Submissions by KittyFromHell
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I write mostly about my day to day emotions, experiences, and thoughts. Every fucked up thought I have usually ends up here.
Resolve
Lately, I've been lost for words,
As I finally let my grief and my pain swallow me whole.
Sitting in the woeful sobriety of a new seed growing,
I shed layers of myself over and over.
Some nights, I am reduced to an ugly mess,
Choking on desperate words that seem to linger
Held in the darkness by not so empty air
Where God fills the cracks of my loneliness
With release, clarity, and love.
I never thought the most shaky breath
Would come before statements like
"I am who I am, and I am me."
The resolve that forms...
As I finally let my grief and my pain swallow me whole.
Sitting in the woeful sobriety of a new seed growing,
I shed layers of myself over and over.
Some nights, I am reduced to an ugly mess,
Choking on desperate words that seem to linger
Held in the darkness by not so empty air
Where God fills the cracks of my loneliness
With release, clarity, and love.
I never thought the most shaky breath
Would come before statements like
"I am who I am, and I am me."
The resolve that forms...
#grief
#death
#rebirth
#TimeHeals
#healing
289 reads
3 Comments
Take Care, Goodbye
I wish you knew how much I miss you,
But if you did it'd be like you had the last laugh.
You were my best friend turned into lover,
And I thought you were my other half.
Its crazy there was a time I'd have died for you,
And now we don't even speak.
You're still in my dreams even years later;
Goddamn, how'd you make me so weak?
You dragged me down, I made you hurt,
But I still thought you hung the moon.
I'm stuck here in mourning like you've gone to the grave,
A young ball of passion and fire gone too soon.
...
But if you did it'd be like you had the last laugh.
You were my best friend turned into lover,
And I thought you were my other half.
Its crazy there was a time I'd have died for you,
And now we don't even speak.
You're still in my dreams even years later;
Goddamn, how'd you make me so weak?
You dragged me down, I made you hurt,
But I still thought you hung the moon.
I'm stuck here in mourning like you've gone to the grave,
A young ball of passion and fire gone too soon.
...
#sadness
#love
#depression
#loneliness
#breakup
364 reads
2 Comments
Forgiveness
I will never quite forgive you
For changing the way you did.
How your loveable asshole antics
Turned to the streets for love
Found in the hands of men
Who only sought to take advantage
Of your childhood wounds.
I will never quite forgive those men
Though I see them every other day,
And I pray for them because I know
That they were once wounded children, too.
I pray that they find healing
And that God uses them for good
Though their demons flow through their veins
And wrap themselves around
Every bone and...
For changing the way you did.
How your loveable asshole antics
Turned to the streets for love
Found in the hands of men
Who only sought to take advantage
Of your childhood wounds.
I will never quite forgive those men
Though I see them every other day,
And I pray for them because I know
That they were once wounded children, too.
I pray that they find healing
And that God uses them for good
Though their demons flow through their veins
And wrap themselves around
Every bone and...
#forgiveness
#childhood
240 reads
2 Comments
Jaded
I'm beginning to believe I get worse with age
As anger and bitterness bubble up inside me
Spilling to those around me
Without a thought.
Terrible things fly out my mouth
And seep into my heart
Settling there to rot.
If you love me now
You are strong indeed.
As anger and bitterness bubble up inside me
Spilling to those around me
Without a thought.
Terrible things fly out my mouth
And seep into my heart
Settling there to rot.
If you love me now
You are strong indeed.
#anger
#regret
#disappointment #bittersweet
#disappointment #bittersweet
270 reads
2 Comments
Fear of the Future
Terror wraps itself around me
In the darkness of my room,
Where I snuggle myself in blankets
And try to hide from the world.
Depression snuggles up beside me
With a low purr as it nuzzles my cheek.
The confident young woman checks out,
And in her place is a scared little girl.
In the darkness of my room,
Where I snuggle myself in blankets
And try to hide from the world.
Depression snuggles up beside me
With a low purr as it nuzzles my cheek.
The confident young woman checks out,
And in her place is a scared little girl.
#anxiety
#depression
#LifeStruggles
#LifeCycle
#fear
317 reads
1 Comment
Let Love Wrap You Up
There's something to be said about the oldest sibling.
I see the sadness behind those dilated eyes,
And words left unspoken in those contorted lips.
There's a soul on fire in those empty eyed mugshots
And the gossiping whispers that follow you.
You're the scapegoat of the family;
Even your baby brother blames you for his troubles.
