Submissions by David_gessner
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
"Poet" hmm naw, sounds like somethin a pretentious hipster kid would say while drinking pabst blue ribbon and smoking a cigarette he bummed off somebody else.
Another Desperate Day
Laying here in this motel bed, feeling as if I may puke, my visions blurry, and my head is spinning. I just injected close to forty dollars worth of dope, and dammit that shit it's fire.
This last week's been a rough one, Lisa and I got discovered in the apartment we'd been living in by the owner of the building, he didn't call the cops, but he wasn't very happy to discover that Duster had moved out and moved us in.
We moved into a room at motel 6 that day, and so far I've been able to hustle enough per day to keep us ndoors, with cigarettes and at least a meal a day....
This last week's been a rough one, Lisa and I got discovered in the apartment we'd been living in by the owner of the building, he didn't call the cops, but he wasn't very happy to discover that Duster had moved out and moved us in.
We moved into a room at motel 6 that day, and so far I've been able to hustle enough per day to keep us ndoors, with cigarettes and at least a meal a day....
#dark
#shadows
#money
#drugs
#frustration
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Burned out
What do you do when you're 28 years old, totally and completely burned out on life, love and even drugs? This is the predicament I find myself in, sitting in the backseat of my friends car still waiting on the connect two hours later.
We picked up my chick, she's obviously pissy, but that's nothing new. She's always pissy these days and I'm getting sick of it. She don't hustle, she don't do shit except sir around being mad.
Her attitude and the lack of any kind of warmth make the six months in county that I'm facing seem like a pleasant alternative. It sucks, we were...
We picked up my chick, she's obviously pissy, but that's nothing new. She's always pissy these days and I'm getting sick of it. She don't hustle, she don't do shit except sir around being mad.
Her attitude and the lack of any kind of warmth make the six months in county that I'm facing seem like a pleasant alternative. It sucks, we were...
#PopCulture
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The End of Love
Lisa Renee, once one of my best friends, my lover, the reason I had to give a fuck shattered my heart and carved her name deeply into my soul, so deeply that several years from now the wound will continue to bleed.
Hurt beyond all logic and sense of reason I stole her backpack with her laptop and tablet inside from the motel before leaving. She it's sure it was me but can't prove it. I've been at Casey's, or across the way at my homie Claytons place, getting high as a giraffe pussy since she told me it was over yesterday.
My veins are collapsing, I'm dehydrated, and...
Hurt beyond all logic and sense of reason I stole her backpack with her laptop and tablet inside from the motel before leaving. She it's sure it was me but can't prove it. I've been at Casey's, or across the way at my homie Claytons place, getting high as a giraffe pussy since she told me it was over yesterday.
My veins are collapsing, I'm dehydrated, and...
#LifeAsAWriter
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Losing in Life and Love
It's almost 11 in the morning, I've been out stealing for my nymphomaniac ex girlfriend Casey. My girlfriend Lisa and I got into a fight last night and she took off. I haven't heard from her since.
About an hour after she left I walked to Casey's apartment to do her dope and get some pussy. I don't know where I stand with Lisa, and at the moment I'm too high to be concerned about it.
Things will change later when I start to crash, the depression will set in and I'll ache for her in the pit of my soul, my guts will wrench, and I'll be possessed by a loneliness so...
About an hour after she left I walked to Casey's apartment to do her dope and get some pussy. I don't know where I stand with Lisa, and at the moment I'm too high to be concerned about it.
Things will change later when I start to crash, the depression will set in and I'll ache for her in the pit of my soul, my guts will wrench, and I'll be possessed by a loneliness so...
#grief
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Silent Hostility
It's just after two am, it's dark inside the small rundown studio apartment my girl and I have been staying in for the past week. The apartment is a friend of mines, he let us post up here while he spent a weekend in county, but when he got out he more or less moved in with Casey, a girl he'd dated before I had a brief, chaos filled and exciting affair with. Casey actually introduced us, then got mad that we hit it off.
My girl is silent, seemingly pissed off like most days, but refuses to admit that anything is wrong, she seems to expect me to read her mind and know without...
My girl is silent, seemingly pissed off like most days, but refuses to admit that anything is wrong, she seems to expect me to read her mind and know without...
#hate
#drugs
#addiction
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This Life of Struggle
I'm sitting in my friend Tanyas apartment waiting on this chick I know to bring us some dope in exchange for a Home Depot gift card.
My girl Lisa is back at the apartment we've been squatting in waiting on me to come back from panhandling. She doesn't know that I spent what I made already on dope I've already done.
That's why I'm with Tanya, waiting on the connect, Tanya will break me off a chunk so I can give it to Lisa, that way she doesn't find out I did the dope earlier without her.
Problem is I've got to wait for the connect, and who knows how long that...
My girl Lisa is back at the apartment we've been squatting in waiting on me to come back from panhandling. She doesn't know that I spent what I made already on dope I've already done.
That's why I'm with Tanya, waiting on the connect, Tanya will break me off a chunk so I can give it to Lisa, that way she doesn't find out I did the dope earlier without her.
Problem is I've got to wait for the connect, and who knows how long that...
