Submissions by Aptsky (Saira Audrey Furner)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I like to write about any and everything I've experienced or come accross. I started writing poetry at age fifteen, got a few poems published but stopped after a year or so. Then a few years ago I started writing a poem per day. Now I write when I g
Flickering Flames
Flickering, flaring alter candles
Staring me in the face
Questioning my love
What is my burning desire?
They seem to whisper out to me
Beconning my senses
Through their delicate smokey lips
That disappear my direction
How can I answer their question
When I can't predict where love leads
Which direction
It goes
The good or evil side
It shows up on
In my fate
A man dressed in snow white
Plays holy church music
So self-assured
On a oversized organ,
his wedding ring glowing
Just...
Staring me in the face
Questioning my love
What is my burning desire?
They seem to whisper out to me
Beconning my senses
Through their delicate smokey lips
That disappear my direction
How can I answer their question
When I can't predict where love leads
Which direction
It goes
The good or evil side
It shows up on
In my fate
A man dressed in snow white
Plays holy church music
So self-assured
On a oversized organ,
his wedding ring glowing
Just...
#faith
#fate
#spiritual
#philosophical
#curse
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Demon following me for the fall
When things don't go right
Your tinkering with my fears
Naming them all
Throwing the ball at me
Your angry you want to create strife
Reach out to me on the streets
Call me names
Make wicked remarks
Make a game of it
Say your in pain
It's all my fault
Chase me around
Cause I can't
Talk back
Call me
Old
Ugly
Stupid
Useless
You wear and tear
These words
Out of my head
Follow in evil spirit
Ways
You follow evil spirits
Your tinkering with my fears
Naming them all
Throwing the ball at me
Your angry you want to create strife
Reach out to me on the streets
Call me names
Make wicked remarks
Make a game of it
Say your in pain
It's all my fault
Chase me around
Cause I can't
Talk back
Call me
Old
Ugly
Stupid
Useless
You wear and tear
These words
Out of my head
Follow in evil spirit
Ways
You follow evil spirits
#sadness
#jealousy
#loneliness
#rejection
#shame
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Reflections of golden lover lost
I could never clean enough
To clean up all my crystal tears
That get erased
With time, that flew me to
And away from you
Up in vast skies
No matter how much I
Smear tears, there secret rainbows
Onto broken mirrors reflecting
Me away from you
Streaking a light divided
Only you could
Give me a saving chance
Pierce my soul
Embrace me with a golden sunlight
That leaves a space in heaven
For me to sing, so lovely, to have loved you
To clean up all my crystal tears
That get erased
With time, that flew me to
And away from you
Up in vast skies
No matter how much I
Smear tears, there secret rainbows
Onto broken mirrors reflecting
Me away from you
Streaking a light divided
Only you could
Give me a saving chance
Pierce my soul
Embrace me with a golden sunlight
That leaves a space in heaven
For me to sing, so lovely, to have loved you
#happiness
#love
#FirstLove
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Strangers in life
Life's full of scary things
Strangers that push and pull you away
So fast
Trying to serve them their plates constantly
So it's all bearable
Strangers everywhere you look to
And you wonder how you could ever
Relate to them all
Give them a space
In your heart of joy
Make them some kind of room
Hopefully they'll even take?
Or just pass by you
With a laugh
Or awkward expression
On their face
Strangers that push and pull you away
So fast
Trying to serve them their plates constantly
So it's all bearable
Strangers everywhere you look to
And you wonder how you could ever
Relate to them all
Give them a space
In your heart of joy
Make them some kind of room
Hopefully they'll even take?
Or just pass by you
With a laugh
Or awkward expression
On their face
#identity
#confusion
#SelfReflection
#acceptance
#SelfWorth
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Staring at my porcelain cats
Staring at all my porcelain cats
Their glazy eyes wonder
They can see my tears
Dripping in, around my eyes, blinking
A pool of emotions
so real in the moment
I won't swim into right now
They can see my tears
Dropping, dropping
Like the rain outside
That washes away water
But doesn't fade
My knotted up emotion inside
All my porcelain cats
Can see
My emotional anguish
Wading through each
Lonely day
All their lovely names
I whisper out
The names of goddesses
Of my watchful cats
I...
Their glazy eyes wonder
They can see my tears
Dripping in, around my eyes, blinking
A pool of emotions
so real in the moment
I won't swim into right now
They can see my tears
Dropping, dropping
Like the rain outside
That washes away water
But doesn't fade
My knotted up emotion inside
All my porcelain cats
Can see
My emotional anguish
Wading through each
Lonely day
All their lovely names
I whisper out
The names of goddesses
Of my watchful cats
I...
#sadness
#heartbroken
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Meant to love you
All dressed up following crosses
In the ghost light
Not sure if I'm
In the sun or moon light
Being untrue
To love another
When I was meant
To love you
Why must
I live in heartaches,
Secret crushes,
Crashing into confusion
Following crosses lit up around me
When I'm in the
Darkness
Of love lost
Being untrue to love another
When I was meant to
Love you...
Can't follow crosses to love
Except in the darkness
In the ghost light
Not sure if I'm
In the sun or moon light
Being untrue
To love another
When I was meant
To love you
Why must
I live in heartaches,
Secret crushes,
Crashing into confusion
Following crosses lit up around me
When I'm in the
Darkness
Of love lost
Being untrue to love another
When I was meant to
Love you...
