Submissions by Darkness_Fiend (Highest Dope Fiend)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
SELF POEM
Published
8th Mar 2024 3:33am
8th Mar 2024 3:33am
(34) Silent Suicide 01.21.24 @ 1:13pm
Shadows feed off my self esteem.
Depression ignites by the line.
Shattered glass pipes, life’s bleak.
Line after line, I’m feeling weak.
Sorrow on the rocks, tequila sunrise.
Every loss adds on to the pain.
Everything in life is on record, nothing’s private.
Searching for life’s purpose in a slurred point of view.
Trapped in an endless cycle of stimulant abuse.
If not for my addictions, would this nightmare intrigue you?
Three years soon became a decade.
The constant attempt to escape my reality.
Sadness reflects...
Depression ignites by the line.
Shattered glass pipes, life’s bleak.
Line after line, I’m feeling weak.
Sorrow on the rocks, tequila sunrise.
Every loss adds on to the pain.
Everything in life is on record, nothing’s private.
Searching for life’s purpose in a slurred point of view.
Trapped in an endless cycle of stimulant abuse.
If not for my addictions, would this nightmare intrigue you?
Three years soon became a decade.
The constant attempt to escape my reality.
Sadness reflects...
#SelfReflection
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DRUGS POEM
Published
7th Mar 2024 8:20am
7th Mar 2024 8:20am
(32) Repeat.Intoxication.Process (R.I.P.) 02/01/2016 @ 3:11pm
Cocaine, marijuana, meth, pills and alcohol.
Fantasizing to be free both mentally & physically.
Will I seek help anytime soon?
Will I ever be high enough to reach the moon?
I lost my self control, I have no sense of hope.
The day will come, I’ll fatality drop from dope.
Unstable by the teardrop.
Countless narcotics, it’s a one stop shop.
Penny for your thoughts?
I’m drunk and nauseous, stomach knots.
Why am I breaking speed limits?
Will the drugs ever be off-limits?
I’m running on adrenaline!
In the dark,...
Fantasizing to be free both mentally & physically.
Will I seek help anytime soon?
Will I ever be high enough to reach the moon?
I lost my self control, I have no sense of hope.
The day will come, I’ll fatality drop from dope.
Unstable by the teardrop.
Countless narcotics, it’s a one stop shop.
Penny for your thoughts?
I’m drunk and nauseous, stomach knots.
Why am I breaking speed limits?
Will the drugs ever be off-limits?
I’m running on adrenaline!
In the dark,...
#SelfReflection
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SELF POEM
Published
6th Mar 2024 11:07am
6th Mar 2024 11:07am
(30) Everyday Hell 12.16.23 @ 6:11pm
I’m cross faded, sick thoughts occurring.
Without drugs, I can’t function in this society.
I’m addicted but I’m not bragging.
I don’t have much but I’ll stand my ground.
I’m running on fumes.
What the fuck is left?
Hell awaits my presence!
Everything’s burning if not burned to ashes.
Working my way out of hell.
Nicotine slowly disintegrates my flesh.
Some fiend for love and happiness;
I seek self love and peace.
It’s my everyday hell that makes me what I am.
Many will never know my darkest side.
Those who...
Without drugs, I can’t function in this society.
I’m addicted but I’m not bragging.
I don’t have much but I’ll stand my ground.
I’m running on fumes.
What the fuck is left?
Hell awaits my presence!
Everything’s burning if not burned to ashes.
Working my way out of hell.
Nicotine slowly disintegrates my flesh.
Some fiend for love and happiness;
I seek self love and peace.
It’s my everyday hell that makes me what I am.
Many will never know my darkest side.
Those who...
#SelfReflection
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UPBEAT INSPIRATIONAL POEM
Published
6th Mar 2024 11:00am
6th Mar 2024 11:00am
(28) Always Connected 12.16.23 @ 5:51pm
Freshman year, decades ago.
I remember staring off in the distance.
A queen entered my sight, Andrea was her name.
A beautiful soul to remember, acquainted during French.
Lost in thought, gorgeous forever she will be.
Exchanging looks during class lectures.
Overpowered by your beauty.
Still connected many years later.
We’re only getting closer.
Everything bad has vanished, having met you.
I got love for my nena, don’t you every worry!
We’re always connected.
Smart, dedicated & adventurous.
A well defined...
I remember staring off in the distance.
A queen entered my sight, Andrea was her name.
A beautiful soul to remember, acquainted during French.
Lost in thought, gorgeous forever she will be.
Exchanging looks during class lectures.
Overpowered by your beauty.
Still connected many years later.
We’re only getting closer.
Everything bad has vanished, having met you.
