Submissions by DarkPopPrincess (Princess Alia)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
Writer from the grave XXX
NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
7th Jul 2024 9:34am
7th Jul 2024 9:34am
Now I Blame You
I used to blame myself for you leaving me.
I used to make excuses for you.
"I'm mentally ill."
"I'm a lost cause."
"I can't blame him for wanting to leave."
But I do. I do blame you now.
What the hell did I do to deserve this?
I guess I'll never know.
Probably nothing.
You're like Prince Facade in that old Zelda show. Pretty boy but doesn't want to get his hands dirty.
But you did regardless.
And now all I blame is you.
I used to make excuses for you.
"I'm mentally ill."
"I'm a lost cause."
"I can't blame him for wanting to leave."
But I do. I do blame you now.
What the hell did I do to deserve this?
I guess I'll never know.
Probably nothing.
You're like Prince Facade in that old Zelda show. Pretty boy but doesn't want to get his hands dirty.
But you did regardless.
And now all I blame is you.
#heartbroken
#MentalHealth
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FICTIONAL PROSE
Published
6th Jul 2024 4:29pm
6th Jul 2024 4:29pm
Free short version
#abuse
#romantic
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NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
5th Jul 2024 9:36pm
5th Jul 2024 9:36pm
Will Never Miss Highschool
I will never understand how anyone could miss those 4 bloody years.
4 bloody years of cramming 7 classes within one day.
4 bloody years of constant pressure to make great grades.
4 bloody years of not knowing who the hell you are.
4 bloody years of being stuck seeing people everyday who likely won't stick by your side when times get tough.
(I know all my friends didn't. Mental illness is just such a bitch to be around, ain't it? Love how you are all out living your lives together without me.)
4 bloody years of not really...
4 bloody years of cramming 7 classes within one day.
4 bloody years of constant pressure to make great grades.
4 bloody years of not knowing who the hell you are.
4 bloody years of being stuck seeing people everyday who likely won't stick by your side when times get tough.
(I know all my friends didn't. Mental illness is just such a bitch to be around, ain't it? Love how you are all out living your lives together without me.)
4 bloody years of not really...
#school
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NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
5th Jul 2024 8:54pm
5th Jul 2024 8:54pm
Complete indifference
"Good. I hope they're not mentally ill, so you don't discard of them later."
You tell me that they are, just like you.
"Even better. Now I know that I was never important to you. That maybe all you'll ever be for me was a fuck boi who screwed with me way too many times. But for someone else, you're the perfect soulmate."
I don't know what else will be a part of this conversation because it's all in my head anyway.
I know you'll probably never text me again, and I'm not holding my breath like I used to.
You love me when...
You tell me that they are, just like you.
"Even better. Now I know that I was never important to you. That maybe all you'll ever be for me was a fuck boi who screwed with me way too many times. But for someone else, you're the perfect soulmate."
I don't know what else will be a part of this conversation because it's all in my head anyway.
I know you'll probably never text me again, and I'm not holding my breath like I used to.
You love me when...
#heartbroken
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NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
23rd Jun 2024 7:50pm
23rd Jun 2024 7:50pm
The Heartbreaker
All I can be now is the heartbreaker.
I have no capacity left to be one of the heartbroken.
I once could feel so much. Now I feel so little.
Still stuck on you but numb.
I avoid relationships nowadays because I'm not afraid of losing the men I'm with.
I'm a hollow ghost, left without a trace.
Nothing to say.
I have no capacity left to be one of the heartbroken.
I once could feel so much. Now I feel so little.
Still stuck on you but numb.
I avoid relationships nowadays because I'm not afraid of losing the men I'm with.
I'm a hollow ghost, left without a trace.
Nothing to say.
#heartbroken
#love
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NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
16th Jun 2024 11:00pm
16th Jun 2024 11:00pm
Don't think there's a cure for this.
Sometimes, I'm tired of writing. I'm tired of playing my keyboard. I'm tired of trying to get this out of my mind when it never goes away.
I'm going to be a great pop star, I know it. I'm going to be a great influence to those around me.
But on a lonely night, I'm reminded of how you're not by my side and how it all of this feels meaningless. Pride tells me to stop writing about you. Pride tells me that you were never in love with me and that I just made it all up in my head. Pride tells me to never spill the full truth.
I know I'm a great friend, I know I'm a...
I'm going to be a great pop star, I know it. I'm going to be a great influence to those around me.
But on a lonely night, I'm reminded of how you're not by my side and how it all of this feels meaningless. Pride tells me to stop writing about you. Pride tells me that you were never in love with me and that I just made it all up in my head. Pride tells me to never spill the full truth.
I know I'm a great friend, I know I'm a...
#heartbroken
#love
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NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
15th Jun 2024 6:06pm
15th Jun 2024 6:06pm
Topic of Sex or Drugs Doesn't Diminish a Song's Value
No nudity, they say.
No drugs, they say.
No sex, they say.
Therefore, perfect song and video.
I don't respectfully disagree... I'm angry. Angry at this puritan bull crap.
Sometimes, I like the songs that just have the fluff; other times, it's those songs that dare to be controversial that I love.
I'll never understand this fucking world. Don't see what's wrong with me, a person who isn't offended by nudity. Isn't offended by the metaphors describing sex or lyrics about gangs seeking hard-hitting drugs.