Little does he know you took that darkness and ate it,
Just so he could be the child you never got to be.
Your baby sister has grown to be so confident,
With her college degree and her...
I see the sadness behind those dilated eyes,
And words left unspoken in those contorted lips.
There's a soul on fire in those empty eyed mugshots
And the gossiping whispers that follow you.
You're the scapegoat of the family;
Even your baby brother blames you for his troubles.
Little does he know you took that darkness and ate it,
Just so he could be the child you never got to be.
Your baby sister has grown to be so confident,
With her college degree and her...
#love
#children
#family
#addiction
#healing
244 reads
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Blurred Lines
I'd say I'm sorry I never gave you my best,
But I was still a child when I was put to the test.
Those storms came and I folded while we both screamed
Unable to hear each other as the nightmare took over our dream.
I look back now on the things I said and did.
I hardly recognize that girl you were with.
How did she get there and how did I get here?
I can't make the connection, can't see through my fears.
The past haunts me even on my brightest days
Those storm clouds in your eyes have me permanently dazed.
Though I look...
But I was still a child when I was put to the test.
Those storms came and I folded while we both screamed
Unable to hear each other as the nightmare took over our dream.
I look back now on the things I said and did.
I hardly recognize that girl you were with.
How did she get there and how did I get here?
I can't make the connection, can't see through my fears.
The past haunts me even on my brightest days
Those storm clouds in your eyes have me permanently dazed.
Though I look...
#love
#heartbroken
#memories
#SelfReflection
#MovingOn
404 reads
5 Comments
Crazy
Yesterday,
I felt empty,
Like an ever widening chasm
That will never be filled.
Today,
My heart is full to the brim
Though shattered.
I feel as if I may burst
Into a thousand pieces
And be scattered in the wind.
I felt empty,
Like an ever widening chasm
That will never be filled.
Today,
My heart is full to the brim
Though shattered.
I feel as if I may burst
Into a thousand pieces
And be scattered in the wind.
#hope
#dark
#SelfHarm
#SelfDiscovery
#SelfWorth
377 reads
2 Comments
Monotony
This little town closes in
Like a cage door shut behind me.
Like a cage door shut behind me.
#anxiety
#depression
#emptiness
#apathy
#boredom
272 reads
2 Comments
Haunting
The silence comes to taunt me
Like clockwork at the end of the day.
I've been talking to God more,
But lately I don't know what to say.
I've slipped into a strange comfort,
A serenity deep in my bones,
But these thoughts still whirl around
To torment me when I'm alone.
I've come so far, but lack so much,
I still feel like it's not enough.
Karma lies in wait for me and she whispers
"If you're gonna be stupid, you better be tough."
Like clockwork at the end of the day.
I've been talking to God more,
But lately I don't know what to say.
I've slipped into a strange comfort,
A serenity deep in my bones,
But these thoughts still whirl around
To torment me when I'm alone.
I've come so far, but lack so much,
I still feel like it's not enough.
Karma lies in wait for me and she whispers
"If you're gonna be stupid, you better be tough."
#anxiety
#regret
#forgiveness
#night
#SelfReflection
349 reads
2 Comments
Yearning
Sunshine on my face,
Dying coals in my heart.
I have found myself longing
In a way I have never felt.
Dying coals in my heart.
I have found myself longing
In a way I have never felt.
#loneliness
#sun
#SelfReflection
#emptiness
#IMissYou
380 reads
2 Comments
I Miss Us
I let you salivate over my innocence
As you kissed my wounds
Just to cut me open again.
My body arced and sparked
When you traced your dirty fingers
Around the holes in my aching heart.
You exposed the softest parts of me
As I fell deep into your darkness
Eyes closed, the wind on my face was ecstasy.
Oh, to be young and dumb once more!
The woman I am cannot fathom
The love you aroused in the girl I was.
I still think of those icy blue eyes,
And that velvet voice purring to me
That first...
As you kissed my wounds
Just to cut me open again.
My body arced and sparked
When you traced your dirty fingers
Around the holes in my aching heart.
You exposed the softest parts of me
As I fell deep into your darkness
Eyes closed, the wind on my face was ecstasy.
Oh, to be young and dumb once more!
The woman I am cannot fathom
The love you aroused in the girl I was.
I still think of those icy blue eyes,
And that velvet voice purring to me
That first...
#love
#sex
#LifeStruggles
#summer
#sensual
351 reads
2 Comments
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