Poetry competition CLOSED 26th September 2012 1:33am
WINNER
MrAlptraum (Mr A)
MrAlptraum (Mr A)
RUNNER-UP:
lepperochan
Suicide
Within Me
Scars
Run deep
Within me
My wrist bleeds
Because of you
Slowly
I'm loosing power
To resist the monster
Within me
Fighting way to the surface
I feel you
Crawling beneath my skin
Breaking through
To my inner thought
within me
You seek darkness
The darkness of my veins
My innermost mind
You see through my eyes
Taking control
Within me
Bring forth
My dead memories
Of you
The lies
The monster pursues
Within me
So i do
As I'm told
Temptation draws me in
Scars
Run deep
Within me
My wrist bleeds
Because of you
Slowly
I'm loosing power
To resist the monster
Within me
Fighting way to the surface
I feel you
Crawling beneath my skin
Breaking through
To my inner thought
within me
You seek darkness
The darkness of my veins
My innermost mind
You see through my eyes
Taking control
Within me
Bring forth
My dead memories
Of you
The lies
The monster pursues
Within me
So i do
As I'm told
Temptation draws me in
Goodnight sweet earth ~ Nietschke
Goodnight sweet earth
For time hasn't been
that sweet,
For most
Pretence won't work
Syphilis has ruptured
Mind sits in darkness
The lark no more
The dark covereth
Adorned by night
Even Nietschke proclaimed
God is dead, so
Goodnight sweet earth
Place pretend in
it's rightful place
And sleep
For today is the same
as tomorrow and
this world is deep.
Goodnight sweet earth
For time hasn't been
that sweet
Black roses ~ a poem for the girl who died from cyber bullying
One day a girl died
Hung herself
She was 16
No one suspected
That Emily, happy Emily
Was being bullied on the Internet
But she was
And she took her life
At the funeral were black roses
For the supposes
Suppose she couldn't handle it
Suppose she had depression anyway
Suppose she was weak
Suppose she....
Emily left behind a brother
A mother and a father
A best friend and a dog
And all the supposes that
Come with cyber bullying
The biggest suppose being
Isn't someone supposed to do something
The Emily Foundation
Was set up to create awareness
About cyber bullying and it's effects
......And she took her life
At the funeral were black roses
CLOSE MY EYES
Something evil with me walks I hear him whisper deep within
Do not be afraid of this "Thy dying day" he says
For you the end of pain I'll rend
Death is in my face wrapping his warm embrace
around my body soul and mind
He is telling me "To Be truly free"
Death is the only way I'll find
Help me please Is anybody there cus i feel so all alone
Death is calling me and he knows my name
Saying He will take me home
Something evil with me talks I am soothed by sweet dark lies
He speaks of promises The end of lonliness
And sings me deep dark lull-a-byes
Death is in my eyes I cannot see to find
my way from deep and dark despair
For he is lulling me with thoughts of leaving thee
And of a world that doesn't care
Can someone help me please!!! Is ANYBODY there?
I cannot even seem to try
Death is at my feet and he is pulling me
I CLOSE MY EYES and say goodbye
Something evil with me walks and as he swiftly lays me down
Forever bury sorrow deep with me
While wrapped in mother natures brown
Something evil with me walks I hear him whisper deep within
Do not be afraid of this "Thy dying day" he says
For you the end of pain I'll rend
Death is in my face wrapping his warm embrace
around my body soul and mind
He is telling me "To Be truly free"
Death is the only way I'll find
Help me please Is anybody there cus i feel so all alone
Death is calling me and he knows my name
Saying He will take me home
Something evil with me talks I am soothed by sweet dark lies
He speaks of promises The end of lonliness
And sings me deep dark lull-a-byes
Death is in my eyes I cannot see to find
my way from deep and dark despair
For he is lulling me with thoughts of leaving thee
And of a world that doesn't care
Can someone help me please!!! Is ANYBODY there?
