make me sad

This is soooo relatable. I'm still not over my ex :'(

No Pain


You eat away all my pain,
like a hungry child.
You’re crying,
praying to the god you don't believe
in to kill you.
You just want to see me happy.
But it's slowly killing you isn’t it?
You’re suffering every night.
Slitting your wrists,
you still don’t know I’ve seen the scars.
Swallowing pills like candy,
yeah I see the pill bottle in your backpack.
Slowly getting emptier and emptier every day.
I see the suffering behind your green eyes,
the pain under that smile.
You scream yell tell me it’s all my fault.
You tell me to stop being so fucked up
so you don’t have to help me anymore.
Then you pulled the trigger
Killing yourself.
Leaving me to deal
with this alone,
Then me killing myself,
so we can be happy together.  


No pain.

You ripped my heart out
And shredded it
You left me aching
And alone
With only my tears
For company.

my room

My room is hell,
to me its my cell.
i sit on my bed,
with a razor in my hand.
it cuts deep into my skin,
i now knpow i have sinned.
i do it again and again and again,
finally, i pass out.
laying on my bed,
with a weary head.
ilook down at my wrists,
and notice the cuts.
and then i think,
well here we go again.
another day,
another night.
i put up with this crappy life...

i joke
so others will see me
i joke
so others will laugh
i joke
so others will not always run away
im not scary
im just sad
i joke
to pretend
i joke
to lie to myself
i joke
to keep the pain away
im not happy
im misrible
i joke
to save myself
i joke
to draw others near
i joke
so im not so lonely
i am a Joker
because i hurt