Poetry competition CLOSED 25th May 2014 11:33pm
WINNER
ScarlettA (Scarlett_A)
ScarlettA (Scarlett_A)
RUNNER-UP:
MariahEatsBabies13
What's Behind You?
What Do I See?
You said to look behind me
And tell you what I see
I'm afraid to turn around
Who knows what I might see?
It could be something staring back at me
I'm a schizophrenic
With my voices and shadows
You want me to face them
And end this constant battle
If I just faced my demons and look them in the eye
Maybe they'll leave me alone
And I won't have to cry
If these things already know my name
Maybe I'm just going insane
Deep inside this little game
I'm only calm when it rains
Taking the chance to finally see
How terrible can they be?
I turn slowly towards the door
Where my name is said in whispers
I only see a door
Thank God there's nothing more
Just a bag and gray door
Maybe I was imagining the whole thing
Everyone knows that I'm insane
I turned something simple
Into a non-stop idiotic mystery
You said to look behind me
And tell you what I see
I'm afraid to turn around
Who knows what I might see?
It could be something staring back at me
I'm a schizophrenic
With my voices and shadows
You want me to face them
And end this constant battle
If I just faced my demons and look them in the eye
Maybe they'll leave me alone
And I won't have to cry
If these things already know my name
Maybe I'm just going insane
Deep inside this little game
I'm only calm when it rains
Taking the chance to finally see
How terrible can they be?
I turn slowly towards the door
Where my name is said in whispers
I only see a door
Thank God there's nothing more
Just a bag and gray door
Maybe I was imagining the whole thing
Everyone knows that I'm insane
I turned something simple
Into a non-stop idiotic mystery
The Old Me
As I sit hear on my couch
I look back and see my reflection in the window
I take notice of this person
Someone I don't even know
I try to look back even further
Trying to figure out where I went wrong
Remembering all my mistakes
Regretting each one of them
So many bridges burnt
All to ashes
Somewhat like my hopes and dreams
All because I lost my better judgment
And wanted to live rule free
Look where it got me ...
Reminiscing on the past
I realize now I literally smoked my life away
My memories lie within smoked stained glass
I can blame the shards for the pain
But I can't surpass the bitterness of reality
Life is what you make it
I may have lost myself along the way
But I can still make a change
It all starts with me
~ Mariah Dalli
As I sit hear on my couch
I look back and see my reflection in the window
I take notice of this person
Someone I don't even know
I try to look back even further
Trying to figure out where I went wrong
Remembering all my mistakes
Regretting each one of them
So many bridges burnt
All to ashes
Somewhat like my hopes and dreams
All because I lost my better judgment
And wanted to live rule free
Look where it got me ...
Reminiscing on the past
I realize now I literally smoked my life away
My memories lie within smoked stained glass
I can blame the shards for the pain
But I can't surpass the bitterness of reality
Life is what you make it
I may have lost myself along the way
But I can still make a change
It all starts with me
~ Mariah Dalli
i look behind me and see a mirror
in the middle of the mall, there is a mirror.
first thought that comes to mind
a horror movie has come alive.
i stare at the mirror,
what happened to my hair.
my huge ass afro, gone
like a field after its harvest.
scared shitless i close my eyes tight
hoping this is all a dream.
i slowly open my eyes and the mirror is gone...
with a huge sigh of relief,
i look forward again.
AND ITS BACK, THE MIRROR IS BACK!!!
silly me,
how could i forget
that i am a TWIN
(complete spur of the moment lol)
in the middle of the mall, there is a mirror.
first thought that comes to mind
a horror movie has come alive.
i stare at the mirror,
what happened to my hair.
my huge ass afro, gone
like a field after its harvest.
scared shitless i close my eyes tight
hoping this is all a dream.
i slowly open my eyes and the mirror is gone...
with a huge sigh of relief,
i look forward again.
AND ITS BACK, THE MIRROR IS BACK!!!
silly me,
how could i forget
that i am a TWIN
(complete spur of the moment lol)
Anonymous
My life is slowly seeping
And my soul is slowly weeping
The addiction is slowly creeping
The aftermath needs sweeping
I didn’t set out to be an alcoholic
Surprise, my only son was colic
Because of fetal alcohol syndrome
I managed to hurt one of my own
It was no surprise that I’d turn out this way
My mother took me from my father one day
I never knew why and never was told
Right up until she became feeble and just too old
She took the secrets to her grave
And long ago decided there was a reason why I chose to misbehave
In a destructive, sadistic, selfish way
It was because I was “mental” like him, just like she would say
Looking behind me I see my bed
Where I spend most of my time and lay down my head
In the bureau I keep a bottle of elixir for the soul
And I drink it fast, afraid that it will be found or become old
I drink to excess every time I drink
I don’t even give myself time to think
Just sit on the bed and get wasted most every day
There is nothing anyone can do or say
So what if I am killing myself slowly
I never said that I was ever holy
And it is not against my religion so far
At least I’m not passing out in a bar
When I was young, I used to go out to have fun
But it became dangerous; there were cops; I was on the run
Now I sit on my bed to get drunk
Whenever, usually always, when I am in a funk
Spiraling out of control; I learned years ago
That I had to keep myself hidden; that no place was safe to go
So I became a shut in, with a secret kept from all
I stay in my bed so I don’t continue to fall
Most of the time, my head starts to spin
Oh how I love that feeling that alcohol gives
Now my mouth is giving a grin
But this is not how anyone I know lives
It is a beautiful bed, soft and king sized
I’ve soiled it many times, puke and pee reeks
I’m no longer attractive, and all I speak are lies
Welcome to alcoholism and my bed, where my addiction speaks
And my soul is slowly weeping
The addiction is slowly creeping
The aftermath needs sweeping
I didn’t set out to be an alcoholic
Surprise, my only son was colic
Because of fetal alcohol syndrome
I managed to hurt one of my own
It was no surprise that I’d turn out this way
My mother took me from my father one day
I never knew why and never was told
Right up until she became feeble and just too old
She took the secrets to her grave
And long ago decided there was a reason why I chose to misbehave
In a destructive, sadistic, selfish way
It was because I was “mental” like him, just like she would say
Looking behind me I see my bed
Where I spend most of my time and lay down my head
In the bureau I keep a bottle of elixir for the soul
And I drink it fast, afraid that it will be found or become old
I drink to excess every time I drink
I don’t even give myself time to think
Just sit on the bed and get wasted most every day
There is nothing anyone can do or say
So what if I am killing myself slowly
I never said that I was ever holy
And it is not against my religion so far
At least I’m not passing out in a bar
When I was young, I used to go out to have fun
But it became dangerous; there were cops; I was on the run
Now I sit on my bed to get drunk
Whenever, usually always, when I am in a funk
Spiraling out of control; I learned years ago
That I had to keep myself hidden; that no place was safe to go
So I became a shut in, with a secret kept from all
I stay in my bed so I don’t continue to fall
Most of the time, my head starts to spin
Oh how I love that feeling that alcohol gives
Now my mouth is giving a grin
But this is not how anyone I know lives
It is a beautiful bed, soft and king sized
I’ve soiled it many times, puke and pee reeks
I’m no longer attractive, and all I speak are lies
Welcome to alcoholism and my bed, where my addiction speaks
Anonymous
Congrats Scarlett_A
and thanks for digging on my entry.
High 5 Missy & MariahEatsBabies13!
and thanks for digging on my entry. High 5 Missy & MariahEatsBabies13!
