Submissions by Amandaa (Manda)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
LOVE POEM
Published
19th Mar 2015 2:13am
19th Mar 2015 2:13am
Let me find you.
i have a tendency to run back to the
things that got me here. puffy, red
eyes worn like makeup. searching,
half-blindly, for black and white
moments that once teased them.
once. when my music was your steady
stealing of oxygen amidst the silence
of screams. you hit the highest notes
when you morphed the air into language
and spoke to me. or when your passion
burned so furiously that even I caught
on fire. but it rained when you left,
the water soaked the flames.
now all that's left is smoke, angry at the
wind and angry at...
things that got me here. puffy, red
eyes worn like makeup. searching,
half-blindly, for black and white
moments that once teased them.
once. when my music was your steady
stealing of oxygen amidst the silence
of screams. you hit the highest notes
when you morphed the air into language
and spoke to me. or when your passion
burned so furiously that even I caught
on fire. but it rained when you left,
the water soaked the flames.
now all that's left is smoke, angry at the
wind and angry at...
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NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
7th Feb 2015 3:41am
7th Feb 2015 3:41am
8 months and counting(December)
it was you who told me that time
couldn't change us. that even years
apart would bring us closer together.
it's been 8 months and i've never
believed you less. i can't guarantee
anything, but i know that as this
number of days and months increases,
we are growing colder and falling further
apart. 8 months. since i've seen you in
the flesh. since i've heard your voice
and watched crows feet plant themselves
around your eyes as you laughed at my
dumb jokes. days have been ticking away
for so long, as new mornings give birth to ...
couldn't change us. that even years
apart would bring us closer together.
it's been 8 months and i've never
believed you less. i can't guarantee
anything, but i know that as this
number of days and months increases,
we are growing colder and falling further
apart. 8 months. since i've seen you in
the flesh. since i've heard your voice
and watched crows feet plant themselves
around your eyes as you laughed at my
dumb jokes. days have been ticking away
for so long, as new mornings give birth to ...
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NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
26th Oct 2014 3:01am
26th Oct 2014 3:01am
Aches and pains
i miss you so much my whole entire body hurts.
every delicate limb, flexible muscle. even these
shaky bones are rattling in my flesh, begging for you.
each atom that makes up each molecule that makes up
each cell. the ones that my physical existence is
composed of. they cry for you. silently, secretly.
hidden behind pale satin elasticity. they should have
no shame, my skin weeps too. droplets of salty moisture
rolling from head to toe. wanting to escape like caged
roses. yearning for a release from my strangulation.
these aches make me a...
every delicate limb, flexible muscle. even these
shaky bones are rattling in my flesh, begging for you.
each atom that makes up each molecule that makes up
each cell. the ones that my physical existence is
composed of. they cry for you. silently, secretly.
hidden behind pale satin elasticity. they should have
no shame, my skin weeps too. droplets of salty moisture
rolling from head to toe. wanting to escape like caged
roses. yearning for a release from my strangulation.
these aches make me a...
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
23rd Jun 2012 10:00pm
23rd Jun 2012 10:00pm
My Babygirl.
Fighting each day,
you quickly grew weary.
Closing your eyes,
was so very scary.
Not knowing if they,
would reopen tomorrow.
The day that they didn't,
my heart grew so hollow.
I cried out your name,
in overdue tears.
I sobbed and broke down,
from facing my fears.
I know death was overcoming you,
and eventually won.
It exceeded your limit,
your time here was done.
I'm still coping with this nightmare,
the one I dreaded to come true.
At...
you quickly grew weary.
Closing your eyes,
was so very scary.
Not knowing if they,
would reopen tomorrow.
The day that they didn't,
my heart grew so hollow.
I cried out your name,
in overdue tears.
I sobbed and broke down,
from facing my fears.
I know death was overcoming you,
and eventually won.
It exceeded your limit,
your time here was done.
I'm still coping with this nightmare,
the one I dreaded to come true.
At...
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LOVE POEM
Published
28th May 2012 11:14pm
28th May 2012 11:14pm
His Biggest Foe
There he sits,
arms around his head.
Knees tucked in tight,
his face is now bold red.