I cannot even seem to try
Death is at my feet and he is pulling me
I CLOSE MY EYES and say goodbye
Something evil with me walks and as he swiftly lays me down
Forever bury sorrow deep with me
While wrapped in mother natures brown
Back To The Egg
Good-bye my friend
I'm goin' back to the egg
Where no light ever shines
To the void of the mind
Leavin' life far behind
Yes my ship will be sailing tomorrow
Good-bye my dear
I'm goin' back to the egg
Where no one's ever been
So that I can't be seen
While I lie back and dream
Yes my dear I'll be dreaming about you
Leaving on that dirt road down there
'Cos you don't seem to care
And you've got them lying for you
But babe who's lyin' on you
Has he eyes enough to see through your smile?
Good-bye my love
I'm goin' back to the egg
Going to lie down and sleep
In the womb of the Earth
Back before my life's birth
Yes my love I'll be sleeping tomorrow
jj
Good-bye my friend
I'm goin' back to the egg
Where no light ever shines
To the void of the mind
Leavin' life far behind
Yes my ship will be sailing tomorrow
Good-bye my dear
I'm goin' back to the egg
Where no one's ever been
So that I can't be seen
While I lie back and dream
Yes my dear I'll be dreaming about you
Leaving on that dirt road down there
'Cos you don't seem to care
And you've got them lying for you
But babe who's lyin' on you
Has he eyes enough to see through your smile?
Good-bye my love
I'm goin' back to the egg
Going to lie down and sleep
In the womb of the Earth
Back before my life's birth
Yes my love I'll be sleeping tomorrow
jj
"I Give Up, I Quit, Just Let Me Go"
It's hard to smile, it's hard to laugh
When the only thing worth laughing at
Is my miserable fucking life
Filled with nothing and drenched with fat
It's hard to see in the darkness
That surrounds me everywhere I go
I close my eyes and embrace death
For love's embrace I'll never know
It's hard to love without a heart
I gave mine away so long ago
Now she is someone else’s wife
And I'm no one you'd want to know
It's hard to want without desire
I don't give a damn any more
I'd rather quit this empty life
And pass through Hades open door
It's hard to know what love is
When no one has ever loved me
Don't bother trying to save my life
A soul not worth taking for free
It’s impossible to save
Not even Jesus Christ will save me
From wasting what our Father gave
And accepting my destiny
jj
It's hard to smile, it's hard to laugh
When the only thing worth laughing at
Is my miserable fucking life
Filled with nothing and drenched with fat
It's hard to see in the darkness
That surrounds me everywhere I go
I close my eyes and embrace death
For love's embrace I'll never know
It's hard to love without a heart
I gave mine away so long ago
Now she is someone else’s wife
And I'm no one you'd want to know
It's hard to want without desire
I don't give a damn any more
I'd rather quit this empty life
And pass through Hades open door
It's hard to know what love is
When no one has ever loved me
Don't bother trying to save my life
A soul not worth taking for free
It’s impossible to save
Not even Jesus Christ will save me
From wasting what our Father gave
And accepting my destiny
jj
Suicide Note
Here's this note
I'll be leaving behind
for you to find
as I run to the woods
to put a bullet in my head.
Maybe you'll find me
dead,
blood pouring out of my head
making a sticky red river.
Here's this rope
I'll tie up high
making a noose
that is perfect for my neck.
I'll jump,
breaking my neck,
me going limp.
I hope you find the note
that fell from my hand
as my neck broke in two
and
my breath finally escaped this prison.
I hope you scream
as you see my body,
spinning in slow circles,
a wicked grin on my face.
My note,
I hope you understand
those three little words.
They say everything on how I felt.
It will say everything you need to know.
Dear Family,
Happy I'm gone?
p.s- I am
Here's this note
I'll be leaving behind
for you to find
as I run to the woods
to put a bullet in my head.
Maybe you'll find me
dead,
blood pouring out of my head
making a sticky red river.
Here's this rope
I'll tie up high
making a noose
that is perfect for my neck.
I'll jump,
breaking my neck,
me going limp.
I hope you find the note
that fell from my hand
as my neck broke in two
and
my breath finally escaped this prison.
I hope you scream
as you see my body,
spinning in slow circles,
a wicked grin on my face.
My note,
I hope you understand
those three little words.
They say everything on how I felt.
It will say everything you need to know.
Dear Family,
Happy I'm gone?
p.s- I am
"Dharma is pleasant suicide"
Never again spun through turnstyle.
