Submissions by 0ld_s0ul

You say that I'm running...
But is it running when being pushed away? "I'll call you in a sec..."
crickets, then here you come with another excuse to say. I've been through this time and time again, in every which way.

I saw a very knowledgeable quote today and this is what it said...
"Never be too comfortable with any situation. People and things can switch up in a blink of an eye."

This thing started so different but now feels the same, why? Being alone wasn't lonely for once until you fell from the sky. Like an angel whos words can lift you up 10 feet...

I'm back man, like I'm batman. Knockin dudes out with a backslap from my left hand. Risen from the ashes like a fal-can. Oops I meant a Phoenix. Restarting my life for the 4th time, I'm Darius 3.0, the remix.

I'm killing this recovery shit like a dope track when the beat hits. I'm lit! Yes theres 1000 different flavors to this omelet. So sit back and relax before you miss it.

When I'm up, nothing can stop me. However when I'm not, it seems like anything can knock me, down down into a deep dark abyss. Feelings of self-pity, hate, and wallowing, they're like boulders that seem to heavy to lift. So what changes? Why do I fight to climb?
Idk but when I do, I feel so alive. Accomplishment after accomplishment, they come so fast; I don't think I can handle it. You see I'm afraid, afraid that i can't man this ship. It sinks and it rises, sinks and it rises, when will the next wave hit? I don't know but right now, I'm on my shit. So I guess I'll keep going.

To kill my dog or myself
This is my struggle
He isnt happy in his little bubble
Am I being selfish, I wonder
You see I'm a slave to the system.
A system that is designed to make young black men and women believe that they are the problem.
It creates a defeatist mentality that grows so strong that by the time they finally break free in their mind, the reality of their situation is too far gone.
Yes they have the mentality to make something of themselves but they've already dug a hole that is too deep to climb out of.
We drink to numb the pain of not...

A million people to talk to but no one to be honest with. Wanna wipe myself out bc its easier than this shit. Gotta put my dog down but dont think I can handle it. This might be the thing that makes me quit. Give up, bullet to the dome. As I drive off a cliff to make sure I... im saying too much. Im tired of...