I feel a sadness deep inside one that will not break to the surface It eats me from inside out and mostly I don't notice Festering deep within the darkness not yet merged For if I only knew what it was then I could purge I ponder over the trigger that makes me cry each time And only come to the conclusion that I just failed in my eyes This is not an option for I have faught so hard I pulled myself from my own hell and gave life a new start Yet there still remains the pain of the failure of my dues. It sits right here with me whatever I persue ...