Submissions by BlackCarol
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
Writing is my Passion. My way of expressing myself ☺️
SELF POEM
Published
15th Jul 2014 9:47am
15th Jul 2014 9:47am
Nobody knows
Nobody knows what I've been through
Nobody realizes the pain
The pain that envelops me
The pain that never lets go
Nobody knows how I feel
Nobody sees the tears
I hide how I feel
I hide all my fears
Thus utterly fake smile
Which lies upon my face
Is there all the time
I feel like im in exile
I wish I could give them a taste
A taste of what im going through
A taste of all the pain
maybe then they will see
Why I feel so insane
Nobody knows the obstacles I've faced
Nobody seems to give a damn
I won't...
Nobody realizes the pain
The pain that envelops me
The pain that never lets go
Nobody knows how I feel
Nobody sees the tears
I hide how I feel
I hide all my fears
Thus utterly fake smile
Which lies upon my face
Is there all the time
I feel like im in exile
I wish I could give them a taste
A taste of what im going through
A taste of all the pain
maybe then they will see
Why I feel so insane
Nobody knows the obstacles I've faced
Nobody seems to give a damn
I won't...
817 reads
6 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
15th Jul 2014 6:29am
15th Jul 2014 6:29am
Tossing and turning
Tossing and turning
I can't sleep at night
My hair I am pulling
Things don't seem right
I ache down to my very core
Maybe if I weren't so sore
I could sleep more
And have dreams galore
My dreams take me away
To a place with no pain
Its my only escape
Away from the mundane
But when I awake
The pain is still there
Oh for God's sake
I just can not bear
The pain that's inside
The pain that I feel
I just want to hide
And pretend its not real
I can't sleep at night
My hair I am pulling
Things don't seem right
I ache down to my very core
Maybe if I weren't so sore
I could sleep more
And have dreams galore
My dreams take me away
To a place with no pain
Its my only escape
Away from the mundane
But when I awake
The pain is still there
Oh for God's sake
I just can not bear
The pain that's inside
The pain that I feel
I just want to hide
And pretend its not real
706 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
11th Jul 2014 3:02am
11th Jul 2014 3:02am
Screw you
I only smoke when I drink
I only drink to get drunk
Escape from everything I think
Escape from this life I am stuck
I only smoke to get high
High up in space
Not feel I need to cry
Not feel so disgraced
Tired of the lies
Tired of all the pain
Sick of hurting inside
Sick of being too tame
Sick and tired of being sick and tired
Sick of being to blame
So the joint I light
And the alcohol I drink
It gives me great delight
It gives me a break
and time to think
Dont judge me, dont...
I only drink to get drunk
Escape from everything I think
Escape from this life I am stuck
I only smoke to get high
High up in space
Not feel I need to cry
Not feel so disgraced
Tired of the lies
Tired of all the pain
Sick of hurting inside
Sick of being too tame
Sick and tired of being sick and tired
Sick of being to blame
So the joint I light
And the alcohol I drink
It gives me great delight
It gives me a break
and time to think
Dont judge me, dont...
714 reads
6 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
10th Jul 2014 3:03am
10th Jul 2014 3:03am
Pain and insanity
Sick of the pain
Its driving me insane
Why did this happen to me?
I wish to be set free
Free from this body
Which drags me down
Free from the drugs
Free from this town
Nobody seens to understand
This pain I'm going through
Its like suffocating under quick sand
With each breath the pain grew
The meds don't help much
They just add more suffering
There's no way a human can withstand so much
Pain or such misery
I want to sleeo
And never wake up
This pain is so deep
Think I've had...
Its driving me insane
Why did this happen to me?
I wish to be set free
Free from this body
Which drags me down
Free from the drugs
Free from this town
Nobody seens to understand
This pain I'm going through
Its like suffocating under quick sand
With each breath the pain grew
The meds don't help much
They just add more suffering
There's no way a human can withstand so much
Pain or such misery
I want to sleeo
And never wake up
This pain is so deep
Think I've had...