Never again imprisoned
or released in ecstatic flesh
No more electrified dirt
searching for ground
or to connect
Clog the pin-holes in the illuminated backdrop
create for me no more shade
allow this dash to close beneath the roses
one last time then close the gate
Never again a spoke, and
never again its spin
When me, as wheel, is met again
never again will end
Never again spun through turnstyle.
Never again imprisoned
or released in ecstatic flesh
No more electrified dirt
searching for ground
or to connect
Clog the pin-holes in the illuminated backdrop
create for me no more shade
allow this dash to close beneath the roses
one last time then close the gate
Never again a spoke, and
never again its spin
When me, as wheel, is met again
never again will end
An old one so maybe not a valid entry, whatever...
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< a wonderful life >
Solid iron primitive steel
before they got to you you
so refined here you your
face you using it as a brush
a pencil a stuttering picture
movie manipulated freeze
frame slow motion solid
iron never a thought of
fragile before it broke
before you broke it me
you the pronouns started
running personal a few
moments before this but
NOT fragile
NEVER fragile
a solid iron primitive
steel before they got
to you so refined here
you your face you using
it as a brush pencil pen
stylus of moods manic
multitudes but never you
never they never you as
manipulated freeze frame
slow motion solid iron
never a thought of fragile
before it broke before you
broke breakable before
me not you
me not you
iron primitive steel
just you just a few
just a few moments before
this NOT fragile solid iron
before they got to you so
refined here you your face
you using it as a brush
painting:
< a wonderful life >.
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< a wonderful life >
Solid iron primitive steel
before they got to you you
so refined here you your
face you using it as a brush
a pencil a stuttering picture
movie manipulated freeze
frame slow motion solid
iron never a thought of
fragile before it broke
before you broke it me
you the pronouns started
running personal a few
moments before this but
NOT fragile
NEVER fragile
a solid iron primitive
steel before they got
to you so refined here
you your face you using
it as a brush pencil pen
stylus of moods manic
multitudes but never you
never they never you as
manipulated freeze frame
slow motion solid iron
never a thought of fragile
before it broke before you
broke breakable before
me not you
me not you
iron primitive steel
just you just a few
just a few moments before
this NOT fragile solid iron
before they got to you so
refined here you your face
you using it as a brush
painting:
< a wonderful life >.
"Drowning"
Where were you all? The broken skulls, empty minds,
scarred scars and blackened hearts with extended index fingers
all should have been here tonight. You missed the show.
roll up, roll up, watch a man turn into poultry
roll up, roll up, watch a man turn....
There is no real technique, just a dogged determination
to fall with the greats in armour and the nobodies, off the atlas -
and each blue star bleeds emerald fire
for the choices of the fickle worldlings, but don't tell
the stars just how close I came to being the dullest supernova.
Death pressed his beak to my nose, refused my hand
to let me gaze upon the black placid sea beyond his socket
and as I shrugged off his eyeless gaze the water became amniotic.
I burst out the membrane gasping, snapping at the air, clutching.
roll up, roll up, watch a chicken weld the egg
roll up, roll up, watch a chicken weld....
Nobody ever wants to drown; drowning cannot be a choice,
so each blue star spits blue flame, knowing, we are all the same.
Where were you all? The broken skulls, empty minds,
scarred scars and blackened hearts with extended index fingers
all should have been here tonight. You missed the show.
roll up, roll up, watch a man turn into poultry
roll up, roll up, watch a man turn....
There is no real technique, just a dogged determination
to fall with the greats in armour and the nobodies, off the atlas -
and each blue star bleeds emerald fire
for the choices of the fickle worldlings, but don't tell
the stars just how close I came to being the dullest supernova.
Death pressed his beak to my nose, refused my hand
to let me gaze upon the black placid sea beyond his socket
and as I shrugged off his eyeless gaze the water became amniotic.
I burst out the membrane gasping, snapping at the air, clutching.
roll up, roll up, watch a chicken weld the egg
roll up, roll up, watch a chicken weld....
Nobody ever wants to drown; drowning cannot be a choice,
so each blue star spits blue flame, knowing, we are all the same.
