Cheating

whether you were the one that cheated, been cheated on, watched someone do it, whatever it is, just about cheating

hey baby how are you?
i really love you honey,
yeah i love you too,
aw bless your funny.

lets go to bed and forget,
yeah come on lets hit reset,
on today and start a new,
because you know i love you.

you say that i alot dont you,
well dont you love me too?
of course i do just saying is all,
im going to work just wait for my call.

come on call me it been all day,
come on answer your phone,
guy answers the phone and she says your gay,
wait til she gets home and shes not alone.

who the fuck is this guy,
you wherent meant to find out like this,
your a bitch you know, i start to cry,
he better im sorry, after that i see red,
he stands there looking guilty,
any idea what the fuck you too did to me?

i go to the kitchen and lift the bread knife,
theres a struggle and in chaos he gets his throat sliced,
look what you made me do you dumb fucking slut,
i chase her down and being to cut and cut.

police come out and im crying and heartbroken,
ive sliced my own vains open im bloodsoaken,
i cant live in this world thats full of cheats,
i cut her up into little bits of dog meat treats.

see love really does make us do crazy things,
some cant do anything but open up and sing,
my love and jealousy took over and i killed,
my only true love and her blood i spilled.

my love,
gone,
who did wrong,
now 3 lives are gone...................

BUSTED

Sat in Daytona, feeling bad for leaving.
I knew in those day's , all we did was argue.
I still felt so connected, yet madly neglected.
Sitting on a sun porch-calling your cell phone.
Laughter at dinner, none of it mine.
Telling friends I'm okay, and yes, we're fine.

Margaritas by the pool, still trying to get hold of you.

Imagining you're hurt or worse-
Calling hospitals, slurring my words.
A text from you at 9 O'Clock-((upset I see))
And again I'm lost.

Midnight brings a sudden shudder- I love you wherever you are, I mutter.

2 am, try you again-your voice on the message Is a comfort, I replay it-to hear you say it.

3 am, I send you an e-mail, wishing you would call because now I don't feel well.

4 am, I am pacing the floor- Hoping you're sleeping and can't hear the phone.

5 am, you should be up for work- Yet still no answer, still no word.

6 am, and I'm changing my ticket dealing with the Airport- never felt sicker

7 am, ready and packed, eyes sore from crying I just can't relax

8 am, you answer the phone As it turns out, you were at home.

8:04 I heard her say- Is your wife coming home today?

"For Someone Else"
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And, who planted
the seeds of heartbreak,
but you
who walked
inside out,
pressing lips not mine,
right
across the hall.
It was indeed
wrong.
I took the fall
so many times,
my brain became
black and blue.
Who knew
you
would
fall harder
someday,
not
me.
You joined me
in
my sacred pain.
Now,
we both cherish
broken wishes,
the dreams that
were never true,
but
for someone else.

Exhausted from work
Slowly stumble into my city apartment
And there you were receiving a rework
Two of my best friends have you bent
And you didn't even stop, stop to say sorry.

3 pairs of guiltless eyes stare into me
3 naked bodies lay their stench free
I stand there strong refusing to fall on my knees
I want now to drown my ugly, crying soul at sea
Walking through busy streets of Melbourne with a smile
The way to hide a broken heart:)

There was no end to this night
Damaged, tortured,  suffering why do I waste my fight
Bruised and weakened my heartbeats
Finally fall to my knees
breathing stutters because of cheats
Undeserving tears of love and trauma leak out to blend with rain drops falling onto my finger tips.
I kneel there wanting the sea to fulfill my end.

I close my eyes and hope for a death
Only 2 of my so called friends
Goodbye slut, I love you.



