Submissions by Alexisf (MadeDifferently)

All I Can Do Is Cry Right Now
It's Like I Avoided Any Sound
But What I Do Hear Is
My Heart Pounding
Head Throbbing
Hands Clenching
Heart Sobbing

You Never Listen to Me Anymore
You So Worried About Yourself
What About Me
We Were Suppose To Be Close til The End
The One I Came To About My Problems
The One Who Believed in My Dreams
The One Who Was Suppose to Watch Me Succeed
But Now All You Do is Make Me Scream
I Can't Believe I've Gotten to This Point
Had Thoughts It Wasn't Meant to Be
...

You Know What I Shouldn't Be Feeling
Pain and Loneliness
You Promised You Would Never Hurt Me
Disappoint Me
But All You've Done Was Discourage Me
Made it Harder to Love
Love Myself
Love Anyone Else
I Thought You Knew How I Felt
But Now, Now You Just Make Me Melt
Melt in Agony, Depression
When We First Met
I Thought You Were A Blessing
But All You Did Was Please Me Sexually
Touch Me with Your Soft Hands
And Kiss Me Aggressively
That's When You Began to Lose Me

But I Needed More Than That
I...

I Can't Believe it
I Can't Believe I Made It This Far
My Thoughts, My Feelings, My Scars
These Scars Mean A lot To Me
Something that I want everyone to see
Others have em, I know it's not just me
But For a while I wanted to hide it,
For some time I couldn't describe it
I wanted to be left alone
Feeling shattered, depressed
Trying to make everyone happy, no neglect
Looking out for my family, my friends, even strangers
But what about myself?
Was anyone curious to know how I felt?
Saying "I'm Alright" is not the answer to...

Sometime I Ask Myself
Am I Not Good Enough?
Is There Something Wrong with Me?
Is it My Actions or The Words I Say?
Or Is It The Way I Portray Myself,  A Beautiful Black Queen
I Know I've Been Hurt, Shit I've Been Traumatized From It, But I Still Have Hope
I Pray for A Change to Better Myself and Never Be Torn Again
I Know I'm Not Perfect, But Somehow I Feel Worthless
My Family Raised Me Right, What Did I Do To A Deserve This?
I Guess I Have to Trust the Lord and Find His Purpose
Before I End Up With Someone Who Ain't Worth Shit
Patience is What...