Submissions by Cinny
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
DARK POEM
Published
11th Dec 2012 5:42am
11th Dec 2012 5:42am
So I Vanished
I am reminded so much of my ugly
and cruel ways. My flaws are painfully
clear and pointed out, shoved in my
face like a dog's nose is shoved in
spit.
You words are all digging so deep but
I keep smiling like they don't. I just
wanted to know what it was like to be
called pretty for once.
I don't want to be a tragedy, I don't
want to be ugly and cruel and fat and
stupid and a failure.
I want to be beautiful, I want to be
cherished and wanted and loved but I know
that I never will.
I didn't want to cry anymore, or...
and cruel ways. My flaws are painfully
clear and pointed out, shoved in my
face like a dog's nose is shoved in
spit.
You words are all digging so deep but
I keep smiling like they don't. I just
wanted to know what it was like to be
called pretty for once.
I don't want to be a tragedy, I don't
want to be ugly and cruel and fat and
stupid and a failure.
I want to be beautiful, I want to be
cherished and wanted and loved but I know
that I never will.
I didn't want to cry anymore, or...
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NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
10th Dec 2012 5:23pm
10th Dec 2012 5:23pm
Rainbows, Lollipops, and f**k YOU.
excerpt 2 ]
In sixth grade, she was becoming more and more merciless and I planned out the homicide, but she moved before I could act on the impulse to do it. I’m grateful for that, I don’t think I would’ve made it with a death on my head and her blood on my hands, no matter how much I hated her and how she made me feel like a dirty mutt who didn’t deserve kindness. Despite her cruelty to me, I forgave her in my heart for the sole reason that her cruelty made me stronger and more independent. Her words still stick in me like knives to this day, ‘fat’,’ugly’,’stupid’,’weirdo’, words...
In sixth grade, she was becoming more and more merciless and I planned out the homicide, but she moved before I could act on the impulse to do it. I’m grateful for that, I don’t think I would’ve made it with a death on my head and her blood on my hands, no matter how much I hated her and how she made me feel like a dirty mutt who didn’t deserve kindness. Despite her cruelty to me, I forgave her in my heart for the sole reason that her cruelty made me stronger and more independent. Her words still stick in me like knives to this day, ‘fat’,’ugly’,’stupid’,’weirdo’, words...
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NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
10th Dec 2012 3:55pm
10th Dec 2012 3:55pm
Rainbows, Lollipops, and f**k YOU.
This is a small excerpt from an autobiography I wrote ]
Around the time I was about to be 14, our dog Sioux died. We abused him so much. No one cared about anyone or anything, everyone was so lost in themselves, and we let the dog starve in a cage. No one ever walked him, he always yelped and we screamed for him to shut up and we’d smack him or shake the cage roughly to scare him. He died due to starvation, I discovered his body when I was bringing him food. He’d been dead for a day and I’d just gotten home from my dad’s. His death was blamed on me, my mom called me a monster and...
Around the time I was about to be 14, our dog Sioux died. We abused him so much. No one cared about anyone or anything, everyone was so lost in themselves, and we let the dog starve in a cage. No one ever walked him, he always yelped and we screamed for him to shut up and we’d smack him or shake the cage roughly to scare him. He died due to starvation, I discovered his body when I was bringing him food. He’d been dead for a day and I’d just gotten home from my dad’s. His death was blamed on me, my mom called me a monster and...
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LOVE POEM
Published
10th Dec 2012 7:16am
10th Dec 2012 7:16am
Your Lie
I want to find myself somehow in
your arms again right now.
I am so alone, I feel so cold and
empty and hollow inside of this
shadowed world.
You're a cruel man with no heart
for an honest and true woman like
myself, only because my smile is
crooked and I am a bit heavier set
than that other girl.
You still lie and say you love me
but I truly wished that the sensations
in my numbing body would wash away my
knowledge of the truth so that for
just one last night I can sit and listen
to your breathing.
One more...
your arms again right now.
I am so alone, I feel so cold and
empty and hollow inside of this
shadowed world.
You're a cruel man with no heart
for an honest and true woman like
myself, only because my smile is
crooked and I am a bit heavier set
than that other girl.