Why is that less...
No drugs, they say.
No sex, they say.
Therefore, perfect song and video.
I don't respectfully disagree... I'm angry. Angry at this puritan bull crap.
Sometimes, I like the songs that just have the fluff; other times, it's those songs that dare to be controversial that I love.
I'll never understand this fucking world. Don't see what's wrong with me, a person who isn't offended by nudity. Isn't offended by the metaphors describing sex or lyrics about gangs seeking hard-hitting drugs.
Why is that less...
#drugs
#music
#sex
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NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
15th Jun 2024 5:25pm
15th Jun 2024 5:25pm
Music: the highest art form
Not everyone can say they love books.
Not everyone can say they love paintings.
Not everyone can say they love video games.
Not everyone can say they love photography.
Not everyone can say they TV shows or movies.
But everyone can say they love music. Never heard a person complain there. Ever.
If a picture speaks a thousand words, then music speaks a million more.
If a book offers a cookie cutter solution, then music offers validation for the experience of our souls.
If paintings are still, then music is...
Not everyone can say they love paintings.
Not everyone can say they love video games.
Not everyone can say they love photography.
Not everyone can say they TV shows or movies.
But everyone can say they love music. Never heard a person complain there. Ever.
If a picture speaks a thousand words, then music speaks a million more.
If a book offers a cookie cutter solution, then music offers validation for the experience of our souls.
If paintings are still, then music is...
#music
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NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
14th Jun 2024 11:46am
14th Jun 2024 11:46am
The Forever Agnostic
I'm glad I stopped going to church a few weeks ago. I didn't like that the Bible study leader expressed that I was a hypocrite for simply expressing how I felt about the church. He also yelled at me once in a way they he never yelled at anyone else.
I'm convinced that this is not the group for me. That church in general is not for me. I never met a single close friend. The Christians are never the ones who even go out of their way for me. It's always my more skeptical friends who are willing to go in the mud with me. Christians, with their pearly white garments, don't want to look...
I'm convinced that this is not the group for me. That church in general is not for me. I never met a single close friend. The Christians are never the ones who even go out of their way for me. It's always my more skeptical friends who are willing to go in the mud with me. Christians, with their pearly white garments, don't want to look...
#Christian
#religion
227 reads
8 Comments
NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
13th Jun 2024 11:47am
13th Jun 2024 11:47am
Honoring my reserved ways
I told my friend last night that if I ever had to get a new therapist, I wouldn't bother. That I'm so attached to the one I have now, that I literally have zero energy to let someone new in.
It's the same with you. I don't know entirely why my feelings can't be legit or valid there. Why I'm wrong for preferring someone I have a history with. Why I'm wrong for being too worn down by this point to date. I see it in my mind- a picture of me and someone new. I see our photoshopped smiles, and all I see is empty. Call me negative. Call me a lost cause. Call me stubborn. But yes, while I...
It's the same with you. I don't know entirely why my feelings can't be legit or valid there. Why I'm wrong for preferring someone I have a history with. Why I'm wrong for being too worn down by this point to date. I see it in my mind- a picture of me and someone new. I see our photoshopped smiles, and all I see is empty. Call me negative. Call me a lost cause. Call me stubborn. But yes, while I...
#love
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Published
12th Jun 2024 3:40pm
12th Jun 2024 3:40pm
Fearless
Another page of you written all over this screen.
Another bloody rose leaving its trail
that I always hope you'd never find.
Roses are red,
violets are blue,
Breaking the chains of fear
and showing you the truth.
See, when I write, I'm no longer afraid. I can trust how beautiful life is and how beautiful my love for you has changed me. I may be afraid I'll never let go. I may be afraid that I keep making the wrong decisions. I may be afraid it's all my fault.
But when I write, I feel like the title of my book- Free.
In my head,...
Another bloody rose leaving its trail
that I always hope you'd never find.
Roses are red,
violets are blue,
Breaking the chains of fear
and showing you the truth.
See, when I write, I'm no longer afraid. I can trust how beautiful life is and how beautiful my love for you has changed me. I may be afraid I'll never let go. I may be afraid that I keep making the wrong decisions. I may be afraid it's all my fault.
But when I write, I feel like the title of my book- Free.
In my head,...
#fear
#hope
#love
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NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
12th Jun 2024 2:14am
12th Jun 2024 2:14am
Deserve
They say you don't deserve me. They say you were bad for leaving me. They say not to make excuses for you. They say, they say.
But what about me? What about how I feel? You can say that I deserve better, but where's better? Been 8 years bro, and I've tried and tried. Does no one see my efforts? Does no one see that I've been on a million dates and still don't feel anything? Does no one see that I've been in therapy all this time, that I've written a thousand ways to get this out of my mind when it never leaves? Is that truly my fault?
I'm tired of hearing it's my fault...
But what about me? What about how I feel? You can say that I deserve better, but where's better? Been 8 years bro, and I've tried and tried. Does no one see my efforts? Does no one see that I've been on a million dates and still don't feel anything? Does no one see that I've been in therapy all this time, that I've written a thousand ways to get this out of my mind when it never leaves? Is that truly my fault?
I'm tired of hearing it's my fault...
#FallingInLove
#love
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