Submissions by AlwaysCaliban (Caliban)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Setting myself up to fail
Sometimes, on nights like this
where I am alone, waiting
I remember what it used to be like
years ago, to wait and wait
For something the future would bring
It was always looming on the horizon
foreboding and omnipresent
manifesting in me over the years
an underlying core of anxiety
knowing it was only a matter of time
I still don't know what it is
when it will come, and what it will take
It reminds me of darker nights
always waiting, like tonight
worrying myself to...
where I am alone, waiting
I remember what it used to be like
years ago, to wait and wait
For something the future would bring
It was always looming on the horizon
foreboding and omnipresent
manifesting in me over the years
an underlying core of anxiety
knowing it was only a matter of time
I still don't know what it is
when it will come, and what it will take
It reminds me of darker nights
always waiting, like tonight
worrying myself to...
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Poetry
Fuck this
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A Writer's Duet
How interesting it would be
if you and I belonged to one another
this bond is too strong to betray
though I'd try not to hold too tight
smothering you within my grasp
I'd let you slip through my fingers
now and again
just enough so that you would live freely
and affections aren't tainted by constraint
I'm a relaxed lover, but Darling,
don't confuse that with disinterest
I lust for you, truly
your words written on the canvas of our creation
two souls bound on determination
it gives me a rush I can't describe
I can...
if you and I belonged to one another
this bond is too strong to betray
though I'd try not to hold too tight
smothering you within my grasp
I'd let you slip through my fingers
now and again
just enough so that you would live freely
and affections aren't tainted by constraint
I'm a relaxed lover, but Darling,
don't confuse that with disinterest
I lust for you, truly
your words written on the canvas of our creation
two souls bound on determination
it gives me a rush I can't describe
I can...
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So, you say you are a Satanist?
Hey, I know what you are
sitting there trying to act coy
playing with the darkness
and you think it's fucking cool
well let me tell you something
about what you're trying to do
it's a fucking phase
serving only your own pretentious ego
serving under the shadow of a "Dark Lord"
you look like a fool
pretending to be mysterious
with your five dollar piece of crap pentagram
go ahead and make believe that you're worthy
sipping cranberry juice under the guise of blood
out of a plastic...
sitting there trying to act coy
playing with the darkness
and you think it's fucking cool
well let me tell you something
about what you're trying to do
it's a fucking phase
serving only your own pretentious ego
serving under the shadow of a "Dark Lord"
you look like a fool
pretending to be mysterious
with your five dollar piece of crap pentagram
go ahead and make believe that you're worthy
sipping cranberry juice under the guise of blood
out of a plastic...
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Resentment
I've been in this dark place
for quite a while now
if this place had a name
it might be "Dissatisfaction"
or something like,
"Indifference" or "Weariness"
All suiting words
describing a dreary situation
I've heard I'm good with words
but maybe I'm not
maybe just most people are terrible with them
but that's beside the point
the point is really,
that I am so very tired of this
this feeling that seemed to manifest
deep inside
roots buried so deep in my core
that this diseased tree will...
for quite a while now
if this place had a name
it might be "Dissatisfaction"
or something like,
"Indifference" or "Weariness"
All suiting words
describing a dreary situation
I've heard I'm good with words
but maybe I'm not
maybe just most people are terrible with them
but that's beside the point
the point is really,
that I am so very tired of this
this feeling that seemed to manifest
deep inside
roots buried so deep in my core
that this diseased tree will...
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As He Dreams
His dreams are filled with shadows
of what he always wanted to be
of what he used to be
with the painful revelation of truth
Half of his being ripped away in an instant
his better half he thinks now
the one that could take him places
run, walk, climb, even stand
All of it taken away by a car accident
his small frame crippled on impact
snapped his spine
and left him without the use of his legs
A boy his age should be able to play
He thinks sullenly as he watches
the world around him...
of what he always wanted to be
of what he used to be
with the painful revelation of truth
Half of his being ripped away in an instant
his better half he thinks now
the one that could take him places
run, walk, climb, even stand
All of it taken away by a car accident
his small frame crippled on impact
snapped his spine
and left him without the use of his legs
A boy his age should be able to play
He thinks sullenly as he watches
the world around him...
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Sorry I find your pain amusing
So it has come to this..
I knew it was only
a matter of time
time slipping away from me
as I watch it stream down the drain
I assumed this would happen
Yet,
something inside of me wanted to see how far I could push
To see the limits strained
and delight in the frustration you express
trying to keep your composure
If you asked if I was sorry,
I'd have to say yes
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
But I don't regret it
I loved every twisted minute of it
At first...