You still lie and say you love me
but I truly wished that the sensations
in my numbing body would wash away my
knowledge of the truth so that for
just one last night I can sit and listen
to your breathing.
One more...
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SELF POEM
Published
10th Dec 2012 7:13am
10th Dec 2012 7:13am
Rainbow Girl
If anyone knows how to smile at you
it is definitely me.
I am the best type of person but only
while I am pretending to be so truly
and very happy.
When you see the blue shades of my rainbow
though, surely you will retreat from me until
the bright and mellow yellow returns in
my face.
The moment haughty red begins to seep out
in my anger, you will run away until lovely
pink is once again coloring my cheeks.
I just want this rain to wash me away because
when it falls upon me, I am able to be black
and white, monochrome...
it is definitely me.
I am the best type of person but only
while I am pretending to be so truly
and very happy.
When you see the blue shades of my rainbow
though, surely you will retreat from me until
the bright and mellow yellow returns in
my face.
The moment haughty red begins to seep out
in my anger, you will run away until lovely
pink is once again coloring my cheeks.
I just want this rain to wash me away because
when it falls upon me, I am able to be black
and white, monochrome...
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UPBEAT INSPIRATIONAL POEM
Published
7th Dec 2012 6:47am
7th Dec 2012 6:47am
Joy With You
When we are sitting together and
joking in such a happy way, I am
so truly happy inside.
My close friends who always pick me
up when I am down and the world is
crashing around me, what would I do
without the joy you all provide my
wayward heart?
It's astounding just the amount of
impact you all have upon me.
I build up fake strength, but around
you I am able to show my true fragile
side of my heart and be loved even more
for it.
The joy I feel with all of you leaves
me happy to be alive still, standing before...
joking in such a happy way, I am
so truly happy inside.
My close friends who always pick me
up when I am down and the world is
crashing around me, what would I do
without the joy you all provide my
wayward heart?
It's astounding just the amount of
impact you all have upon me.
I build up fake strength, but around
you I am able to show my true fragile
side of my heart and be loved even more
for it.
The joy I feel with all of you leaves
me happy to be alive still, standing before...
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LOVE POEM
Published
7th Dec 2012 6:27am
7th Dec 2012 6:27am
Trying Not To Fall
There are many things in life we try to avoid,
like death and shadows of past memories that
frighten us so deeply.
My biggest fear is love, vulnerability to another
just in an attempts to somehow achieve a deep and
understanding joy?
Seems exhausting, sounds pointless, and I'm sure
it'd end in disappointment.
When you come near I try to make my heart stop
racing and my cheeks stop heating up, but it seems
like a useless battle.
An unarmed man, swinging his fists at hundreds of
men in heavy armor with heavy blades riding upon...
like death and shadows of past memories that
frighten us so deeply.
My biggest fear is love, vulnerability to another
just in an attempts to somehow achieve a deep and
understanding joy?
Seems exhausting, sounds pointless, and I'm sure
it'd end in disappointment.
When you come near I try to make my heart stop
racing and my cheeks stop heating up, but it seems
like a useless battle.
An unarmed man, swinging his fists at hundreds of
men in heavy armor with heavy blades riding upon...
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LOVE POEM
Published
3rd Dec 2012 8:38pm
3rd Dec 2012 8:38pm
Why Did You Go?
A cold winter night on Christmas Eve
and you are running away into the dark
snow, running away.
I'm so cold, why aren't you here and
holding me to warm me up?
Why are you leaving me here alone?
I must be a cruel person, worthless
and pathetic, I must be the type of
person who deserves to only be alone.
Love won't shine in my heart anymore,
you took the light with you.
I scream in my tear-struck denial,
but I'm screaming silently as the cold
air scratches at my throat.
Whimpering and panting in tearful grief....
and you are running away into the dark
snow, running away.
I'm so cold, why aren't you here and
holding me to warm me up?
Why are you leaving me here alone?
I must be a cruel person, worthless
and pathetic, I must be the type of
person who deserves to only be alone.
Love won't shine in my heart anymore,
you took the light with you.
