Submissions by ChoaticGoddess (ShyG)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
14th May 2019 11:13pm
14th May 2019 11:13pm
A Symptom of Life
It's been a while since I posted at all but I just wanted to put this out there that I published my book.
It's called, "A Symptom of Life" and is only available for purchase on Amazon
It's called, "A Symptom of Life" and is only available for purchase on Amazon
#LifeAsAWriter
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LOVE POEM
Published
2nd Mar 2019 4:37am
2nd Mar 2019 4:37am
Picture Not So Perfect
Imagine this
A picturesque life with the woman you wanted to make your wife.
Then out of the blue that picture went up in flames.
And you're the one to blame.
You were all she asked for in a man.
But at some point you decided to back down and take a different stance.
While she wept and begged,
You moved on and changed.
She was trying to be better.
But you had to go and wreck her.
Asking herself, "What went wrong?
I thought we were going strong."
She is fighting for you,
Why is it that you left her feeling blue?
Did you...
A picturesque life with the woman you wanted to make your wife.
Then out of the blue that picture went up in flames.
And you're the one to blame.
You were all she asked for in a man.
But at some point you decided to back down and take a different stance.
While she wept and begged,
You moved on and changed.
She was trying to be better.
But you had to go and wreck her.
Asking herself, "What went wrong?
I thought we were going strong."
She is fighting for you,
Why is it that you left her feeling blue?
Did you...
#heartbroken
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LOVE POEM
Published
1st Mar 2019 7:39pm
1st Mar 2019 7:39pm
Second Best
Nothing in this life makes sense.
All my life I've been second best.
Broken down and thrown around.
Treated like a sad clown.
I thought I'd finally made it,
When you crash landed into my world.
I felt like a little school girl.
Blushing and giggling.
Heart beating like a humming bird.
Now I know that how I had felt was absurd.
You threw me away just like the rest
After telling me time and time again
That you were the best of the best.
It was such a lie.
You abandoned me without a second guess.
Leaving me a sobbing...
All my life I've been second best.
Broken down and thrown around.
Treated like a sad clown.
I thought I'd finally made it,
When you crash landed into my world.
I felt like a little school girl.
Blushing and giggling.
Heart beating like a humming bird.
Now I know that how I had felt was absurd.
You threw me away just like the rest
After telling me time and time again
That you were the best of the best.
It was such a lie.
You abandoned me without a second guess.
Leaving me a sobbing...
#heartbroken
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
1st Mar 2019 2:42am
1st Mar 2019 2:42am
Untitled
It's getting worse again...
And they think by saying, "cheer up."
It'll stop the onslaught of demons running amuck in my head.
It's as if they don't understand that I know I have so much to be grateful for.
I have a chemical imbalance in my brain that makes sunshine feel like rain
I have to take this medication,
just to feel like I'm in control.
Then I'm told that I act like a six year old?
I know other people have their pasts
But that shouldn't mean that mine, my pain, isn't validated.
Telling me that one day people are going to get sick...
And they think by saying, "cheer up."
It'll stop the onslaught of demons running amuck in my head.
It's as if they don't understand that I know I have so much to be grateful for.
I have a chemical imbalance in my brain that makes sunshine feel like rain
I have to take this medication,
just to feel like I'm in control.
Then I'm told that I act like a six year old?
I know other people have their pasts
But that shouldn't mean that mine, my pain, isn't validated.
Telling me that one day people are going to get sick...
#depression
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LOVE POEM
Published
1st Mar 2019 2:41am
1st Mar 2019 2:41am
Curtain Call
Imagine this
A picturesque life with the woman you wanted to make your wife.
Then out of the blue that picture went up in flames.
And you're the one to blame.
You were all she asked for in a man.
But at some point you decided to back down and take a different stance.
While she wept and begged,
You moved on and changed.
She was trying to be better.
But you had to go and wreck her.
Asking herself, "What went wrong?
I thought we were going strong."
She is fighting for you,
Why is it that you left her feeling blue?
Did you...
A picturesque life with the woman you wanted to make your wife.
Then out of the blue that picture went up in flames.
And you're the one to blame.
You were all she asked for in a man.
But at some point you decided to back down and take a different stance.
While she wept and begged,
You moved on and changed.
She was trying to be better.
But you had to go and wreck her.
Asking herself, "What went wrong?
I thought we were going strong."
She is fighting for you,
Why is it that you left her feeling blue?
Did you...
#love
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DARK POEM
Published
30th Dec 2018 3:32am
30th Dec 2018 3:32am
Rehab
I remember it vividly.
My cries and you yelling at me.
The sound of your belt hitting my skin.
The shouting,"you cry and I'll do it again."
Pulling on extra pants so it won't hurt as bad when I hear the belt buckle jingling.
The screaming inside that masked the sound of a little girls innocence dying.
My mothers lying.
The cover ups and shut ups.
The " you did this to yourself. You deserved it," moments.
The years of violent flashbacks that aide in the harshness of my anxiety attacks.
The gun lock on the fridge..
Because, at fourteen,...
My cries and you yelling at me.
The sound of your belt hitting my skin.
The shouting,"you cry and I'll do it again."
Pulling on extra pants so it won't hurt as bad when I hear the belt buckle jingling.
The screaming inside that masked the sound of a little girls innocence dying.
My mothers lying.
The cover ups and shut ups.
The " you did this to yourself. You deserved it," moments.
The years of violent flashbacks that aide in the harshness of my anxiety attacks.
The gun lock on the fridge..
Because, at fourteen,...
#sadness
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DARK POEM
Published
30th Dec 2018 3:31am
30th Dec 2018 3:31am
YOUNG GIRL
When I was a young girl the only thing I knew was being second best.
