Submissions by JustKelvinMasilela

I simply don't want to give in, but
I just don't remember what I gave in
Just to see myself cave in, again.
These moments define me best,
Inner protests, and propaganda,
its politics and policies always in pieces,
I will never find my peace anytime soon.
"Stay strong”, but how am I supposed to?
Cause the least I do best is fail better,
Often I trip and drift in these emotions,
“What is there to like about myself?”
Weakness and failure with no option
to choose from but…put the negativity aside
It's these moments that...

Today is the day I lost you,
Minus ten years I started losing myself
And dedicated to a loss I wish I could speak of.
Memories fade but I still remember
The time and what you last said.
“Where are you going?”, but where did you go?
You were right there then you were.
I remember breaking down at school
Just glued on, to “it's my fault you got sick”.
You left, and I tried to keep it cool,
But sad thoughts caught up along the way,
I looked for possibility of you coming back,
But instead I discovered guilt lasting a decade. ...