I got love for my nena, don’t you every worry!
We’re always connected.
Smart, dedicated & adventurous.
A well defined...
#BestFriend
#friendship
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DARK POEM
Published
29th Feb 2024 8:15am
29th Feb 2024 8:15am
(27) In My Head 12.16.23 @ 5:19pm
In my lair, my body is about to drop.
What will it take for me to stop?
I’d rather fake a smile than frown.
Consider me the happy sad clown.
Isolation, fear and depression.
What’s the reason for my obsession?
I’m here with all these questions.
No answers regarding resurrection.
I need help but I refuse to accept it.
I wish I could forget all of it.
It’s two in the morning;
I’m raging and mourning.
I’m unsure of what lies ahead.
I’m unpredictable in the head.
I’m killing myself with this substance.
I’m...
What will it take for me to stop?
I’d rather fake a smile than frown.
Consider me the happy sad clown.
Isolation, fear and depression.
What’s the reason for my obsession?
I’m here with all these questions.
No answers regarding resurrection.
I need help but I refuse to accept it.
I wish I could forget all of it.
It’s two in the morning;
I’m raging and mourning.
I’m unsure of what lies ahead.
I’m unpredictable in the head.
I’m killing myself with this substance.
I’m...
#sadness
#depression
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DRUGS POEM
Published
29th Feb 2024 8:13am
29th Feb 2024 8:13am
(26) Life As I Know It V.XIII.MMXV @ 4:04pm
Drugs ignite twisted perceptions.
Times are rough, that’s an expectation.
Everything the world does is meaningless.
Life keeps teaching us.
In the bathroom reflecting on events that occurred.
Scribbling it down as I’m flying like a bird.
Hoping one day these painful rhymes get recognized.
Miserable memories linger, my family cries.
Life’s a twisted dimension, swirling in circles.
Roaming dark alleyways, smoking on some purple.
I don’t have enough reasons to live nor end it.
Regardless, I can’t split.
I’m not the one...
Times are rough, that’s an expectation.
Everything the world does is meaningless.
Life keeps teaching us.
In the bathroom reflecting on events that occurred.
Scribbling it down as I’m flying like a bird.
Hoping one day these painful rhymes get recognized.
Miserable memories linger, my family cries.
Life’s a twisted dimension, swirling in circles.
Roaming dark alleyways, smoking on some purple.
I don’t have enough reasons to live nor end it.
Regardless, I can’t split.
I’m not the one...
#drugs
#addiction
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
26th Feb 2024 2:09pm
26th Feb 2024 2:09pm
(25) R.I.P. Shadow 12.16.23 @ 2:56pm
Part of me died on a Friday night.
I became heartless, running from the light.
Fucking theifs caught flight.
Sentimental possessions robbed on sight.
Fuck what the world has to say!
Nothing’s the same since that day.
It was my pride and joy.
It was more than a toy.
To everybody else, it’s just a material item.
If I saw who it was, I would fight him.
I had the world in the palm of my hands.
There’s no place I couldn’t go, I had plans.
Wishing this was all a dream.
Seeing it disappear, I wanted to scream.
A...
I became heartless, running from the light.
Fucking theifs caught flight.
Sentimental possessions robbed on sight.
Fuck what the world has to say!
Nothing’s the same since that day.
It was my pride and joy.
It was more than a toy.
To everybody else, it’s just a material item.
If I saw who it was, I would fight him.
I had the world in the palm of my hands.
There’s no place I couldn’t go, I had plans.
Wishing this was all a dream.
Seeing it disappear, I wanted to scream.
A...
#confessional
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
26th Feb 2024 2:03pm
26th Feb 2024 2:03pm
(23) My Brother (August 30th, 2023 @ 2:36am)
Nobody understands how much I love this little guy.
My brother’s the reason I’ll never commit suicide.
Never thought the both of us would get high.
Let alone together, it’s been one hell of a ride.
I want you to know, you are loved!
My brother’s name is Julio, truly beloved!
The love I carry for you rises higher than the sky above.
I hope you accept my apologies and cherish my eternal love.
This world’s full of hatred and misunderstandings.
Meanwhile we’re so high, we’re debating landing.
You helped me become more understanding. ...
My brother’s the reason I’ll never commit suicide.
Never thought the both of us would get high.
Let alone together, it’s been one hell of a ride.
I want you to know, you are loved!
My brother’s name is Julio, truly beloved!
The love I carry for you rises higher than the sky above.
I hope you accept my apologies and cherish my eternal love.
This world’s full of hatred and misunderstandings.
Meanwhile we’re so high, we’re debating landing.
You helped me become more understanding. ...