Classmates crowd around,
chuckling at his pain.
Slowly tears flood out,
like clouds releasing rain.
How I wish I could help him,
make it all okay.
I would shadow all his sorrow,
take him far away.
But see, the distance is the problem,
we're miles and miles apart.
Yet, I can hear his weaping sobs,
and feel his throbbing heart.
His silence says it all,
his expressions tell all statements.
None of this is his fault,
he was...
arms around his head.
Knees tucked in tight,
his face is now bold red.
Classmates crowd around,
chuckling at his pain.
Slowly tears flood out,
like clouds releasing rain.
How I wish I could help him,
make it all okay.
I would shadow all his sorrow,
take him far away.
But see, the distance is the problem,
we're miles and miles apart.
Yet, I can hear his weaping sobs,
and feel his throbbing heart.
His silence says it all,
his expressions tell all statements.
None of this is his fault,
he was...
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LOVE POEM
Published
25th Dec 2011 5:22am
25th Dec 2011 5:22am
Enough's enough.
What causes my pain is something you can't understand.
You have such a big heart,
that's filled with hate.
It's freezing cold, and stone hard.
It can't shatter like mine has.
Sometimes I feel like I had a glass heart,
and you swung the hammer.
Ice fills your eyes,
fire fills your voice.
It tears through my soul.
My mind has a ripple,
like one of a lake.
Each thought bouncing in my head,
reflecting back and forth.
I've loved you so much it hurts me.
I'm so sick of this.
The fact that enough's enough.
I'm...
You have such a big heart,
that's filled with hate.
It's freezing cold, and stone hard.
It can't shatter like mine has.
Sometimes I feel like I had a glass heart,
and you swung the hammer.
Ice fills your eyes,
fire fills your voice.
It tears through my soul.
My mind has a ripple,
like one of a lake.
Each thought bouncing in my head,
reflecting back and forth.
I've loved you so much it hurts me.
I'm so sick of this.
The fact that enough's enough.
I'm...
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SELF POEM
Published
11th Nov 2011 3:02am
11th Nov 2011 3:02am
Writer's Block
My mind's trying to breathe.
Trying to run, trynna be free.
My imagination's trying to eat.
But, I have nothing to feed.
Creativity seems long gone,
it's lost and not willing to be found.
Vision, taste, smell, its all a blur.
There's nothing special or unique.
Nothing orignal, its all cliche.
Im a mess of tears, blood, and ignorance.
Disgracing my fellow writers,
Letting myself and others down.
Failing my expectations,
not fulfilling my potential.
There's two words I need
to regain it all.
Emotion and Quiet.
Trying to run, trynna be free.
My imagination's trying to eat.
But, I have nothing to feed.
Creativity seems long gone,
it's lost and not willing to be found.
Vision, taste, smell, its all a blur.
There's nothing special or unique.
Nothing orignal, its all cliche.
Im a mess of tears, blood, and ignorance.
Disgracing my fellow writers,
Letting myself and others down.
Failing my expectations,
not fulfilling my potential.
There's two words I need
to regain it all.
Emotion and Quiet.
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SELF POEM
Published
17th Oct 2011 10:05pm
17th Oct 2011 10:05pm
Tourette's Syndrome
Everyday gets harder.
I'm stuggling more and more.
When I think I get farther,
my heart just gets sore.
Im wishing you'd forgive and take me back,
while they're laughing in my face.
I know there's alot I lack,
I just miss your warm embrace.
They make fun of what they dont even know.
Still I fake a smile,
so my brokeness wont show.
Im ashamed of myself,
and the things I just cant help.
Im sorry I have a disorder.
Now im really at the border.
The border of love and hate.
Is dying right now my fate?
Its...
I'm stuggling more and more.
When I think I get farther,
my heart just gets sore.
Im wishing you'd forgive and take me back,
while they're laughing in my face.
I know there's alot I lack,
I just miss your warm embrace.
They make fun of what they dont even know.
Still I fake a smile,
so my brokeness wont show.
Im ashamed of myself,
and the things I just cant help.
Im sorry I have a disorder.
Now im really at the border.
The border of love and hate.