Written by Ugly and i smile (chilipino)  

Philander
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" I've missed you "
He pushes me up against the wall
"But-" His lips are devouring mine before I can think

I remembered the way he used to hold me, the way it always felt right

I quickly fall under his spell

" I Still Love You "
He grips me tighter

A single tear escapes my eye
Feelings had never changed

" I Know "
All I say

After a long night filled with nearly forgotten love, I awaken

Then my emotions erupt
I begin sobbing

"Whats wrong?" Michael touches my arm
Then I realise it was a dream
I hadn't cheated

But this made me worry

Maybe I will

CHEATING

have you cheated on an exam because you thought you were stupid

     your parents were pressuring you to get better marks

have you cheated at a game of cards just to see if you could get away with it

     it gives you a sense of superiority that you need so much

have you cheated on your boyfriend with another guy or gal

     your poppa cheated on your momma - it must be all right

have you handed in an essay that was written by a paper mill

     you wanted to get into med school and you could only get As

have you passed a false cheque because you did not have the money

     the judge was kind - made you only do public service

did you buy a lottery card with a friend - a close friend at that

     when you won the money - you never shared it

did you help yourself to your father's pain pills - he has chronic pain

     you heard it would give you a high but it just made you sick

have you ever haggled the price down at a flea market

     the seller was out of work and this was his only source of income

did you keep the change when the cashier gave you back too much money

     you did not realize it was taken off her cheque

did you take money out from the church during the mass collection

     you really needed the money so you thought that justified it



how did you feel when you found your husband cheating

     i felt inadequate as a wife, mother and lover

how did you feel when you found your employee embezzling

     i felt like there were no honest people in the world

how did you feel when you realized your best student did not write the essay

     i felt puzzled and dismayed - she could have done it if she tried

how did you feel when someone stole the church's petty cash

     i felt nobody knew the ten commandments any more - how low can you go

how did you feel when you lost at poker and then realized somebody was marking the cards

     i felt like i was taken for a fool - the joker in the pack was me

how did you feel making up another excuse to get out of the house

     i felt awful but this affair is what i need right now

how did you feel when you said - i love you - just to keep the peace

     i felt it was the only way to prevent a divorce that would make me poor



is the truth the best policy - well not necessarily - we do not like to be told we are ugly

     some small lies are necessary so that we do not insult each other

are you feeling smug because you are so honest and religious

     i just cannot believe you were perfect all your life

did you marry the rich man for whom you were a mistress

     did you just realize he was cheating on you too

do you cheat because cheating makes you feel more cunning than others

     this is so common  it happens every day in every way

do you cheat on your income tax because you feel the world owes it to you

     cheating on income tax is almost a virtue - nobody really thinks it is bad - except the IRS

we admire winners and despise losers - does that make cheating all the easier to justify

     probably - but it sounds like Satan is whispering in your ear

i am cynical and thinks everybody cheats - the honest ones are just not discovered easily

     it is the Machiavelli in me talking - my honest personality is hiding

Taken


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took from the front; then…took from behind
took what eye could see; then took while claiming blind
took time to take; wide awake…this wasn’t sleepy time
took chances on romances like some hellacious grind

took off them garters; those fresh ones…that sexy touch of lace
took deep hard breaths to keep up, to creep up on her pace
took it all, her back… yes, I smacked it justa bit
took all which was lean, yes, I gripped the small of it
took my tongue; then begun…indeed, she had a fit
took all she could, it was good she worked her ass for it
took like a fiend; for this scene…the way she pampers it  

took her well-equipped parted lip knowing it wasn’t mine
took his picture off the dresser, then laid it on the side
took her quickness doing this…didn’t want him to see us ride  
took cheating to a level… one willing for us to find

everything we wanted leaving just the took behind
those taking, they come easy when the took has took their mind






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photo: bill poon  
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Eye Got The Blank Stares


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kid -
napped

slept right through the whole bit; a lullaby
giving me less than a grand goodbye
 
this gift;  the last rift
 
a non - comforting display of artful erosion
empty words by me they were taken
when received?
they felt - not to be  mistaken
 
she’s now caught (up) short and very red handed
eyes were upset - so my eyes
they demanded
 
yet all my eyes received was that blank stare
micro-bits of hard wrung tears  
 
enjoined by a bitter task
the unmasking of her unseen affairs
all - adding to my subsequent stare
wherein my single tear added more  
a solemn - not silent retort about a whore
 
she now pulled out of place; then
replaced by pressure
feeble her efforts by any measure - she
made to feel like
she was my departing treasure  
 
