Submissions by Forgottensoul94 (Johnathan Rhoads)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
Pain, love, reality, truth, and understanding. These are the thing I introduce myself with. So I am a solider in the Army, A poet of many topics, and i try to write the emotions i cant express physically.
Trigger
I looked down the barrel of beautiful blue steel,
Just thinking I'm another person, another broken wheel.
I lightly touch the slim hair trigger,
Knowing I can't be loved, just another sinner.
I'm a proud person, I wont ask for help,
But it seems I'm weak, just a pitiful whelp,
Who can love a soul like mine,
A broken and scarred body that only reminds.
How do I find strength,
Or wisdom to understand.
On how i lost my way,
This I demand.
I have no redeeming qualities,
I am to nice for my own good.
Being unbreakable now seems...
Just thinking I'm another person, another broken wheel.
I lightly touch the slim hair trigger,
Knowing I can't be loved, just another sinner.
I'm a proud person, I wont ask for help,
But it seems I'm weak, just a pitiful whelp,
Who can love a soul like mine,
A broken and scarred body that only reminds.
How do I find strength,
Or wisdom to understand.
On how i lost my way,
This I demand.
I have no redeeming qualities,
I am to nice for my own good.
Being unbreakable now seems...
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followed
Followed by death,
The reaper on my shoulders.
Friends dropping from drugs specifically meth.
Now I'm soon to run in to combat, gun never to be holstered.
I have buried friends with holes in their head,
In situations where it should have been my life, but was theirs instead.
I believe I am cursed to walk alone and survive,
No family to care if I live or I die.
This is my life and everyday my heart bleeds.
So I feel the burn in my muscles to relieve me.
Of the agonizing emotion that kills me.
The reaper on my shoulders.
Friends dropping from drugs specifically meth.
Now I'm soon to run in to combat, gun never to be holstered.
I have buried friends with holes in their head,
In situations where it should have been my life, but was theirs instead.
I believe I am cursed to walk alone and survive,
No family to care if I live or I die.
This is my life and everyday my heart bleeds.
So I feel the burn in my muscles to relieve me.
Of the agonizing emotion that kills me.
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I Want A Beast
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From The Window
From my window I watch the world pass me by,
And I watch you leave, and feel myself cry.
I am a broken, lost, lonely, deprived,
What is my hope, how will I survive?
I don't know if you will forgive me,
Because I made promises I couldn't keep.
Or the pain I caused to you to feel,
with out warrant, with out peace.
How could I expect you to wait,
And I know the feelings of endearment have turned to hate.
With out love, with out peace,
With only crying shame, I am brought to my knees.
Nightmares drive me to the brink of insanity....
And I watch you leave, and feel myself cry.
I am a broken, lost, lonely, deprived,
What is my hope, how will I survive?
I don't know if you will forgive me,
Because I made promises I couldn't keep.
Or the pain I caused to you to feel,
with out warrant, with out peace.
How could I expect you to wait,
And I know the feelings of endearment have turned to hate.
With out love, with out peace,
With only crying shame, I am brought to my knees.
Nightmares drive me to the brink of insanity....
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Darkness
Darkness floods our vision,
To where we have no decision.
Places where the monsters lurk,
Are the places where you'll fine me hurt.
Broken, bloody, beaten, Dead,
These are images that are in my head.
Dare speak up if you have soul,
Unless fear drives you to run from the unknown.
Forsaken, friendless by by own undoing,
A tortured creature swallowed whole.
By despair created by himself,
Pushed to insanity by the words them self.
To where we have no decision.
Places where the monsters lurk,
Are the places where you'll fine me hurt.
Broken, bloody, beaten, Dead,
These are images that are in my head.
Dare speak up if you have soul,
Unless fear drives you to run from the unknown.
Forsaken, friendless by by own undoing,
A tortured creature swallowed whole.
By despair created by himself,
Pushed to insanity by the words them self.
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masterpiece
I was told that one day I would be great,
Its the only reason I endure this pointless hate.
I was told I would write a masterpiece,
But I squander my potential as I wait.
I write for love,
I write for peace.
But also for war,
and hypocrisy when seen.
So if I am suppose to be,
So smart,
So strong,
How am I still struggling to make ends meet.
So I'm stuck in this rutt,
Looking at this world wondering,
How did I get fucked.
Moving in this world like a ghost.
I'm done trying to find the good,
When all I see...
Its the only reason I endure this pointless hate.
I was told I would write a masterpiece,
But I squander my potential as I wait.
I write for love,
I write for peace.
But also for war,
and hypocrisy when seen.
So if I am suppose to be,
So smart,
So strong,
How am I still struggling to make ends meet.
So I'm stuck in this rutt,
Looking at this world wondering,
How did I get fucked.
Moving in this world like a ghost.
I'm done trying to find the good,
When all I see...
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true thoughts
True thoughts should be brought to light,
But harsh words will only start a fight.
How to express myself with with a righteous high,
Only to let time slowly creep by.