I scream in my tear-struck denial,
but I'm screaming silently as the cold
air scratches at my throat.
Whimpering and panting in tearful grief....
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LOVE POEM
Published
3rd Dec 2012 8:35pm
3rd Dec 2012 8:35pm
My Tears
My tears are so blue,
but only 10% of them is
actual liquid.
I am trying hard to keep
my head above the raging
water, but it's so hard
when I can't look forward
to resurfacing to you.
My tears are drowning me.
I want to fall down and die
slowly, now that you're not
here I just want to remain
alone and quiet.
Say no more, because I've
finally had enough.
I don't want to believe you're
gone now.
I can't recognize you're not
mine anymore.
I shed my tears for someone
who will never...
but only 10% of them is
actual liquid.
I am trying hard to keep
my head above the raging
water, but it's so hard
when I can't look forward
to resurfacing to you.
My tears are drowning me.
I want to fall down and die
slowly, now that you're not
here I just want to remain
alone and quiet.
Say no more, because I've
finally had enough.
I don't want to believe you're
gone now.
I can't recognize you're not
mine anymore.
I shed my tears for someone
who will never...
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OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
27th Nov 2012 9:27pm
27th Nov 2012 9:27pm
Life is Fickle
Surprise,
You are still alive!
Another day begins
so normally.
An annoying riddle,
Appeal and feel,
but only if it's real.
People are so fickle,
so continue making jokes
and laugh so happily at
everything.
Love is a piece of gum
that everyone keeps replacing!
No care, no care!
Weighed down by your regrets
but everyone smiles as you
are floating in open sea in a
boat, the girl saying, "There's
no room for you and me."
Out you go!!
...
You are still alive!
Another day begins
so normally.
An annoying riddle,
Appeal and feel,
but only if it's real.
People are so fickle,
so continue making jokes
and laugh so happily at
everything.
Love is a piece of gum
that everyone keeps replacing!
No care, no care!
Weighed down by your regrets
but everyone smiles as you
are floating in open sea in a
boat, the girl saying, "There's
no room for you and me."
Out you go!!
...
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SELF POEM
Published
23rd Nov 2012 8:55pm
23rd Nov 2012 8:55pm
Green Eyes
She has green eyes, with lashes
so long.
Petal pink lips separating to give
birth to words that will spin around
and around in your brain, keeping your
attention faithfully.
Skin pale, and so soft to the touch.
Humble heart, looking into mirrors and
seeing only her self-inflicted scars, but
not the ones caused by others.
Hold no grudges and hold warmth inside
her mind for all, even those who have wronged
her so bad.
Those green eyes will always sparkle for
you, no matter who you are.
Friendly, kind, and...
so long.
Petal pink lips separating to give
birth to words that will spin around
and around in your brain, keeping your
attention faithfully.
Skin pale, and so soft to the touch.
Humble heart, looking into mirrors and
seeing only her self-inflicted scars, but
not the ones caused by others.
Hold no grudges and hold warmth inside
her mind for all, even those who have wronged
her so bad.
Those green eyes will always sparkle for
you, no matter who you are.
Friendly, kind, and...
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LOVE POEM
Published
22nd Nov 2012 8:24am
22nd Nov 2012 8:24am
Blue Lilies (Pt. 2)
The lily is purity, so I will
dirty those petals of innocence
with the tears brought by deceit
and dishonesty.
May each petal slowly be tainted
with the blue emotions mixed into
my tears.
I pray the salt of this liquid will
devour each and every pure aspect
of these lilies until Hell is within
each petal.
Lilies are purity and innocence in a
single flower, but the only lilies I
seem to ever look upon are those of the
deepest blue.
The darkness in my mind consuming any inch
of white upon those petals and...
dirty those petals of innocence
with the tears brought by deceit
and dishonesty.
May each petal slowly be tainted
with the blue emotions mixed into
my tears.
I pray the salt of this liquid will
devour each and every pure aspect
of these lilies until Hell is within
each petal.
Lilies are purity and innocence in a
single flower, but the only lilies I
seem to ever look upon are those of the
deepest blue.
The darkness in my mind consuming any inch
of white upon those petals and...
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