#PopCulture
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Punk Rock Love Story
I've spent the last week squatting in a studio apartment with Lisa Ramsey, whom i've written of before.
She swore she was done work me after I moved in with a girl named Casey. Shortly after Casey and I split me and Lisa began hooking up again.
Things kinda feel apart after a road trip to Colorado to pick up a friend. Now we're out of dope and broke, it's been almost a week since we fucked and we either sit in silence or fight.
She's making her own plans for when we inevitably get kicked out of our squat. Plans which don't seem to include me. I have court on...
She swore she was done work me after I moved in with a girl named Casey. Shortly after Casey and I split me and Lisa began hooking up again.
Things kinda feel apart after a road trip to Colorado to pick up a friend. Now we're out of dope and broke, it's been almost a week since we fucked and we either sit in silence or fight.
She's making her own plans for when we inevitably get kicked out of our squat. Plans which don't seem to include me. I have court on...
#love
#girlfriend
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The Angel of Light
Lying in her bed, listening to her talk about some guy she knows, and his insecurities, his perverted need to exploit young dope whore.
I love her, her words are dark, but her spirit is total light, her soul is pure love, like a child. But she knows pain, pain like no one can imagine.
She doesn't think I'm real, her paranoia keeps her guarded against any and all possible threats. And who wouldn't percieve me as a threat?
Her skin is soft, her lips full and soft, and her brown eyes are warm and remind me of a home I'm not sure I ever had.
She's too...
I love her, her words are dark, but her spirit is total light, her soul is pure love, like a child. But she knows pain, pain like no one can imagine.
She doesn't think I'm real, her paranoia keeps her guarded against any and all possible threats. And who wouldn't percieve me as a threat?
Her skin is soft, her lips full and soft, and her brown eyes are warm and remind me of a home I'm not sure I ever had.
She's too...
#PopCulture
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Rain drops, Tattoos, and Tears
I've been up for roughly thirty two hours. i haven't had any dope since around six this morning,
my eyes are bloodshot, the whites almost totally red. I'm tired down straight to my bones,
The depression that comes along with the crash is enhanced by the fact that she's been distant today
I sit smoking cigarettes in the dark, slowly rocking on the rickety porch swing we saved one night
She's thirty feet away talking to her first love on her broken phone, her words fresh cuts on my heart
She's like a flesh and blood metaphor for the...
my eyes are bloodshot, the whites almost totally red. I'm tired down straight to my bones,
The depression that comes along with the crash is enhanced by the fact that she's been distant today
I sit smoking cigarettes in the dark, slowly rocking on the rickety porch swing we saved one night
She's thirty feet away talking to her first love on her broken phone, her words fresh cuts on my heart
She's like a flesh and blood metaphor for the...
#drugs
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Broken Hearts & Burglaries
Im burned out and barely awake, I've been up for most of the last two days, gettin spun out, puttin in work, hittin licks and tryin to hunt down an old grudge who got his self into debt with my partner.
Scored an old revolver on the lick I hit the other night, got it stashed in case I need it.
Things have been going great until about 10:30 tonight when the girl I've been hooking up withs brother called and said that her baby daddy got out of the pen tonight...
We were both catching feelings, but the news of his release is messing with her head and her heart....
Scored an old revolver on the lick I hit the other night, got it stashed in case I need it.
Things have been going great until about 10:30 tonight when the girl I've been hooking up withs brother called and said that her baby daddy got out of the pen tonight...
We were both catching feelings, but the news of his release is messing with her head and her heart....
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Reparations?
My ex, the one who threw me out last month hit me up, says she misses me and wants to talk. I'm wary about her motives but I told her how to get hold of me. I'll give her a chance, but If she trys any dirty shit, I'll make her wish she wasn't born.
I miss her, although I'm not sure if she was playin with me all along or not. I don't think she was, for one I'm not exactly naieve as to the seedy side of human nature, and usually I sense ulterior motives pretty quick. I told her she could come to goodland and stay at the motel with me if she wants.
I know Tessie and Troy wouldn't...
I miss her, although I'm not sure if she was playin with me all along or not. I don't think she was, for one I'm not exactly naieve as to the seedy side of human nature, and usually I sense ulterior motives pretty quick. I told her she could come to goodland and stay at the motel with me if she wants.
I know Tessie and Troy wouldn't...
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Court Dates
Another court hearing, another plea deal negotiated and signed, another criminal conviction on my record and another year I've gotta spend on probation...
My lawyer bought me roughly a month until I've gotta do my intake for Sherman county Court services, so I can execute my plan to move to my homies place, roughly a month to party and do what I want.
Not two hours after I get to the homies place me, him and his sister chopped a quarter gram of dope into 3 lines and took it to the head. Now it's 5o clock in the mornin, we're all out of smokes, so we resort to rolling...
My lawyer bought me roughly a month until I've gotta do my intake for Sherman county Court services, so I can execute my plan to move to my homies place, roughly a month to party and do what I want.
Not two hours after I get to the homies place me, him and his sister chopped a quarter gram of dope into 3 lines and took it to the head. Now it's 5o clock in the mornin, we're all out of smokes, so we resort to rolling...
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