Can't follow crosses to love
Except in the darkness
#sadness
#regret
#rejection
#heartbroken
#breakup
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I get lost a lot
I get lost a lot
In your dark eyes
That can forsee troubles
We need to work on
I get lost a lot
In your warm embrace
reaching out for me
Can't seem to get enough
Of your temptations
I get lost a lot
In your gentle
Caress
Your soft hands touching me
I get lost a lot
Hearing your voice
Whispering at me
Your secret love for me
I get lost when you're
Kissing me
Lost in love
In your dark eyes
That can forsee troubles
We need to work on
I get lost a lot
In your warm embrace
reaching out for me
Can't seem to get enough
Of your temptations
I get lost a lot
In your gentle
Caress
Your soft hands touching me
I get lost a lot
Hearing your voice
Whispering at me
Your secret love for me
I get lost when you're
Kissing me
Lost in love
#relationships
#dating
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Fallen predjudice
You say I'm going down the wrong street
Because I'm not your color
You say no one will be brave enough to
Save me
In your bad neighborhood
If I become prey to a con man
You never bother inviting me
To your all black church
Cause your black Jesus
Only sees in color
You say I'm confused
It's a sin to love
One of your dark skinned brothers
You don't understand
What went wrong with me
Because I'm not your color
You say no one will be brave enough to
Save me
In your bad neighborhood
If I become prey to a con man
You never bother inviting me
To your all black church
Cause your black Jesus
Only sees in color
You say I'm confused
It's a sin to love
One of your dark skinned brothers
You don't understand
What went wrong with me
#identity
#morality
#tradition
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Your Drum Beats
Your heart beats
Like a drum rolls a thousand times mine
I hear it's thumping down the street
Your looking for new beats
for me to hear
Beats for every kind of attraction
Beats for every love reaction or fear
Solo beats
Like your heart's off beat pattern
I can feel
You patt down your lonely heart
Patt, pick, patt...
Your beats eco out the emotion
of your soul
Slow steady beats
Bom, bom, boom...
Beats that slide
Tat, tat, tic...
Beats that don't take the peace
Bong, bong, bet... ...
Like a drum rolls a thousand times mine
I hear it's thumping down the street
Your looking for new beats
for me to hear
Beats for every kind of attraction
Beats for every love reaction or fear
Solo beats
Like your heart's off beat pattern
I can feel
You patt down your lonely heart
Patt, pick, patt...
Your beats eco out the emotion
of your soul
Slow steady beats
Bom, bom, boom...
Beats that slide
Tat, tat, tic...
Beats that don't take the peace
Bong, bong, bet... ...
#happiness
#hope
#inspirational
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Seasons end
Curse the cold is the eco in my throat
Nature's motto seems to be in with the new out with the old
I'm drenched in night too early
Too soon
The sun shrinks in size
Sends me shivering
I step on leaves crumbling
Leaves that were so carefully crafted, fully arrayed on trees a month ago
Nature let's them go to the winds
Icy mornings, frozen in motion
I creep about
Hiding from the outpouring of rain
Nature's in mourning
For it's beauty draining, crumbling, drowning, freezing, Browning
Am I but a blue myth
In...
Nature's motto seems to be in with the new out with the old
I'm drenched in night too early
Too soon
The sun shrinks in size
Sends me shivering
I step on leaves crumbling
Leaves that were so carefully crafted, fully arrayed on trees a month ago
Nature let's them go to the winds
Icy mornings, frozen in motion
I creep about
Hiding from the outpouring of rain
Nature's in mourning
For it's beauty draining, crumbling, drowning, freezing, Browning
Am I but a blue myth
In...
#winter
#fall
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An Angels Love
Angels in heaven
Work your magic fairy dust
And entice a love
Pathe the way for two lovers
Who have a need, a desire
For each other
Encompass me with your heavenly angel wings
That forever hold my love in yours
Wide outstretched arms
That are open to eternity
Everlasting love beyond comprehension
Your heavenly body holds me so close
Your so perfect, attractive to humans
You can copy or duplicate
The most attractive face and ways
Angels of light and creation
Encompass me with your energies ...
Work your magic fairy dust
And entice a love
Pathe the way for two lovers
Who have a need, a desire
For each other
Encompass me with your heavenly angel wings
That forever hold my love in yours
Wide outstretched arms
That are open to eternity
Everlasting love beyond comprehension
Your heavenly body holds me so close
Your so perfect, attractive to humans
You can copy or duplicate
The most attractive face and ways
Angels of light and creation
Encompass me with your energies ...
#angels
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Dream Lover trying to find you
Trying to find you
Your one of a kind
Your my dream lover
Fireworks are set off when you are around
Searching for your love, your presence
At every turn off my head
Hopeful for your glance my direction
Your million dollar smile
Your hypnotising stare
Lingering in my mind like the strongest cologne
That sweeps about me
On hot summer days
A transe I'm in after dwelling in your presence
Longing for a long embrace
A reuiniting love affair
A romantic vampire
How can I allure you my direction
How can I spin the...
Your one of a kind
Your my dream lover
Fireworks are set off when you are around
Searching for your love, your presence
At every turn off my head
Hopeful for your glance my direction
Your million dollar smile
Your hypnotising stare
Lingering in my mind like the strongest cologne
That sweeps about me
On hot summer days
A transe I'm in after dwelling in your presence
Longing for a long embrace
A reuiniting love affair
A romantic vampire
How can I allure you my direction
How can I spin the...
#love
#romantic
#crush
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