795 reads
4 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
29th Jun 2014 5:27am
29th Jun 2014 5:27am
I smoke
I smoke to forget
About my shitty life
And all the things in it
I smoke to relax
Not worry about life
And the pain, I forget
I smoke to escape
From reality
From the pain
From the depression
From it all
But after I smoke
Things seem more clear
More real
More painful
More depressing
I ask myself more questions
Wonder how things ended up this way
Why havent I done more?
Even though I am limited
Why does it have to be me?
Why did this have to happen to me?
What did I do to deserve this?...
About my shitty life
And all the things in it
I smoke to relax
Not worry about life
And the pain, I forget
I smoke to escape
From reality
From the pain
From the depression
From it all
But after I smoke
Things seem more clear
More real
More painful
More depressing
I ask myself more questions
Wonder how things ended up this way
Why havent I done more?
Even though I am limited
Why does it have to be me?
Why did this have to happen to me?
What did I do to deserve this?...
766 reads
12 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
26th Jun 2014 6:52am
26th Jun 2014 6:52am
Contradictions
You make me happy, make me smile
You twll the truth and then you lie
Make me sad, make me frown
Make me laugh, make me cry
You look confused and ask me why
You are constant but contradictory
You lose your battles but claim victory
You are up, then back down
You yell so loud, but make no sound
This is intense
Doesn't make sense
I must leave, can not stay
Can not continue to live this way
I pity you
You'll never be complete
You know its true
And admit your defeat
You twll the truth and then you lie
Make me sad, make me frown
Make me laugh, make me cry
You look confused and ask me why
You are constant but contradictory
You lose your battles but claim victory
You are up, then back down
You yell so loud, but make no sound
This is intense
Doesn't make sense
I must leave, can not stay
Can not continue to live this way
I pity you
You'll never be complete
You know its true
And admit your defeat
863 reads
8 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
26th Jun 2014 6:45am
26th Jun 2014 6:45am
Waiting
I despise being alone
It just hurts so bad
Yern to find the One
Then I wouldnt feel so sad
I need to find him
For he's my other half
The sadness seems to stem
Out. I just want to laugh
I wish I could smile
To feel alive again
This hole in my chest
My soulmate will mend
I wear a mask
To hide my face
It gives me true comfort
And hides my disgace
Makes me feel like
I vanish without a trace
I will not settle for just any guy
Ill wait forever and watch the days pass me by
It just hurts so bad
Yern to find the One
Then I wouldnt feel so sad
I need to find him
For he's my other half
The sadness seems to stem
Out. I just want to laugh
I wish I could smile
To feel alive again
This hole in my chest
My soulmate will mend
I wear a mask
To hide my face
It gives me true comfort
And hides my disgace
Makes me feel like
I vanish without a trace
I will not settle for just any guy
Ill wait forever and watch the days pass me by
804 reads
12 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
25th Jun 2014 6:19am
25th Jun 2014 6:19am
Thank you
Found an old poem i wrote back in 2009. Hope yall enjoy :)
Thank you for your faith in me
Thank you for your love
Thank you for your sympathy
You're my rock that will not budge
You keep me afloat
During my crashing waves
I am up then back down
I know you dread these days
Your kiss keeps me alive
And your love keeps me sane
Even though I'm enduring
Such horrible pain
I can always count on you
The blistering snowstorms you'd endure
I feel I'm suffocating
Until you open that locked door
I feel like I'm...
Thank you for your faith in me
Thank you for your love
Thank you for your sympathy
You're my rock that will not budge
You keep me afloat
During my crashing waves
I am up then back down
I know you dread these days
Your kiss keeps me alive
And your love keeps me sane
Even though I'm enduring
Such horrible pain
I can always count on you
The blistering snowstorms you'd endure
I feel I'm suffocating
Until you open that locked door
I feel like I'm...