I was never able to keep up with the rest.
My friends and family left me in the dust
My heart turned stone cold.
And like metal, it began to rust.
No foundation of trust.
The only constant was this boy.
I would wait by the phone for hours on end.
When his message would light up my screen,
All of the anguish would vanish.
I was never able to keep up with the rest.
My friends and family left me in the dust
My heart turned stone cold.
And like metal, it began to rust.
No foundation of trust.
The only constant was this boy.
I would wait by the phone for hours on end.
When his message would light up my screen,
All of the anguish would vanish.
#sadness
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DARK POEM
Published
27th Oct 2018 9:35pm
27th Oct 2018 9:35pm
Make It Stop
I feel like I'm falling apart again.
Everything blurring together in my head.
My heart is racing,
My soul is aching.
Am I a failure?
Wasting my life away on pointless endeavers.
Can I be normal for a minute,
And stop the screaming in my head.
Stop the shaking that is consuming me with dread.
The sleepless nights are getting worse.
They make it so that everyday I repeat the lines that I've rehearsed.
"Yeah, I'm okay. Thanks for asking."
When they don't know the...
Everything blurring together in my head.
My heart is racing,
My soul is aching.
Am I a failure?
Wasting my life away on pointless endeavers.
Can I be normal for a minute,
And stop the screaming in my head.
Stop the shaking that is consuming me with dread.
The sleepless nights are getting worse.
They make it so that everyday I repeat the lines that I've rehearsed.
"Yeah, I'm okay. Thanks for asking."
When they don't know the...
#sadness
#anxiety
#loneliness #frustration
#loneliness #frustration
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DARK POEM
Published
27th Oct 2018 9:33pm
27th Oct 2018 9:33pm
I'm So Sick of My Depression
I'm so sick of my depression.
They say every moment is supposed to be a lesson.
What does constantly feeling like there's a whole in your chest going to teach you?
Nothing.
Just suffering.
You scream in your head,
Begging for the pain to end.
"you don't want to die, you just want to be saved."
I'm not that brave.
"You're so strong."
Oh, you couldn't be more wrong.
When I'm alone, the very foundation of my being quakes.
My heart breaks for the girl I used to be. ...
They say every moment is supposed to be a lesson.
What does constantly feeling like there's a whole in your chest going to teach you?
Nothing.
Just suffering.
You scream in your head,
Begging for the pain to end.
"you don't want to die, you just want to be saved."
I'm not that brave.
"You're so strong."
Oh, you couldn't be more wrong.
When I'm alone, the very foundation of my being quakes.
My heart breaks for the girl I used to be. ...
#sadness
#anxiety
#frustration
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LOVE POEM
Published
15th Oct 2018 4:33am
15th Oct 2018 4:33am
Baby, I'm Alright
Being in your arms is like being in a dream,
One that I don't want to wake up from and face reality.
You make me feel free,
Make me feel seen.
Make my heart burst at it's seams.
My thoughts are a jumbled mess,
Everytime I feel stressed.
But when it comes to you there's nothing but unbelievable clarity.
You take my heart and cherish it's rarity.
The way you smile, makes my heart beat 377.6 miles..
Your lips on my skin, make me realize that I am just as beautiful outside as I am within.
The feel of your skin pressed...
One that I don't want to wake up from and face reality.
You make me feel free,
Make me feel seen.
Make my heart burst at it's seams.
My thoughts are a jumbled mess,
Everytime I feel stressed.
But when it comes to you there's nothing but unbelievable clarity.
You take my heart and cherish it's rarity.
The way you smile, makes my heart beat 377.6 miles..
Your lips on my skin, make me realize that I am just as beautiful outside as I am within.
The feel of your skin pressed...
#boyfriend
#romantic
#ILoveYou #FallingInLove
#ILoveYou #FallingInLove
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
14th Aug 2018 6:40pm
14th Aug 2018 6:40pm
Her smile
When you first meet her she greets you with a blinding smile.
one that takes the mile just to meet her eyes.
She seems shy.
She pulls herself away from all the guys.
As time goes on, and she gets comfortable, you start to realize why her happiness is so tangible.
Why when she laughs her belly shakes.
When she smiles its almost like earthquakes.
All because the things that bring her joy tend to come and go.
And a lot of times that smile is just for show.
A brave face is her facade.
But inside she's fighting a battle that just...
one that takes the mile just to meet her eyes.
She seems shy.
She pulls herself away from all the guys.
As time goes on, and she gets comfortable, you start to realize why her happiness is so tangible.
Why when she laughs her belly shakes.
When she smiles its almost like earthquakes.
All because the things that bring her joy tend to come and go.
And a lot of times that smile is just for show.
A brave face is her facade.
But inside she's fighting a battle that just...
#sadness
#emptiness
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SELF POEM
Published
11th Aug 2018 4:44am
11th Aug 2018 4:44am
Beautiful Lie
Born to a world of hatred and hipocrosy.
All she feels in her heart is non stop misery.
Forgotten and broken,
Chained to her memories,
Pain is what she is carrying.
Day to day she pretends that she's alright.
but when the sun goes to she cries,
Like a spirit wailing in the night.
Overwhelmed with her reality,
Everyday she feels like she is inahling broken glass,
Like the titan Atlas she feels as if she has the weight of the world on her shoulders...
Someone please remove...
All she feels in her heart is non stop misery.
Forgotten and broken,
Chained to her memories,
Pain is what she is carrying.
Day to day she pretends that she's alright.
but when the sun goes to she cries,
Like a spirit wailing in the night.
Overwhelmed with her reality,
Everyday she feels like she is inahling broken glass,
Like the titan Atlas she feels as if she has the weight of the world on her shoulders...
Someone please remove...
#sadness
#despair
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