Submissions by AfterAsh (Ash before the beauty)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
Words pour as fast as the emotions say hello to me. Sometimes after I write, I read the words for the first time and think "wow. shes inside of me."
SELF POEM
Published
29th Jul 2019 7:02pm
29th Jul 2019 7:02pm
Bad at titles, open to suggestions
This sadness does not deserve a place in me.
Maybe once before,
But not anymore.
This darkness is where I got comfortable,
But it does not belong here,
Not anymore.
The love I longed for is now what I take for granted,
Blindly before,
But not anymore.
Words that hit like daggers,
Words I may have caused,
But through the thoughts in all the fog,
I wont be her, anymore.
She used to have such tiny horns,
But I lit fires that gave her more
More control of all my thoughts
But now I see, I've never fought. ...
Maybe once before,
But not anymore.
This darkness is where I got comfortable,
But it does not belong here,
Not anymore.
The love I longed for is now what I take for granted,
Blindly before,
But not anymore.
Words that hit like daggers,
Words I may have caused,
But through the thoughts in all the fog,
I wont be her, anymore.
She used to have such tiny horns,
But I lit fires that gave her more
More control of all my thoughts
But now I see, I've never fought. ...
#strength
#redemption
312 reads
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NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
29th Jul 2019 6:56pm
29th Jul 2019 6:56pm
Desired demons
I feel a little crazy, i look a lot the same.
I sorta feel scared of all the motion in my brain.
I feel a little psycho, i sound a lot the same.
I sorta feel as if my haven cant still keep me sane.
I feel a little calmer, i look a lot more tired.
I sorta feel as if my crazy makes me quite desired.
💎😈 ♡A
I sorta feel scared of all the motion in my brain.
I feel a little psycho, i sound a lot the same.
I sorta feel as if my haven cant still keep me sane.
I feel a little calmer, i look a lot more tired.
I sorta feel as if my crazy makes me quite desired.
💎😈 ♡A
#admiration
280 reads
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SELF POEM
Published
24th Jul 2019 9:45pm
24th Jul 2019 9:45pm
Pull me out
I cant find myself
Its stranger that I notice.
I cant hear myself
I'm trying to stay focused.
I feel as if im deep somewhere
But not because I'm sad
Maybe I'm off collecting things
Like knowledge to be held
I can find myself
I'm not sure that I'm looking
Who the hell is running things?
My mind needs some adjusting
I can't hear myself
I'm not sure that I'm listening.
Who the hell is speaking then?
She actually sounds quite tempting.
I cant feel myself
This girl is way too numb
I may...
Its stranger that I notice.
I cant hear myself
I'm trying to stay focused.
I feel as if im deep somewhere
But not because I'm sad
Maybe I'm off collecting things
Like knowledge to be held
I can find myself
I'm not sure that I'm looking
Who the hell is running things?
My mind needs some adjusting
I can't hear myself
I'm not sure that I'm listening.
Who the hell is speaking then?
She actually sounds quite tempting.
I cant feel myself
This girl is way too numb
I may...
#emptiness
319 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
23rd Jul 2019 4:16pm
23rd Jul 2019 4:16pm
You'll never catch her in color, cause black is her favorite.
If you tell her your feelings, she'll tell you to save it.
Her soul is like glass, so weak it could shatter,
But her mind keeps her strong, reminds her what matters.
But then there's this thing, that beats in her chest
She don't know how to use it or how to make it feel less.
It takes up her time, it takes up her mind,
It takes up her days and she can't rewind.
She looks at her life and it's so full of color,
The one thing she hated as the beating thing grew fuller.
She...
If you tell her your feelings, she'll tell you to save it.
Her soul is like glass, so weak it could shatter,
But her mind keeps her strong, reminds her what matters.
But then there's this thing, that beats in her chest
She don't know how to use it or how to make it feel less.
It takes up her time, it takes up her mind,
It takes up her days and she can't rewind.
She looks at her life and it's so full of color,
The one thing she hated as the beating thing grew fuller.
She...
#LifeAsAWriter
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SELF POEM
Published
23rd Jul 2019 4:02pm
23rd Jul 2019 4:02pm
Am i puking glass or being honest cause its getting hard to tell.
I found you placed so carefully right before i fell.
I held on in hopes of being whole and was sadly dissapointed.
I have fallen apart even more than ever and this was not what i wanted.
Im a sore loser and i cant seem to grasp my flaws.
But i hear a lot of voices tell me straight through all my walls.
Time for acceptance has never been a good time for me,
So try at four in the morning when all my demons seem to speak.
Im sure theyll tell you whats become of us with harsh words and...
I found you placed so carefully right before i fell.
I held on in hopes of being whole and was sadly dissapointed.
I have fallen apart even more than ever and this was not what i wanted.
Im a sore loser and i cant seem to grasp my flaws.
But i hear a lot of voices tell me straight through all my walls.
Time for acceptance has never been a good time for me,
So try at four in the morning when all my demons seem to speak.
Im sure theyll tell you whats become of us with harsh words and...
#LifeAsAWriter
300 reads
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SELF POEM
Published
22nd Jul 2019 7:06pm
22nd Jul 2019 7:06pm
Shes existing
Shes in a trance.
Following the moon like it's got something to offer.
Shes in a trance.
Confusing good with evil, God someone please stop her.
Shes full of rage.
Putting edge to her words even when she speaks softly.
Shes full of rage.
Hating herself even knowing that's costly.
Shes existing.
Suppressing silent thoughts until she starts sleeping.
Shes existing. ♡A.
Following the moon like it's got something to offer.
Shes in a trance.
Confusing good with evil, God someone please stop her.
Shes full of rage.
Putting edge to her words even when she speaks softly.
Shes full of rage.
Hating herself even knowing that's costly.
Shes existing.
Suppressing silent thoughts until she starts sleeping.
Shes existing. ♡A.
#LifeAsAWriter
387 reads
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SELF POEM
Published
22nd Jul 2019 7:01pm
22nd Jul 2019 7:01pm
Stealing visions
I ain't tryin to but my minds been roamin'
I tried to catch her but she smiled and just kept on goin
She looks back at me to make sure I'm still watchin
Cause once I look away she knows that theres no stopping
No theres no stopping.
And now it's been some time since I last seen her
She quit looking for me once she could conquer
I could hear her cry through smiles at night
Though she took my eyes she still lost her sight.
But theres no stopping,
But not cause I quit watching.
I'd listen to her breaths shed take, ...
I tried to catch her but she smiled and just kept on goin
She looks back at me to make sure I'm still watchin
Cause once I look away she knows that theres no stopping
No theres no stopping.
And now it's been some time since I last seen her
She quit looking for me once she could conquer
I could hear her cry through smiles at night
Though she took my eyes she still lost her sight.
But theres no stopping,
But not cause I quit watching.
I'd listen to her breaths shed take, ...
#identity
#MentalHealth
#escape
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