733 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
25th Jun 2014 6:08am
25th Jun 2014 6:08am
My dream
You came to me in the night
I thought you were s dream
And it just seemed so right
For you to set me free
So I called out your name
You walked right up to me
But seemed so far away
You were just a dream
I feel so alone
And can't help but wonder
What this mystery unfolds
I feel so insane
And don't know if you're real
These thoughts, they cloud my brain
A fog before my eyes
Its like a constant rain
But then when I'm awake
I see you're next to me
Your hands caress my face
Your lips,...
I thought you were s dream
And it just seemed so right
For you to set me free
So I called out your name
You walked right up to me
But seemed so far away
You were just a dream
I feel so alone
And can't help but wonder
What this mystery unfolds
I feel so insane
And don't know if you're real
These thoughts, they cloud my brain
A fog before my eyes
Its like a constant rain
But then when I'm awake
I see you're next to me
Your hands caress my face
Your lips,...
773 reads
4 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
24th Jun 2014 9:54am
24th Jun 2014 9:54am
I wish
I wish I could see
What goes on in your head
Is it me? Another girl?
Or those nasty things I said?
I wish i could hear
What you say when I'm gone
That you love me? That you need me?
Or that I've been so wrong?
I wish I could see what you see
When you're lookingbat me
Do you see all the lies
When you looking into my eyes?
Or am I just a memory?
I wish you could see
What goes on in my head
Then maybe you'd understand
Those nasty things I said
I wish you could hear me say
That I'd take it all away...
What goes on in your head
Is it me? Another girl?
Or those nasty things I said?
I wish i could hear
What you say when I'm gone
That you love me? That you need me?
Or that I've been so wrong?
I wish I could see what you see
When you're lookingbat me
Do you see all the lies
When you looking into my eyes?
Or am I just a memory?
I wish you could see
What goes on in my head
Then maybe you'd understand
Those nasty things I said
I wish you could hear me say
That I'd take it all away...
755 reads
4 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
24th Jun 2014 9:43am
24th Jun 2014 9:43am
Inner-madness
Im just like those monsters
Under your bed
In the night I wander
Which fills you with dread
I watch them and I learn
In their shadows I lurk
I crave to feel their burn
And put my madness to work
I wash away the joy of others
With the pain that I possess
And I'll drown out their laughter
With screams of distress
I watch the blood
Drip to the floor
Then when you slip
I crave even more
If only you knew what I have in store
No amount of blood
Will satisfy my thirst
One look at your face brings out my...
Under your bed
In the night I wander
Which fills you with dread
I watch them and I learn
In their shadows I lurk
I crave to feel their burn
And put my madness to work
I wash away the joy of others
With the pain that I possess
And I'll drown out their laughter
With screams of distress
I watch the blood
Drip to the floor
Then when you slip
I crave even more
If only you knew what I have in store
No amount of blood
Will satisfy my thirst
One look at your face brings out my...
798 reads
6 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
22nd Jun 2014 7:44am
22nd Jun 2014 7:44am
End of nights
Darkness all around me
Seems like night all the time
Everyone thinks I'm crazy
But being crazy's not a crime
I cant find the light
Searching high and low
Have I lost my sight?
Have I lost my mind?
I believe I've lost myself
I don't know who I am
A face so unfamiliar
Complete stranger in the mirror
But when you're with me
Light appears before my eyes
The darnkess is gone
I've found myself, my sight, my mind
You are my light in the darkness
I'll never let you go
Because when I'm with you
It's the...
Seems like night all the time
Everyone thinks I'm crazy
But being crazy's not a crime
I cant find the light
Searching high and low
Have I lost my sight?
Have I lost my mind?
I believe I've lost myself
I don't know who I am
A face so unfamiliar
Complete stranger in the mirror
But when you're with me
Light appears before my eyes
The darnkess is gone
I've found myself, my sight, my mind
You are my light in the darkness
I'll never let you go
Because when I'm with you
It's the...
677 reads
4 Comments
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