Is dying right now my fate?
Its...
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SELF POEM
Published
17th Oct 2011 9:49pm
17th Oct 2011 9:49pm
Reflection of me
Trynna find a way,
in this crazy life of mine.
Trynna find where I belong,
well its taking a damn long time.
Trynna live the way they all expect.
Trynna do the right thing,
and of course gain espect.
But when you're being beaten,
not physically but emotionally and mentally,
it's hard not to weaken.
Trynna stay strong,
while taking all this abuse.
Trynna keep my head up high,
but really, whats the use?
Trynna show what I can acheive,
but I feel I have no support,
nobody who will belive.
Trynna be and do the best,...
in this crazy life of mine.
Trynna find where I belong,
well its taking a damn long time.
Trynna live the way they all expect.
Trynna do the right thing,
and of course gain espect.
But when you're being beaten,
not physically but emotionally and mentally,
it's hard not to weaken.
Trynna stay strong,
while taking all this abuse.
Trynna keep my head up high,
but really, whats the use?
Trynna show what I can acheive,
but I feel I have no support,
nobody who will belive.
Trynna be and do the best,...
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LOVE POEM
Published
9th Sep 2011 1:24am
9th Sep 2011 1:24am
Distant
I tried forgetting,
that didnt work.
I tried remembering,
that made it worse.
I realized that there's nothing
there to help me.
I wont ignore that fact that im hurting,
even though you do.
I dont need much.
I`ll settle for just a wave from you.
You see me but you pretend you dont.
I just wanna talk but you wont.
When I say talk, I dont mean texting.
Cause that we do.
I wanna hear your voice and
actually be with you.
But when I see your happy,
I cant help but smile.
Even though I realize that means, ...
that didnt work.
I tried remembering,
that made it worse.
I realized that there's nothing
there to help me.
I wont ignore that fact that im hurting,
even though you do.
I dont need much.
I`ll settle for just a wave from you.
You see me but you pretend you dont.
I just wanna talk but you wont.
When I say talk, I dont mean texting.
Cause that we do.
I wanna hear your voice and
actually be with you.
But when I see your happy,
I cant help but smile.
Even though I realize that means, ...
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LOVE POEM
Published
9th Sep 2011 00:44am
9th Sep 2011 00:44am
My new Beginning
I never thought this would happen.
I never thought I would be free.
But God I am so happy,
that I can finally be me.
You'll always be in my heart.
Just not always on my mind.
Now that im not clinging to you,
happiness I will find.
The last time I was this happy
was when we were good friends and going strong.
But I realize now I've been overboard for too long.
I cant believe Im saying this
but Im actually happy to lose you.
Now I can forget all of this,
start over new.
We all make mistakes in life. ...
I never thought I would be free.
But God I am so happy,
that I can finally be me.
You'll always be in my heart.
Just not always on my mind.
Now that im not clinging to you,
happiness I will find.
The last time I was this happy
was when we were good friends and going strong.
But I realize now I've been overboard for too long.
I cant believe Im saying this
but Im actually happy to lose you.
Now I can forget all of this,
start over new.
We all make mistakes in life. ...
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LOVE POEM
Published
6th Sep 2011 3:09am
6th Sep 2011 3:09am
Stuck to You
Oh, I hate that stupid spell
that made me want no one else.
Under that horrid curse
Im glad I broke free before
things got any worse.
Even your voice would distract me
from whatever I would do.
Now I dont even know why,
not the slightest clue.
To be honest I dont know what
I was so crazy about.
Or why-until now- I havent had a doubt.
Having someone there for me the way you were
was what I had wanted.
But I was just so sick of being taunted.
My life isnt going to be all
about you anymore.
Cause now I've...
that made me want no one else.
Under that horrid curse
Im glad I broke free before
things got any worse.
Even your voice would distract me
from whatever I would do.
Now I dont even know why,
not the slightest clue.
To be honest I dont know what
I was so crazy about.
Or why-until now- I havent had a doubt.
Having someone there for me the way you were
was what I had wanted.
But I was just so sick of being taunted.
My life isnt going to be all
about you anymore.
Cause now I've...
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