fractured & stolen - theft covered (up) by a dutiful smile
an unexpected - trial
style empty of any genuine feeling
ears could hear in her voice - all
all - that she wasn’t revealing
 
nothing to parrot or graph
nothing to say - just a blank  
 
words worth - not mentioning
nothing describing a picture of well being  

my ears now
that are here now
weren’t hearing what she’d been saying - without words
 
now her smile curves
 
and eye believe to whomever it now serves
leaving me
 
deaf -  dumb  -  blind




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photo: andreea anghel
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amazing

love this

it was a cold night in October
one i wish i could do over
we went out to have a good time
just like every friday night
laughing and jokin
feelin alright
one shot after the other
i should have known better
but when she smiled at me
i lost everything
oh
 
one night
that didnt mean a thing
cost me my little girl
and a diamond ring
one night
full of mistakes
turned into more heart break then she could take
one night
of being where i i shouldnt be
and she walked away from me
one night
and one phone call
oh all it took was one night
and i lost it all
 
she placed her hand on my knee
and instead of walking away
i just let it be
she was some stranger
i couldnt understand
but i should have seen the danger
for miles
but i got lost in someone else's eyes
the feeling of a strangers lips on mine
made me blind
oh
 
one night
that didnt mean a thing
cost me my little girl
and a diamond ring
one night
full of mistakes
turned into more heart break then she could take
one night
of being where i i shouldnt be
and she walked away from me
one night
and one phone call
oh all it took was one night
and i lost it all
 
now i'd do anything to go back
get back on track
but it dont work like that
so girl i apologize
for those tears in your eyes
 
one night
that didnt mean a thing
cost me my little girl
and a diamond ring
one night
full of mistakes
turned into more heart break then she could take
one night
of being where i i shouldnt be
and she walked away from me
one night
and one phone call
oh all it took was one night
and i lost it all

it was a cold night in October
one i wish i could do over
we went out to have a good time
just like every friday night
laughing and jokin
feelin alright
one shot after the other
i should have known better
but when she smiled at me
i lost everything
oh
 
one night
that didnt mean a thing
cost me my little girl
and a diamond ring
one night
full of mistakes
turned into more heart break then she could take
one night
of being where i i shouldnt be
and she walked away from me
one night
and one phone call
oh all it took was one night
and i lost it all
 
she placed her hand on my knee
and instead of walking away
i just let it be
she was some stranger
i couldnt understand
but i should have seen the danger
for miles
but i got lost in someone else's eyes
the feeling of a strangers lips on mine
made me blind
oh
 
one night
that didnt mean a thing
cost me my little girl
and a diamond ring
one night
full of mistakes
turned into more heart break then she could take
one night
of being where i i shouldnt be
and she walked away from me
one night
and one phone call
oh all it took was one night
and i lost it all
 
now i'd do anything to go back
get back on track
but it dont work like that
so girl i apologize
for those tears in your eyes
 
one night
that didnt mean a thing
cost me my little girl
and a diamond ring
one night
full of mistakes
turned into more heart break then she could take
one night
of being where i i shouldnt be
and she walked away from me
one night
and one phone call
oh all it took was one night
and i lost it all

Outside The Light   2009


You tore out the air
which supplied my heart
then you left me there
to slowly fall apart  
saturday lies
even week nights
you'd look in my eyes
outside the light

Remembering , wandering
the back streets of our years
my everything , squandering
a reduction to tears .

You turned to cast
like a hollow thing
I burned to ash
in a molten ring
the kids did ask
for you to bring
yourself back home
to hope we'd cling .

Off the wall
so desperately
I did so fall
descent , gravity
down I went painfully
to cracked cement , a cavity
you walked , hell bent  
away from me
how could you dent
our family
these babies were sent  
from the heavens to me
how could you have spent
what comes for free .

You cheat...

You said you were mine  
but you held another  
You said I was yours  
and a little later  
you were hers.  

You said you wanted me  
but you did not care  
when I was blue  
and I needed you  
you were not there.  

A game you played  
without guilt or shame  
a tick tack toe  
you want her too  
after a romp with me...  

You kissed another  
after you kissed me  
you said you did not mean it  
you lied, you were just another  
cheap cheating cheater!