Submissions by Darkness_Fiend (Highest Dope Fiend)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
(26) Life As I Know It V.XIII.MMXV @ 4:04pm
Drugs ignite twisted perceptions.
Times are rough, that’s an expectation.
Everything the world does is meaningless.
Life keeps teaching us.
In the bathroom reflecting on events that occurred.
Scribbling it down as I’m flying like a bird.
Hoping one day these painful rhymes get recognized.
Miserable memories linger, my family cries.
Life’s a twisted dimension, swirling in circles.
Roaming dark alleyways, smoking on some purple.
I don’t have enough reasons to live nor end it.
Regardless, I can’t split.
I’m not the one...
Times are rough, that’s an expectation.
Everything the world does is meaningless.
Life keeps teaching us.
In the bathroom reflecting on events that occurred.
Scribbling it down as I’m flying like a bird.
Hoping one day these painful rhymes get recognized.
Miserable memories linger, my family cries.
Life’s a twisted dimension, swirling in circles.
Roaming dark alleyways, smoking on some purple.
I don’t have enough reasons to live nor end it.
Regardless, I can’t split.
I’m not the one...
#drugs
#addiction
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(25) R.I.P. Shadow 12.16.23 @ 2:56pm
Part of me died on a Friday night.
I became heartless, running from the light.
Fucking theifs caught flight.
Sentimental possessions robbed on sight.
Fuck what the world has to say!
Nothing’s the same since that day.
It was my pride and joy.
It was more than a toy.
To everybody else, it’s just a material item.
If I saw who it was, I would fight him.
I had the world in the palm of my hands.
There’s no place I couldn’t go, I had plans.
Wishing this was all a dream.
Seeing it disappear, I wanted to scream.
A...
I became heartless, running from the light.
Fucking theifs caught flight.
Sentimental possessions robbed on sight.
Fuck what the world has to say!
Nothing’s the same since that day.
It was my pride and joy.
It was more than a toy.
To everybody else, it’s just a material item.
If I saw who it was, I would fight him.
I had the world in the palm of my hands.
There’s no place I couldn’t go, I had plans.
Wishing this was all a dream.
Seeing it disappear, I wanted to scream.
A...
#confessional
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(23) My Brother (August 30th, 2023 @ 2:36am)
Nobody understands how much I love this little guy.
My brother’s the reason I’ll never commit suicide.
Never thought the both of us would get high.
Let alone together, it’s been one hell of a ride.
I want you to know, you are loved!
My brother’s name is Julio, truly beloved!
The love I carry for you rises higher than the sky above.
I hope you accept my apologies and cherish my eternal love.
This world’s full of hatred and misunderstandings.
Meanwhile we’re so high, we’re debating landing.
You helped me become more understanding. ...
My brother’s the reason I’ll never commit suicide.
Never thought the both of us would get high.
Let alone together, it’s been one hell of a ride.
I want you to know, you are loved!
My brother’s name is Julio, truly beloved!
The love I carry for you rises higher than the sky above.
I hope you accept my apologies and cherish my eternal love.
This world’s full of hatred and misunderstandings.
Meanwhile we’re so high, we’re debating landing.
You helped me become more understanding. ...
#brother
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(22) Broken Apologies 12.07.23 @ 1:43am
The voices continue to taunt me, they never quit.
I’ve learned to cope with it.
Loneliness is dangerous when one drowns in sorrow.
Heads turn only to find dark memories of tomorrow.
The past contains resentment and misery.
Some of which may cause mental injury.
Overtime we will conquer it over a smoke.
Life is nothing but a cruel sick joke.
Kidnapped by amnesia, meanwhile.
I look outside the window with a fake smile.
Knowing it’ll never be easy to stay happy.
Nobody needs to know that.
Words can’t fix what’s broken;...
I’ve learned to cope with it.
Loneliness is dangerous when one drowns in sorrow.
Heads turn only to find dark memories of tomorrow.
The past contains resentment and misery.
Some of which may cause mental injury.
Overtime we will conquer it over a smoke.
Life is nothing but a cruel sick joke.
Kidnapped by amnesia, meanwhile.
I look outside the window with a fake smile.
Knowing it’ll never be easy to stay happy.
Nobody needs to know that.
Words can’t fix what’s broken;...