The casted reflection taunted his sanity mocking his saddened expression
Devouring him as he stares into the eye's of what once was a promising man
Before the bright heavens turned into a silhouette of the hell he faces
Loneliness and solitude is now what he has learned to embrace
Bitterness intertwined with neglect trims away his self respect
Consumed within the hell that reflects when he stares in the mirror direct
Disconnected but sane, sane but maddened lost in the shadows
Being burnt alive in the fiery depths of his weeping soul
The world is so cold, so still and surreal no control
As he resembles a ball rolling aimlessly down the hill
tumbling towards the edge of the place he is destined
Echoes chant in the air as he beckons
His world looks dark in his mind, but everything remains the same
He has fought everything that came, every pain that rained
From his eye's, he often ponders suicide
But he's to strong to die, when his world is dark he opens his third eye
Knowing, expecting, embracing for the next lie
Pink Floyd
The road was too long.
Every destination not reason
enough. Each hurried, yellow line
in the center so damning,
and so ahead.
How do they sit in the sun
all alone? Without a semblance
of a conversation had? A laugh?
They're inanimate, I'm aware, but,
at noon they dance.
The hum-dum-dum buzzing of a
taughtly wrung noose is the last
thing I think of, and Pink Floyd
appropriately cooes:
"Comfortably numb....
Comfortably numb.....
Comfortably numb......"
The road was too long.
Every destination not reason
enough. Each hurried, yellow line
in the center so damning,
and so ahead.
How do they sit in the sun
all alone? Without a semblance
of a conversation had? A laugh?
They're inanimate, I'm aware, but,
at noon they dance.
The hum-dum-dum buzzing of a
taughtly wrung noose is the last
thing I think of, and Pink Floyd
appropriately cooes:
"Comfortably numb....
Comfortably numb.....
Comfortably numb......"
Anonymous
“Pain Convention”
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Bringing heavy rope
to the private party,
tying tight nooses,
slinging them high,
saying bye-bye,
never asking why-why.
Getting real loose,
juiced on
mountains of
pharmaceutical dope,
smoking multiple
shots of whiskey,
a shotgun to the head,
slitting skinny wrists,
soaking in bubbles,
gulping monoxide while
hiding in cars,
dreaming about Mars,
surviving on thin threads,
closed off from a
world making us sore
down deep inside,
thinking we would be
better off dead
instead of
living a life with
constant induced dread,
drowning in desperation.
Imagine a suicide convention and
nobody showed up but the pain.
http://eventbrite-s3.s3.amazonaws.com/eventlogos/1154794/411pain.png
Bringing heavy rope
to the private party,
tying tight nooses,
slinging them high,
saying bye-bye,
never asking why-why.
Getting real loose,
juiced on
mountains of
pharmaceutical dope,
smoking multiple
shots of whiskey,
a shotgun to the head,
slitting skinny wrists,
soaking in bubbles,
gulping monoxide while
hiding in cars,
dreaming about Mars,
surviving on thin threads,
closed off from a
world making us sore
down deep inside,
thinking we would be
better off dead
instead of
living a life with
constant induced dread,
drowning in desperation.
Imagine a suicide convention and
nobody showed up but the pain.
Daylight comes it's jagged blades,
the blanket of night it hacks away.
The harbour of oblivion, gone,
another fucking day begun.
Another day of gnawing pain,
another day the fucking same,
desperation, desolate burning,
sweet release the balm your yearning.
Pills for thrills, seeking highs
to deaden down the inner cries.
pills for kills, seeking rest
close your eyes, but fail the test.
Slash and cut, cigarette burn hate,
finally grasp your control of fate.
A length of rope, a gentle drop!
At last, No pain, the end, Full stop!
the blanket of night it hacks away.
The harbour of oblivion, gone,
another fucking day begun.
Another day of gnawing pain,
another day the fucking same,
desperation, desolate burning,
sweet release the balm your yearning.
Pills for thrills, seeking highs
to deaden down the inner cries.
pills for kills, seeking rest
close your eyes, but fail the test.
Slash and cut, cigarette burn hate,
finally grasp your control of fate.
A length of rope, a gentle drop!
At last, No pain, the end, Full stop!