If today was your last day to breathe,
Would you feel acomplished,
Or beg for more time with dire need,
Or maybe like rusty steel we need to be polished.
When you live with a constant motivation,
And fight for the things that have no reputation.
Stand up for the little guy,
Don't let him be pushed to the side.
I know when we think its about ourselves,
But for...
But harsh words will only start a fight.
How to express myself with with a righteous high,
Only to let time slowly creep by.
If today was your last day to breathe,
Would you feel acomplished,
Or beg for more time with dire need,
Or maybe like rusty steel we need to be polished.
When you live with a constant motivation,
And fight for the things that have no reputation.
Stand up for the little guy,
Don't let him be pushed to the side.
I know when we think its about ourselves,
But for...
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Are you serious!!!!
Are you serious?
tell me im living in the past.
this is my release,
and you violate that sanctum.
I dont care who you are,
What you think you know.
YOUR DEAD FUCKING WRONG.
Go give someone else advice.
next time you ask, before you intrude into my world.
my reality is sacred to me.
And you dare send me that message.
At this moment anger is whats driving me.
dont get into my buisness
just know to leave me be DaddyCool!!!
tell me im living in the past.
this is my release,
and you violate that sanctum.
I dont care who you are,
What you think you know.
YOUR DEAD FUCKING WRONG.
Go give someone else advice.
next time you ask, before you intrude into my world.
my reality is sacred to me.
And you dare send me that message.
At this moment anger is whats driving me.
dont get into my buisness
just know to leave me be DaddyCool!!!
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afraid to step
Shes afraid to take a chance,
To take a chance with me.
But i can feel shes the one i need,
distance seems to be my enemy.
circumstances even works against me.
I've been told that its not worth it.
that she would tear my soul out,
that it wasnt safe.
and to that i truly doubt.
her and i are so alike.
from personalitys,
to scars of our past
i wonder how she can be afraid
afraid to step out
to see me the way i see her
To take a chance with me.
But i can feel shes the one i need,
distance seems to be my enemy.
circumstances even works against me.
I've been told that its not worth it.
that she would tear my soul out,
that it wasnt safe.
and to that i truly doubt.
her and i are so alike.
from personalitys,
to scars of our past
i wonder how she can be afraid
afraid to step out
to see me the way i see her
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Fallen......
I've walked alone on city streets,
Alone to see corrupting feats.
I've watch the world as it has fallen,
Crumbled, wretched, and long been rotten.
I've watched since the true beginning,
When I rebelled from all that I knew.
War after war the struggles never ending,
Skies gone black from their heavenly blue.
You human mortals fight for petty reason,
and commit terrible crimes of horrendous treason.
You battle, brawl, contest, and fight,
Over things to which you have no right.
So as a guardian I wait and watch,
Till the time I'm...
Alone to see corrupting feats.
I've watch the world as it has fallen,
Crumbled, wretched, and long been rotten.
I've watched since the true beginning,
When I rebelled from all that I knew.
War after war the struggles never ending,
Skies gone black from their heavenly blue.
You human mortals fight for petty reason,
and commit terrible crimes of horrendous treason.
You battle, brawl, contest, and fight,
Over things to which you have no right.
So as a guardian I wait and watch,
Till the time I'm...
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You Cry.
You cry out for a dark-winged guardian,
Your plea for a tangible love was heard.
You say you are desolate with the atrocious feeling of loneliness,
But i see the vulnerable and perplexed little girl.
You ask for so much,
But you think you will not be heard.
When you ask for little,
They mimic you with obscene parodies.
You don't want sympathy,
You do not want to dole on pathetic trivial problems.
You want something more in this life,
Something to fill this cavernous hole in your heart.
It seems...
Your plea for a tangible love was heard.
You say you are desolate with the atrocious feeling of loneliness,
But i see the vulnerable and perplexed little girl.
You ask for so much,
But you think you will not be heard.
When you ask for little,
They mimic you with obscene parodies.
You don't want sympathy,
You do not want to dole on pathetic trivial problems.
You want something more in this life,
Something to fill this cavernous hole in your heart.
It seems...
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this is for those people.
My home,
My life,
My Pain,
My right.
My home,
The word and false promises,
when you're so messed up form the pain and the losses.
when we cant see the truth although,
in front of us.
My life,
The fake way of living to avoid the strife.
never knowing the light from the dark,
never knowing when you're last breath will be.
My pain,
every waking moment i feel it edge me,
drawing blood from My feelings,
like a vampire draining me of everything.
My right,
this is the most crucial,
of all, the most...
My life,
My Pain,
My right.
My home,
The word and false promises,
when you're so messed up form the pain and the losses.
when we cant see the truth although,
in front of us.
My life,
The fake way of living to avoid the strife.
never knowing the light from the dark,
never knowing when you're last breath will be.
My pain,
every waking moment i feel it edge me,
drawing blood from My feelings,
like a vampire draining me of everything.
My right,
this is the most crucial,
of all, the most...
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