#SelfReflection
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(21) Apologetic thoughts 12.06.23 @ 3:10am
Alone in thought, aren’t we all?
Nobody knows what crosses my mind.
Reminiscing years ago, tears she shed.
By my side she stood, she’s gone now.
I’ve hurt you all, it was never my intention.
Rage takes the best of anybody.
Apologizing won’t fix broken mirrors & promises.
Many years ago, it all comes back when I get high.
I want to apologize for the wrong I’ve done.
Apologies for the pain and misery.
Broken apologies won’t patch up a wound.
Meaningless words can’t fix what’s broken.
For all that’s happened, I...
Nobody knows what crosses my mind.
Reminiscing years ago, tears she shed.
By my side she stood, she’s gone now.
I’ve hurt you all, it was never my intention.
Rage takes the best of anybody.
Apologizing won’t fix broken mirrors & promises.
Many years ago, it all comes back when I get high.
I want to apologize for the wrong I’ve done.
Apologies for the pain and misery.
Broken apologies won’t patch up a wound.
Meaningless words can’t fix what’s broken.
For all that’s happened, I...
#SelfReflection
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(20) Losing it 12.06.23 @ 2:27am
I’m very unhappy, desperate even.
I’m sick of all this, I’m ready to go.
I’m frustrated, depressed, angry and sad.
I’m tired of being alive, I’m tired of all the lies.
I’m fed up with the constant fear of death.
Torn apart as I’m stuck in the middle.
My outer anatomy has weakened rapidly.
Eyes at a blinding state, crashing down.
Heart rate a rapid pace, running.
Patience now a loss, it’s gone.
Happiness burnt through the flames.
Motivation wash down with pure gasoline.
I’m sorry Mom.
I’m sorry Dad.
I’m...
I’m sick of all this, I’m ready to go.
I’m frustrated, depressed, angry and sad.
I’m tired of being alive, I’m tired of all the lies.
I’m fed up with the constant fear of death.
Torn apart as I’m stuck in the middle.
My outer anatomy has weakened rapidly.
Eyes at a blinding state, crashing down.
Heart rate a rapid pace, running.
Patience now a loss, it’s gone.
Happiness burnt through the flames.
Motivation wash down with pure gasoline.
I’m sorry Mom.
I’m sorry Dad.
I’m...
#SelfReflection
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(19) A Year Ago 12.06.23 @ 2:16am
My life in consideration, my existence.
I’m fed up with my problematic lifestyle!
Repenting every night before I close my eyes.
Though it ain’t perfect, life sure is worth it.
Regardless of what goes on in our everyday lives.
From the past & the pain, this is something I can say.
It’s the good times I had that runs through my head.
Not a single day goes by.
Without my constant wondering;
Why the time had to go, I don’t have an answer.
The rest of them got me agitated.
On these streets, looking for something.
...
I’m fed up with my problematic lifestyle!
Repenting every night before I close my eyes.
Though it ain’t perfect, life sure is worth it.
Regardless of what goes on in our everyday lives.
From the past & the pain, this is something I can say.
It’s the good times I had that runs through my head.
Not a single day goes by.
Without my constant wondering;
Why the time had to go, I don’t have an answer.
The rest of them got me agitated.
On these streets, looking for something.
...
#SelfReflection
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(18) A Girl From Work 12.06.23 @ 12:51am
She’s pretty like most of them;
She caught my eye like a deer in the headlights.
Eyes brighter than the stars up above.
Innocence so pure, I could sing.
Days afterwards, she crossed my mind.
She took my breath away, wishing I could rewind;
That memorable moment where my mind’s blown.
Truth is, this time I’m not stoned.
I’m truly amazed, mindblown.
To tell you the truth.
I thought I’d never see the day.
My eyes would lay set on my future wife.
My soul is screaming from the inside.
Inner voice going crazy, I’m...
She caught my eye like a deer in the headlights.
Eyes brighter than the stars up above.
Innocence so pure, I could sing.
Days afterwards, she crossed my mind.
She took my breath away, wishing I could rewind;
That memorable moment where my mind’s blown.
Truth is, this time I’m not stoned.
I’m truly amazed, mindblown.
To tell you the truth.
I thought I’d never see the day.
My eyes would lay set on my future wife.
My soul is screaming from the inside.
Inner voice going crazy, I’m...