#brother
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
22nd Feb 2024 1:06pm
22nd Feb 2024 1:06pm
(22) Broken Apologies 12.07.23 @ 1:43am
The voices continue to taunt me, they never quit.
I’ve learned to cope with it.
Loneliness is dangerous when one drowns in sorrow.
Heads turn only to find dark memories of tomorrow.
The past contains resentment and misery.
Some of which may cause mental injury.
Overtime we will conquer it over a smoke.
Life is nothing but a cruel sick joke.
Kidnapped by amnesia, meanwhile.
I look outside the window with a fake smile.
Knowing it’ll never be easy to stay happy.
Nobody needs to know that.
Words can’t fix what’s broken;...
I’ve learned to cope with it.
Loneliness is dangerous when one drowns in sorrow.
Heads turn only to find dark memories of tomorrow.
The past contains resentment and misery.
Some of which may cause mental injury.
Overtime we will conquer it over a smoke.
Life is nothing but a cruel sick joke.
Kidnapped by amnesia, meanwhile.
I look outside the window with a fake smile.
Knowing it’ll never be easy to stay happy.
Nobody needs to know that.
Words can’t fix what’s broken;...
#SelfReflection
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SELF POEM
Published
22nd Feb 2024 1:01pm
22nd Feb 2024 1:01pm
(21) Apologetic thoughts 12.06.23 @ 3:10am
Alone in thought, aren’t we all?
Nobody knows what crosses my mind.
Reminiscing years ago, tears she shed.
By my side she stood, she’s gone now.
I’ve hurt you all, it was never my intention.
Rage takes the best of anybody.
Apologizing won’t fix broken mirrors & promises.
Many years ago, it all comes back when I get high.
I want to apologize for the wrong I’ve done.
Apologies for the pain and misery.
Broken apologies won’t patch up a wound.
Meaningless words can’t fix what’s broken.
For all that’s happened, I...
Nobody knows what crosses my mind.
Reminiscing years ago, tears she shed.
By my side she stood, she’s gone now.
I’ve hurt you all, it was never my intention.
Rage takes the best of anybody.
Apologizing won’t fix broken mirrors & promises.
Many years ago, it all comes back when I get high.
I want to apologize for the wrong I’ve done.
Apologies for the pain and misery.
Broken apologies won’t patch up a wound.
Meaningless words can’t fix what’s broken.
For all that’s happened, I...
#SelfReflection
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SELF POEM
Published
23rd Jan 2024 7:38am
23rd Jan 2024 7:38am
(20) Losing it 12.06.23 @ 2:27am
I’m very unhappy, desperate even.
I’m sick of all this, I’m ready to go.
I’m frustrated, depressed, angry and sad.
I’m tired of being alive, I’m tired of all the lies.
I’m fed up with the constant fear of death.
Torn apart as I’m stuck in the middle.
My outer anatomy has weakened rapidly.
Eyes at a blinding state, crashing down.
Heart rate a rapid pace, running.
Patience now a loss, it’s gone.
Happiness burnt through the flames.
Motivation wash down with pure gasoline.
I’m sorry Mom.
I’m sorry Dad.
I’m...
I’m sick of all this, I’m ready to go.
I’m frustrated, depressed, angry and sad.
I’m tired of being alive, I’m tired of all the lies.
I’m fed up with the constant fear of death.
Torn apart as I’m stuck in the middle.
My outer anatomy has weakened rapidly.
Eyes at a blinding state, crashing down.
Heart rate a rapid pace, running.
Patience now a loss, it’s gone.
Happiness burnt through the flames.
Motivation wash down with pure gasoline.
I’m sorry Mom.
I’m sorry Dad.
I’m...
#SelfReflection
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
23rd Jan 2024 7:33am
23rd Jan 2024 7:33am
(19) A Year Ago 12.06.23 @ 2:16am
My life in consideration, my existence.
I’m fed up with my problematic lifestyle!
Repenting every night before I close my eyes.
Though it ain’t perfect, life sure is worth it.
Regardless of what goes on in our everyday lives.
From the past & the pain, this is something I can say.
It’s the good times I had that runs through my head.
Not a single day goes by.
Without my constant wondering;
Why the time had to go, I don’t have an answer.
The rest of them got me agitated.
On these streets, looking for something.
...
I’m fed up with my problematic lifestyle!
Repenting every night before I close my eyes.
Though it ain’t perfect, life sure is worth it.
Regardless of what goes on in our everyday lives.
From the past & the pain, this is something I can say.
It’s the good times I had that runs through my head.
Not a single day goes by.
Without my constant wondering;
Why the time had to go, I don’t have an answer.
The rest of them got me agitated.
On these streets, looking for something.
...
#SelfReflection
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