Heartbreak: Your take.

Boken

Breaking into tiny pieces
A heart shattered like glass
Mind twisting and wondering
Futures left hanging by a thread
Cheated on once and yet I loved
Years pass without hesitation
Then once again my heart is broken
Happiness you seem to seek
At my shattered loves pain
To carry on with loves dillusion
Or look past to uncharted waters
Both are hard to fathom
As right now I am simply broken

To She That Is My World

I made her cry today with the words I wrote
The wound that bleeds won't be sealed with ease
I'm left not knowing where this leaves us now
How to pick up the pieces, how to reverse the frowns
How to move past these depressing downs
So sensitive the heart that's deeply in love
Such hurt isn't mended with a simple kiss or hug
When distance afar separates us still
These things widen the gap that's not easily filled
All I can say, with these words of my own
Is I love you my dear, and you are not alone
I caused this mess with a single blow
But I hope with time this will help us grow
Into the strong couple I know that we are
Because through everything you're my shining star
And baby, I can't live without your glow
Come back to me, my heart, my essence, my flow
Tell me you love me again before you go
Please, please, please, I beg of thee
I need you now and I will always be
The love you cherish more than breath
When life is done our love will be left
It's eternal baby, our connection, our ties
So, let me kiss the tears from your eyes
Wipe the slate clean of the sorrow and sighs

how   to    lose   your    love
 
so we decided to meet    
 
lufthansa flight    
eighteen hour midair    
chaos    
 
loss of sleep    
and goods    
 
onset of impatience    
and self doubt    
 
greyhound station    
seven hours of    
silence    
more doubt    
fatigue    
jet lag    
 
half away across    
the world    
 
torrential rain    
of the west    
hotdog    
grilled chicken    
 
indian delivery guy    
exchange of    
smiles and    
hand shakes    
 
latest copy    
of debonair    
sneaked in    
quietly    
 
free of cost    
 
more of

waiting rain impatience    
 
finally i get thru    
hear your voice    
 
not what i would    
expect if someone    
had traveled    
from a 14 hour    
time difference    
 
buddha is right    
must not expect    
 
i get told there    
has been a storm and it will    
be there for some time    
 
the line gets disconnected    
 
i call some people and    
check the news    
 
no storms in your area    
 
your facebook is not    
accessible and there    
is dead line every    
time i call your    
landline    
 
$80 a night motel    
hbo bath pool bar    
 
three bottles of    
jack daniels    
 
seven hours of    
getting up from caked vomit    
pouring booze over knuckles    
screaming tearing up    
 
and i had given someone    
a dressing down for    
calling me a crazy fucker    
 
damn right    
 
the manager sends across    
an $300 escort    
a dresden doll    
 
she asks me if i    
have rubber    
lube funny things
 
her name is lenna    
she is  a year younger    
than me  
 
shaved    
facial fine  
but no hard stuff    
 
i pull her down    
she chokes me in    
between silicone plates    
 
i go at it for a while    
her rhythmic gasps    
bore me to death    
 
she claws my ass    
i give it hard    
she shudders    
yelps  
 
home run    
 
go at it for some more    
and some more    
 
she shudders again    
aah aah ohh oooh    
jesusfuck whatnot    
 
kisses me    
full of love    
a different kind    
than whats got me    
here    
   
and some more    
claws some more    
bites her lips    
fingers herself    
 
disgusting    
 
finally get down    
 
she gets to work in no time    
starts to make sounds    
all kinds    
 
i get close  
 
finally i feel it    
 
the tears burst out of me    
 
moments later watch lena    
leave with my wallet    
that has the only photograph    
of her inside    
 
goodbye lena    
goodbye stranger    
goodbye love    
 
hours dont wait up    
they keep going    
 
finally i get up      
a swig of jack daniels    
 
hello debonair      
damn beauty    
 
sigh  

Lurking at my core within
The monster is awake
The essence of a poisoned sin
Waiting for my soul to take
A heart that breaks
Nested in my nature now
Roots that writhe and weave
Bury me beneath the plow
Rotting with the worms and weeds
My spirit in a stranglehold
The God inside me up and leaves
The creature finally surfaces
And I am not the one you see
He looks like me
He talks like me
He walks like me
He fucks like me
His eyes are brown
His voice it resonates my sound
He wears my ring and knows my frown
Though I am lost and never found
I watch you through his hollow eyes
I hear him fool you with his lies
I wish sometimes that I could die
I long to end the suffering
I await a reckoning as
I transcend into this thing
No longer do my senses sting
My conscious cannot feel a thing
Inside my heart there is no sound
The silence becomes deafening
The smile transcends into frown
I pass you by upon the road
By she who loved me long ago
Don’t say hello
She crossed the street
Then glances back
As I descend
My heart turns black