I knew it was only
a matter of time
time slipping away from me
as I watch it stream down the drain
I assumed this would happen
Yet,
something inside of me wanted to see how far I could push
To see the limits strained
and delight in the frustration you express
trying to keep your composure
If you asked if I was sorry,
I'd have to say yes
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
But I don't regret it
I loved every twisted minute of it
At first...
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Bitter
A contemptuous and spiteful nature has taken hold of me
It envelops my mind in a wasteland of malignant cynicism
Emotion and compassion a twisted and defiled mutation
Leaving a taste in my mouth that is unpleasant, at best
My smile often becomes a false interpretation of pleasure
Finding little humor in every day pursuit
Grey walls closing in around me with chains of dissatisfaction
I grow weary of the facade I've held on to for so long
It's slipping through my fingers faster than...
It envelops my mind in a wasteland of malignant cynicism
Emotion and compassion a twisted and defiled mutation
Leaving a taste in my mouth that is unpleasant, at best
My smile often becomes a false interpretation of pleasure
Finding little humor in every day pursuit
Grey walls closing in around me with chains of dissatisfaction
I grow weary of the facade I've held on to for so long
It's slipping through my fingers faster than...
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Currently untitled [Part two]
Flickering red light from a weary sign filters through the grimy window
The cab creaking ominously as it limps over a pothole jarringly
and comes to a stop across from a soggy looking abandoned apartment building
Unkempt, destitute, and potentially unstable, much like my own
It's still raining outside, the night sky painted a stormy grey
I pay the cab driver for my fare, grumbling under my breath
and step out, deftly avoiding a current of oily gutter water
Waving him off with a middle finger salute for ripping me off
I see my breath before...
The cab creaking ominously as it limps over a pothole jarringly
and comes to a stop across from a soggy looking abandoned apartment building
Unkempt, destitute, and potentially unstable, much like my own
It's still raining outside, the night sky painted a stormy grey
I pay the cab driver for my fare, grumbling under my breath
and step out, deftly avoiding a current of oily gutter water
Waving him off with a middle finger salute for ripping me off
I see my breath before...
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Tender Blossom
Delicate, demur, subdued, beauty
Oh, how you rise in me the softest of desires
Fragile and captivating
You sway and flutter to gentle, rhythmic notes
Dancing before me,
Yet miles away from my reality
You are the epitome of feminine
Alluring and majestic
In a very coy and tranquil way
Filling me with a burning fascination
Yearning to graze my fingers across your silken skin
Though touching you would be a sin
Your name alone means "Artist"
And you are finer than any lovely...
Oh, how you rise in me the softest of desires
Fragile and captivating
You sway and flutter to gentle, rhythmic notes
Dancing before me,
Yet miles away from my reality
You are the epitome of feminine
Alluring and majestic
In a very coy and tranquil way
Filling me with a burning fascination
Yearning to graze my fingers across your silken skin
Though touching you would be a sin
Your name alone means "Artist"
And you are finer than any lovely...
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Currently untitled [Part one]
Rain falls heavily on the buildings surrounding me
I leave the lights off, gazing at the large canvas of city lights
It's night, but in a city that never sleeps, shadows run deep
Only within them is where you'll find true darkness
The sound is mesmerizing, splashing off the fire escape
Coating my windows with thousands of dazzling jewels
I lean against my wall, veiled in shadow
Watching the busy streets below me, filled with people up late
My gaze flickers to the soft digital glow of 1:13 am on my wrist
Nearly time to go, I...
I leave the lights off, gazing at the large canvas of city lights
It's night, but in a city that never sleeps, shadows run deep
Only within them is where you'll find true darkness
The sound is mesmerizing, splashing off the fire escape
Coating my windows with thousands of dazzling jewels
I lean against my wall, veiled in shadow
Watching the busy streets below me, filled with people up late
My gaze flickers to the soft digital glow of 1:13 am on my wrist
Nearly time to go, I...
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Sanitarium
Hazy thoughts of discontent
plague my confidence as of late
A dampening of emotions causing
a moldy growth over my conscience
I wonder as to whether
my lackluster existence is to blame
Introverted into my own
claustrophobic prison of doubt
Seclusion is starting to wear on me
where there used to be just anxiety
the process of conversion has begun
mutating back into debilitating insanity
Once insane, always insane
though the intensity comes and goes ...
plague my confidence as of late
A dampening of emotions causing
a moldy growth over my conscience
I wonder as to whether
my lackluster existence is to blame
Introverted into my own
claustrophobic prison of doubt
Seclusion is starting to wear on me
where there used to be just anxiety
the process of conversion has begun
mutating back into debilitating insanity
Once insane, always insane
though the intensity comes and goes ...
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