Submissions by Iamwhoyoumakeme

How is this possible?
My mere existence baffles me
The nerves in my fingertips tingling
As people stare me down
Judging my every movement

The symptoms kick in
Sweat, rolling off the back of my neck
Heart beating faster every second as the walls close in
My head pounding
And legs shaking

I take a deep breath
Slowing the pulses in my chest
Close my eyes as the world around me dissipates
Exhale and reassure myself
None of this is real

That’s how I get through most days
The anxiety rushing through my veins...

Do you want to know
The story of my life?
It’s a daydream of pleasure
Until you look behind my eyes
They’re big and blue
Wide and bright
It’s it first thing people notice
Beautiful and light
It’s funny in a way
They see what they want to see
My beautiful eyes
What they don’t see is all the lies
The lies
The memories
The scars of the past
The pain I’ve conflicted upon myself
It’s a good thing they don’t realize
If they did I’d be forced to answer a question
That I don’t know the answer to
Why
Why’d you do it...

I began distancing myself
Staring blankly as others converse
Slipping further into the depths of my mind
Sometimes I don’t know what it is
Other times I’m aware of the darkness

It consumes me
Like a carnivore consumes the flesh of an innocent
From the tips of my fingers to the edge of my heels
The bottomless pit of non-existence
Never giving me the chance of escape

I wonder when the so called savior will come and pull me out
God knows I’ve reached my arm
Trying to grasp onto hope as I slip
Yet I still fall
Slamming my body into...