#FallingInLove
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(17) Neverending Misery 12.05.23 @ 11:14pm
Suicide on my mind.
Wishing I could reverse time, rewind.
The day will come, I will no longer be here.
Life won’t be a problem anymore, nothing to fear.
If waking up in the morning isn’t a blessing, what is?
Anger and hatred go hand in hand, what’s this?
Life’s overrated, here’s my reality.
Love is dead, death by fatality.
It shouldn’t be like this, life on earth.
What’s the concept of life really worth?
I’m tired of pretending like everything’s alright.
Eyes glowing red as I’m running from the light.
When the time...
Wishing I could reverse time, rewind.
The day will come, I will no longer be here.
Life won’t be a problem anymore, nothing to fear.
If waking up in the morning isn’t a blessing, what is?
Anger and hatred go hand in hand, what’s this?
Life’s overrated, here’s my reality.
Love is dead, death by fatality.
It shouldn’t be like this, life on earth.
What’s the concept of life really worth?
I’m tired of pretending like everything’s alright.
Eyes glowing red as I’m running from the light.
When the time...
#depression
#dark
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(13) How It Goes 11.28.23 @ 8:13pm
Semi-automatic twelve gage;
Police pursuing me on this rampage.
Call it how you see it, I’m saying fuck it till I die;
It’s a thrill being on this dangerous ride.
It's after hours & I’m on the I-405
Pushing my speedometer to 145.
Adrenaline makes me feel so alive.
It’s an orgasmic kind of high.
No regards for any potential outcomes.
Recurring chest pain as I feel numb.
Still popping benzodiazepines by the round;
Blowing marijuana smoke by the pound.
I’m a California fiend & it’s tough.
I’m dying...
Police pursuing me on this rampage.
Call it how you see it, I’m saying fuck it till I die;
It’s a thrill being on this dangerous ride.
It's after hours & I’m on the I-405
Pushing my speedometer to 145.
Adrenaline makes me feel so alive.
It’s an orgasmic kind of high.
No regards for any potential outcomes.
Recurring chest pain as I feel numb.
Still popping benzodiazepines by the round;
Blowing marijuana smoke by the pound.
I’m a California fiend & it’s tough.
I’m dying...
#addiction
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(12) Hopeless 11.27.23 @ 3:06am
Another day, getting high snorting dope.
Hopeless and fucking wreckless!
Life is something I don’t want to deal with.
Like the rest of us, I’m going through it.
I can’t take it anymore!
The pressure is killing my mental health.
The pressure is driving me insane!
My past haunts me in my everyday life.
I smile all the time, but my eyes tell another story.
Truth is, I’m tired of being a drug addict.
I’ve known for so long, thirteen years and counting.
It’s been on my mind, day and night.
I’ve been through so much; ...
Hopeless and fucking wreckless!
Life is something I don’t want to deal with.
Like the rest of us, I’m going through it.
I can’t take it anymore!
The pressure is killing my mental health.
The pressure is driving me insane!
My past haunts me in my everyday life.
I smile all the time, but my eyes tell another story.
Truth is, I’m tired of being a drug addict.
I’ve known for so long, thirteen years and counting.
It’s been on my mind, day and night.
I’ve been through so much; ...
#addiction
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(11) Life In The Dark 11/26/23 @ 4:26am
My fucking lights burnt out!
Let me show you what my life is about.
Darkrooms, where my soul flies in capacity.
My spirit is gruesome.
Falling apart, disintegrating inside.
Sorrow is what fuels the tunes playing.
I stay alive long enough to make it through the night.
I’ll dig my grave 6 feet before I take a jail sentence.
Dark spirit’s stop by to visit night after night.
Cold and dark shadowed appearance.
Whispering, “Let’s get high homie!”
Taunting me with temptation.
Adrenaline and dopamine go hand in hand. ...
Let me show you what my life is about.
Darkrooms, where my soul flies in capacity.
My spirit is gruesome.
Falling apart, disintegrating inside.
Sorrow is what fuels the tunes playing.
I stay alive long enough to make it through the night.
I’ll dig my grave 6 feet before I take a jail sentence.
Dark spirit’s stop by to visit night after night.
Cold and dark shadowed appearance.
Whispering, “Let’s get high homie!”
Taunting me with temptation.
Adrenaline and dopamine go hand in hand. ...
#spiritual
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