,certified death. I drowned in this lake.
I hope I go to Heaven. Please,set me free.
A devil I might be. Please ,let me flee
#sadness
#depression
#dark #suicide
#dark #suicide
490 reads
4 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
8th Jan 2022 3:11pm
8th Jan 2022 3:11pm
Ready To Die
Let the groove live on. You don't need to say anything.
i am locked in a cell. You're lying to my face.
You are not handsome, you are a pest.
Oh,I slipped on your lies. You promised to be nice.
I woke up in demise. Stiff eyes and nose.
I left this world forever. Not because of the weather.
You left me hanging on a tree. I tried to climb up and flee.
This clothing is not for me. Please, let me be free.
Oh,cover my insanity. Release me like a firefly.
You fiested on my heart. I am ready to die.
Oh,alone in a boat. It's time to release my...
i am locked in a cell. You're lying to my face.
You are not handsome, you are a pest.
Oh,I slipped on your lies. You promised to be nice.
I woke up in demise. Stiff eyes and nose.
I left this world forever. Not because of the weather.
You left me hanging on a tree. I tried to climb up and flee.
This clothing is not for me. Please, let me be free.
Oh,cover my insanity. Release me like a firefly.
You fiested on my heart. I am ready to die.
Oh,alone in a boat. It's time to release my...
#depression
#conflict
#suicide
406 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
28th Dec 2021 6:46pm
28th Dec 2021 6:46pm
I don't belong
I do not belong to Earth. I try and describe my pain.
You left me with a stain. Oh,anger dripping like rain.
I do not deserve this pain. You left me in the rain.
Oh,poisonous roots in my brain. I cut myself to blame.
You promised a long term relationship,
but you waved goodbye again. I'm suffering from this brain.
It's too hard to maintain. You see,it's not me to blame.
I had a hard past,you crave. Please,don't leave me to rot again.
You killed all my braincells. Then you pushed me into a grave.
You left me with a stain. Oh,anger dripping like rain.
I do not deserve this pain. You left me in the rain.
Oh,poisonous roots in my brain. I cut myself to blame.
You promised a long term relationship,
but you waved goodbye again. I'm suffering from this brain.
It's too hard to maintain. You see,it's not me to blame.
I had a hard past,you crave. Please,don't leave me to rot again.
You killed all my braincells. Then you pushed me into a grave.
#sadness
#anxiety
#depression
#dark
#heartbroken
310 reads
1 Comment
SELF POEM
Published
4th Dec 2021 1:10pm
4th Dec 2021 1:10pm
Body
I tried to fix myself. I failed. Oh,I need a guide. It's my last chance to change. I work for my thoughts. Let's play hide and seek. The purple slime you might greet. A chicken running with no head. I better leave this world. It's the only way to freedom. Please,don't hurt me. Your heart sure is tiny. My mind is getting slimy. Step back,you might stab me. Red mud on my hands. I got injured badly. You chat,but do you love me? A scar on my face,my body. An explosion so bloody. Feed me your hate,burn me. I buried my body.
#MentalHealth
345 reads
0 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
26th Nov 2021 6:25pm
26th Nov 2021 6:25pm
Slave
Oh, rapid fire influencing my heart. You are digging my limbs apart. Then proceeded stabbing me with a knife. Pleasure for you,but not for me. Oh,lack of attention. You breed my invention. Such a waste of exception. I'm in a space convention. Acid poured on my appreciation. I'm losing blood. It's happening so fast. I'm stuck in my past. I got deep fried and eaten alive. You got credited,so naive. Living this ordinary life. The gates of my heart closed. You hit me with a bat. Then you broke my back. Oh,immediate attack. I'm a slave to my thoughts.
#anxiety
#depression
#dark
343 reads
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STORY POEM
Published
8th May 2020 12:50pm
8th May 2020 12:50pm
My Dreams
I lost my teeth eating your sugary sweets. Resetting my dreams. Slowly reviving my dreams. My heart is shattering while I am taking your advice. My bell is ringing on my mark. I drank some blue liquid and I feel dizzy. Time to burn my childhood memories. Equally sharing this cake. Trying to escape this dimension of hate. I flushed my dreams down the toilet.
#depression
#gothic
430 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
5th May 2020 2:55pm
5th May 2020 2:55pm
Random(2)
A feeling of a dog biting your neck,like a weeping pro. A dinosaur flying on a stick. Screw the haters. Uisng the shape of a heart. Famous as a Kardashian. Birds gonna cluck. The weather is so hot,it burns you alive. getting on the train for California. Gonan rock that black dress. Music is the medicine ,it heals fast, but painful. You left me when it got hard. Maybe it is a trend to disrespect suicidals.
#anxiety
#gothic
363 reads
0 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
2nd May 2020 2:04pm
2nd May 2020 2:04pm
My Heart
My heart is rotting like a fruit. Your cake is sweet,but poisonous. You were such a control maniac. I mean,you broke my heart. i gave you my faith and love, yet you crashed it with a touch. I gave you infinite love ,you gave me a poisonous crab. You sliced me with an axe with low gray.Used a fork to eat the rest of me. It seems like I gave up on your sass. Root beer in a glass,on a slimy gas.
#love
#conflict
#gothic
387 reads
2 Comments
STORY POEM
Published
1st May 2020 3:19pm
1st May 2020 3:19pm
Love Is Blind
Love is blind ,isn't it? Choosing between thrill or clean. You were the farmer of my heart,the parents of my hat. Convincing me to do your crimes and ordering me with jam. Breaking the rules of relationships. Judging me by the looks. Printing me multiple times to get second chances. One day you made me into a film. Fixing me with you wrench. Serving my love to strangers. First you were a small cry,now you are a huge fly. You were getting my magnificent love, now you tore me apart.
#dark
#heartbroken
#gothic
381 reads
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SELF POEM
Published
29th Apr 2020 1:54pm
29th Apr 2020 1:54pm
Imagination
Creating a lover in my imagination. None listens to me and my problems. If you do,I willl give you an award - my love and respect. Someone one day will shine sun in the rain. Do not attempt to help if you do not care. Take a note,please. We could sleep on clouds together. We could cross the road together. You have a bad breath and I am your mint.
#love
#dark
#FallingInLove
379 reads
1 Comment
SELF POEM
Published
28th Apr 2020 2:56pm
28th Apr 2020 2:56pm
Desires
My desires crawling in my ear and whispering "Just die." Your hate is attacking me and making me bleed. My heart is getting moldy. You love only my shape. My love is no cheap,it's expensive. Once you lose me you can't get me back. My mental illness is on a high level. So stand back. My mind is a closed and locked diary,locked in my past.
#sadness
#depression
#gothic
356 reads
0 Comments
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